Of the Dawned Nightmare and the Morning After
I have to say,that it has been the weirdest examination period ever.Lets start with the nightmare that occured for everyone.Im sure everybody had their nails in their skulls and pulling their hair out of their roots.Yes,mathematics is indeed a pain in the ass.Oh well,over and done.Lets not think about.

Day 2(Monday) of the Nightmare Without a Dream
Yesterday i had Geography Paper 1(That's Physical Geography.) and Mathematics in the afternoon.Not the greatest combination in the world,considering they couldve placed GP with either one of those and extend the examination period.I really dont mind a longer time period than a packed timetable.Oh well,so yesterday i got up and went to school with no more than some facts about physical Geography here and there.In the end,the paper turned out to be a lot easier than i expected,though a lot shortest too.On the timetable,it says "2hours 45 minutes".Of course,the mental preparation was set at that time,until Mr Ng told us about the mistake and i had to shorten that mental preparation and speed things up.In the end,i wrote too much and i had a lot more to write.Oh well,i wrote something for everything,so thats good i guess?Had a long break between that and the next paper,so Samantha and Valerie came over to study.I was literally locked outside my house when i came home,because my mother went out to the office to take care of things(Be the next Donald Trump,basically.).I called my sister several times before she bothered to pick up the phone.She did pick up the phone,but hung me up when i asked her to open the door for me.Apparently,she was sleeping.I went,"Are you at home?Can you open the gate for me?".That was followed by a few mumbled words and grunts,then the phone went dead.I called again,and she was pissed.In the end,she came to open the door,but havent got the key.I asked her to check my room and hers,but apparenly she was too blur to do anything but to head back to bed.As i took the lift down,i realised that it was in my wallet all along.Instead of being in the left pocket,it ended up in the right.Oh well,so we went inside the house and studied a little.Despite having our wills written,we still studied.Haha.At least mine was.

Maths was a horror movie in real life.First,it was the awful sitting arrangement.It was 1pm,and the sun is pouring its blessing through the window.At that particular angle,it blessed the people sitting on the last row.Especially the last two seats,which happened to be Angeline and I.Half the time,we were shading our eyes from the sun,and the other time wiping sweat off our foreheads.And as for me,i was going through the Hydration process in Geographical terms,where water is drawn out from the rock,causing it to weather.I was weathering!The questions were hard,and i am not going to deny like David Beckham that i wasnt fit.I was,but just not enough braincells to sustain the immerse heat.Damn heatstroke,and i scribbled through the paper.It was a horror,and i my mind drifted off to some distant myriad.Thought about the possibilities of moving overseas,and do some film studies there.Despite having the eagerness and wanting to go overseas,i havent got the guts.I mean,it is hard to go overseas alone right?Unless someone is willing,then i wouldnt have much to say.For now,i am all alone.And if i were to go there,i'll be in a totally different environment with strangers as my friends and the cold wind as my neighbour.I dont really like the feeling of being an alien to a country,especially when there is no one there to help.Anybody interested to head overseas with me?Im thinking about Massey University in New Zealand by the way.They have a film school,and they are supposingly trying to produce the elite film makers.Peter Jackson will hand pick new film makers from that particular school,when the first batch of students graduate.That school starts next year by the way.Interesting.I'll see how things go.In the mean time,im still stuck in shithole aka NYJC.Time's up,and i handed up my empty sheets of paper.Never took notice of the expressions of people's faces during the test,but in the end they all looked worried and twisted.And as for me and Angeline,hot.I felt like i just had a sun tan.My right hand was burning.Nobody said the paper was easy,and i half expect myself to fail this one anyway.Took the walk home alone across the running tracks.Thought about my options,and guts seems to be the only hindrance and barrier i have to cross.Serious lack of it.That marked the end of the nightmare.

Day 3(Tuesday/Birthday) of the Nightmare Without a Dream
As some of you might already know,today is my birthday.I never really celebrate birthdays really.I mean,i dont feel any different on this day.I dont physically see my legs grow longer,i dont see my palm growing bigger,and i dont feel any different from any other day.(Save for the lack of sleep.Studied till 2am for Economics.No joke.)Every year is the same,and i still dont feel any different.And as for celebrations?I dont like to have big parties whatsoever.I dont see what for.Perhaps i might do it on a more significant date like,21.Or 60.Or 70.Perhaps ever year after 80.Anyway,so this year was no different.Instead of changing my Msn nickname to announce my birthday like last year,(Which was incredibly stupid.)I chose to keep it down low.In the end,only a few remembered.But hey,that is my motive,isnt it.I dont really want a bunch of people to go,"Today is your birthday??" then get poled by Dudley or somebody.(If i get the chance at all.)So today i had Economics Paper 3,and yesterday night,or rather this morning,i mugged my head off while talking to ZaoYi and JianXian online.(Sorry for the conversation,which seemed like a major doping fest on my part.)So i studied till 230am and fell dead on the bed.Studied my way to school literally,and panicked by what i realised that i have not studied.A talk with Terence,TGM and Samuel made me feel a lot better in the morning,but the fear was ever existent.We entered the hall,and Terence started humming this battle song that kept me laughing.The paper started,and i chose three questions and did it.Questions 1,4 and 5.Seemed pretty easy.I did it,and went through the whole 2 hours 15 minutes quickly.I thought i did alright,but that was what i thought last year right.I mean,just when you think you did well for Economics,the marker sees a small irrelevance and gives you a Level 1 grade.Great.Oh well,she shall see.I took the road home soon after,while messaging Ahmad.Wished him good luck for the Physics paper,that is coming up in an hour's time.(1pm.)Good luck everyone!Well,4 person remembered my birthday so far,and thats good enough,taking into consideration the low profile i intended.Faith was the first last night,at 1204am.Rs came in a close second at 1207am with a picture message.That was awesome.Really.Probably the only consolation.3rd was Dudley at 649am,and then it was XinYu when i got home.Haha.Thanks to the people above,and thanks to Dudley who didnt pole me.Rs and I exchanged a few messages,and i think i feel a lot easier to talk to her when i am over and done with her.I dont even try to talk to her,i just talk.And thats good.No awkwardness whatsoever.Her exams end this Saturday,and thats an awful long time.Oh well,good luck ont that Rs!Hope to hear good news from you on Msn.Alright,thats it.I shall retire.Taking my good O'nap.

In order to starta conversation,i asked how Rs how she knew my birthday.Cheekily,she said,"Dont tell ya!=D"in her message.That was really cute.Haha.In my opinion that is.Oh well,though my feels faded,and liking disappeared and gone,you are still so sweet and important to me.Thanks again.You just made today such a lovely one.I dont even need cakes or candles,but just a message is just great.To know that i am remembered.

Oh yes,as i am typing this,Jasmine greeted me as well.So thanks to her too.;)Rock on girl.

By the way,the scariest papers personally are over.So i feel really good now.Haha.This is a song by Chantal Kreviazuk.Its called "Weight of the World".Its only part of the lyrics,but it describes my thoughts.

I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I don't know why I was so afraid... all the time
Memories seemed to bother me.. my whole life

Oh and there's always something
Or somebody right behind
Well we're not meant to be everything
We're just a piece
So spread your wings...

Song of the Moment---Five Colours in her Hair by Mcfly.(I can play it now!)