Of Petrification

"The More You know,the More you Know you Dont Know."

That's a quote i heard on the radio last year(Or the year before the last)from Jamie Yeo when she ended her show.Well,its so true under normal circumstances.They say that the beauty of studying lies between the pages,the satisfaction you get after you learn something new.And the more you learn,the greater and wider the world becomes.Well,all too true.Well,today wasnt such a pleasent scenario.In other words,not a normal circumstance.Its the A levels.The maths paper.And do you know what that means?That means,its time for me to face my fears and be in a state of petrification.

Ive never passed maths.And by that,i mean ive always been failing.So you know how i felt when i woke up this morning in my bed,feeling dreadful and all.They say that last minute studying doesnt help.I beg to differ.I studied "Unemployment" for Prelims and got 17/25 for that question.Last minute stuff helps!Anyway,so there i was flipping through my guidebook(Or the Bible,according to Jasmine)and realised that i forgot a lot of things.And they say that the more you know the more you know you dont know.I mean,i thought learning is a form of enjoyment?Well,supposingly i guess.And guess what,it is not today.Definitely not.Seeing things for the first time an hour before the paper is NOT fun.Its NOT enjoyment.And its definitely NOT enriching.

What the hell,i took my sweater,grabbed my Ipod and left the house with the guidebook in my hands.I reached school pretty early,and was pretty shocked by the number of people who already arrived.Sitting beside the hall with my classmates was alright,since friends always help to calm an anxious soul.But there i was asking Nisah about how to find the range for a function.Oh my god.I thought Functions is supposed to be one of the easiest topics.More information came in,and there i was sitting on the crowd with the guidebook in my hands,petrified.You know how the informations just start pouring in right before the exam.It started raining,and Nisah said,"Its like a blessing from God".Well,that's a beautiful way to put it Nisah.But i prefer to interpret it as "The Weeping of God".Well,sort of like warning me about the nightmare that is about the come.Oh well,petrification here i come.

The paper was weird,with weird questions.I mean,there was a question that goes "Name this type of Parallelogram"(Or something along that line).Ok,that's like asking me giving me the answer before i answer it.Well,the only other type of Parallelogram i know is a Rhombus.So i wrote that,and apparently i got that right.I guess luck was with me all the way,most of the time anyway.I actually got the "Odd Numbers" question correct.At least i got the same answer with Samantha,which is VERY encouraging indeed.And as for the rest,i dont think i want to think about it.Not right now anyway.

Before me is a seven day break.Then comes ANOTHER maths paper.Petrification continues,and i expect myself to be stunned once more.Feel my heart pound against my chest and heat building up in my sweater as my pen trembled in my cold palm.Oh my,i can just imagine myself sweating,and white foam flowing out of my mouth.Signs of petrification.It is a disease,a terminal one.One that ends your career and puts a brick wall on your road to victory.Damn these psychological bullshit.Damn.

Song of the Moment---White Houses by Vanessa Carlton(Yes,another chick song)