Of the Silenced Day
Today can be summed up with 5 messages i saved in my handphone.Typed by myself.

"Ok,so when was the last time i spoke?Or made a slight sound at all?Oh yes,the 1956th time i sighed just now.Just wanted to keep track.If i keep quiet like that any longer my tongue is going to roll back into my throat and choke myself to death.But wait,why not?It might be pretty exciting,wouldnt it?"

"Wow,im actually enjoying this moment of solitude.Interesting,isnt it.Something i wouldnt have thought of 1 1/2 years go.My legs are sore,and everything's so loud.I am following everybody around blindly,and i am bored.Shopping with a bunch of girls isnt the most exciting thing in the world.Especially when they are shopping for "personal" things,the guys must stay away and off."

"Kill me."

"Shoot me."

"God,smite me with your lightning."

I was quiet the whole day.I didnt know why.While they laughed and talked away,i either sat quietly in a corner,or tapped the table with my fingers to the beat of the John Mayer CD i just bought.(Heavier Things.)The rest of the day was just walk,stop.Walk somemore,stop.Normally,i wouldve gave an opinion or two,but today i didnt say anything.I felt that i wanted and needed to get out of that place as soon as possible.I was boredom strikened,and i was hungry.I wonder if i disappear,they might notice it.Too busy looking through clothes and price tags?I dont blame them.Girls,what can i do?Its in them,to do things like that.Wasnt the best day.Its not even close to average.I know i made it uninteresting for myself,but what the hell can i do.Oh yes,i turned the volume of my discman way up so people's mouth moved with no words coming out.Bliss.

I am so worn out,and irritated now.Nothing seems interesting,let me just die.