Of the Three Wheeled Car
"Hate to break this to you,but you have to move on." was what a friend of mine told me over the SMS a few nights ago.I was a little down.Again.Moving on,what an easy word for us to say huh?Like the tagline from the "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind" poster,"You can erase someone from your memory.But erasing from your heart is another story.".True enough,its easy to tell everyone,"Hey,Ive gotten over her.She's nobody anymore.From now on I'll address her as 'Who?'".Everything's easier said than done.Studying for one,takes more than just words to carry out.There's a chinese saying,which says that it is useless to have the courage and not the plan during a war.Courage is nothing more than plans on papers,and an army of one.They say that,life is a long stretch of road,where the destination is unknown.How does it end on this road of mine?Nobody's certain,since only the journey is written,and not the destination.

Just picture yourself in a convertable,driving down a long stretch of road in the middle of nowhere.Memories are behind and the world ahead.You close your eyes and feel the wind brush past your cheeks,and you let go of the wheels and let fate direct your car.You feel a few holes and bumps here and there,but the car continues on without stopping.Suddenly,you feel tired and weary.You feel like the car is stirring off course,and your eyelids feel heavy.In the distance,you see a motel.The nicest motel you've ever seen.It was empty,and it was the most beautiful human structure you've ever seen,despite it being a motel.You are tempted to grab a bite,you are desperate for a drink,you want a soft mattress as your bed tonight.Here,you can find anything you desire.You dont want to go,and you dont want to leave.Time stops,and you feel like you're in paradise.There's this lady at the motel,she serves you well.If you had a choice,you'd bring her on this long lonely journey of yours down the road,and forsake the motel and everything behind.To most travellers,she's merely another waitress at a motel.But to you,she's the most astounding woman you've ever seen.And you are glad that,you saw something in her that no one has ever seen before.At the motel,you made friends with this lady.You went to your car,and hooked out the most beautiful heart you found on the road and gave it to her.She was happy,she was glad.She smiled as you handed it to her.And for months,you thought everything went on fine,smoothly.You figured it wouldve captured her heart,and despite the fact that you have to leave the place soon,you remained stubborn and stayed behind.Then the time comes,you ran out of money.She tells you,that you have to leave the motel.You are reluctant,and you are sad.You ask if you could take her with you,but she refused.She insists on staying,because thats her job.She smiles,and she waved.It started to rain,and you couldnt drive out there in your convertable.You stay for a while,and she reluctantly made you another room.But when the clouds clear and the sun shines,she forces you out of the motel again.You have to leave,and once again you ask her to come with you.To accompany you into the unknown,but she refuses yet again.She then smiles,and walked you to the car.Just as you are about to open the car door,she hands back the heart you gave her earlier,and pressed it into your arms.You stopped,and looked at her."It was meant to be a gift,keep it."you said.Though however unwilling,she accepted it once more.But it was now crushed and broken.So fine were the pieces that it wouldve fit through the hole in a needle.You know you have to carry on this journey alone once more,with nothing but the stars as your guide and lonliness as company.You shake the thoughts off,and say that you can get over it.Its chicken feet.You step back into the car,and starts the engine.You drove around the curb,and you look down the road ahead.Its empty,and dark.But you press yourself on.Looking back,you see the motel now no more than a speck of light in the distance.But you could still see her there,waving and smiling.You start to regret,and you feel like turning back.But you cant.So weeks past,months past,and years went by,and that speck of light is always in the distance.Suddenly,you feel as if your car is shaking,and you couldnt drive smoothly.You parked it at the side,and looked back.The car had a missing wheel.Thinking back,you mustve left it back at the motel a year ago.Though you forced yourself to move on,but there'll always be something left behind.Which reminds you why nothing went on as you wish for the past year.Because the car is missing a wheel.You cant continue without that wheel,but you know there's still a long way ahead.You start your car again,and with those three wheels left you continue on.Slowly,but gradually,you pressed on.

Ive drove so far without the 4th wheel,and i only realised that i left it with you.Journey of Life doesnt seem to be complete without the 4th wheel,without you.Something's left behind,and what can i do about it.I have to move on,to press on,to forget,no regrets.Someday,this will all come to past,and i will soon come to realise that,there is no turning back.Though the car's a little shaky with the wheel left behind,i can still drive it.All i hope,is that you will keep that wheel of mine.Perhaps someday,i might drive by to pick it up.Hopefully,that wheel may remind you,that once in your life,this traveller gave you his heart,and left in the car with three wheels.So the chapter with the motel ends,and you move on with life.Still fearing the unknown ahead,but fearing more of the void in your heart and mind.Something's still missing,but now you know it.

Here ends,the story of the Motel and the Three Wheeled Car.

Song of the Moment---Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit