Of the Spinning Penny
When you are split into two decisions,most people would resort to a penny.The lucky penny.Take that flick with your thumb and let fly.The penny takes that spin through the air and then lands on the ground with a loud cling.Your eyes are fixed on the penny as it spins on its axis on the floor,and the rotations formed a beautiful sphere all round.The spinning slowed down,and the sphere disintegrated into a lobe.Your eyes are now opened so wide your eyeballs couldve rolled out of your sockets.Eagerly,you wait for the results with your palm already sweating.And the penny spins to a stop......

Im torn between two right now.Or rather,im not sure which to choose.The question is,"Do I" or "Do i not?".I am not going to reveal what comes before those questions,but all you need to know is that i am torn in two.To be honest,i would rather the answer be "No".Like i ever stressed,it is a burden that i am not willing to bear.Its not like i even have a choice if the answer is "I do" anyway.Its not going to make much of a difference.After all,the decision on the other end has been made,with determination.Whichever route i choose to take,which ever weapon i choose to wield is not going to change anything.For some reason,i dont know why i am seeking a penny for an answer.Why am i torn in two when my options are already made so crystal clear?Subconciousness is a scary thing.It pulls you into this pit like temptation does with your mind.

Perhaps that is why i am seeking the aid of a single penny.A small penny no bigger than your palm,and i am putting my fate on this little penny.I wonder what powers it possesses.I suppose it is the simplicity of it all.The two sided-ness of it all.It's either this,or that.It just makes things a whole lot easier i guess.Just give me a whole bunch of pennies and the problem of decision making will then be left to those circular little metallic objects.

"When in doubt,follow your nose..."---Gandalf,The Lord of the Rings:The Fellowship of the Ring

Anyway,about my doubt,i have no idea how i should put it in order to maintain the current situation.By saying it,its like blowing up the moon with twenty million tonnes of TNT and changing the tides on Earth.Fine,maybe not such a catastrophic effect,but close enough anyway.I shall keep my mouth shut for now,and keeping this within my secret garden.Locked up and well guarded.No,im not going to tell anybody.Not yet anyway.Only the penny knows,and it is spinning.Spinning on the axis of my fate and spinning slower now.

"When in doubt,*beep*..."---Lieutenant Colonel Frank Slade,Scent of a Woman

And the penny spins slower and slower.I rubbed my palms together and awaited the arrival of my fate...

"When in doubt,spin away..."

The penny spins to a stop with neither the sides facing up.It stopped on its axis,and neither side had dominance over another.I guess,i am back in square one.

Song of the Moment---The Tribute by Tenacious D