Of the Surge of Sweetness
I was sitting in the canteen during the lunch break with Nisah,Meiling and WenLai when my handphone vibrated.I was messaging my other friend,so i placed my Milo can on the table and hooked out my handphone.I read the name first before i actually read the message itself,most of the time.And so i did,and it was a message from her.Nothing fancy,just one of those lame forwarded messages really.Nothing special to it.However,it got me really hyped.Im not sure about you guys,but when i recieve a message from her i will read that message over and over again,even though most of the time its some lame forwarded message,and ends with a "Goodnight" or "Friends Forever",my heart still skips a beat when i read it.Sometimes i wonder if she really meant what she sent.I kept all the messages that she sent me since day one.Sometimes,when im bored i'll read through them one by one.(Only when i am bored.)I replied that message,asking her about her common tests and stuff.She took a full 4 hours to reply that message.I read it only when i woke up from my nap at 6pm.Haha.Typical of her.She mustve been so busy i guess.Maybe that crazy girl took up another job again.Asked her not to do it countless times.Argh.Anyway,so we exchanged a few messages,and since messages seem to be so precious to her,i did not want to linger on with her like i do with my other friends.So i ended the little "conversation" we had soon after.I dont know,sometimes from little things like that,i wonder if we are from the same world or not.In some occasion,in fact most of the time i will run out of things to talk about with her.Thankfully,i was not talking to her face to face or else there wouldve been a awkward period of silence.Like John Mayer said in his song,"Played a game of chess with the salt and pepper shakers."The conversation mightve ended off in that tragical manner.Oh well,thanks to technology i can think as long as i want before a reply.Anyway,to think about it,how do you actually connect with someone who cannot connect with you?I guess her relationship with me is sorta like the one i have with say,WeiJie?He's a nice guy,though he could be rough at times,but ultimately he is a great guy to talk to.But,you put me and him together in one room,we wont click.Really.We'll probably sit there and say,"Hey,the weather's good today."then fall into a dead silence that lasts for eternity.I wonder if that'll be the case if you put me and her together in the same room.To say that i know her well enough?Well not quite,to be honest.She knows nothing about me,and she doesnt really care if she finds out or not.I feel awkward around her and yet,i want to get closer all the time.Its a paradox really.If i get closer to her,it'll only show how stupid i am.If i dont,life goes on and will remain as the guy who failed and refused to stand back up again.Well,what can i do?Its one of those things that'll provoke you to tear your head off.But everytime she send me that one message,i will feel a serge of sweetness running up my spine.That innocent and pure feeling of liking someone comes back once more.Imagining what i wouldve done,if one day she comes back into my life again,i dont know what to do if that day ever comes.It took me a full year to forget about her,and if she suddenly comes back in my life,i wont know how to react.Haha.Just some random thoughts guys.Dont bother with me.Do you have that experience when you sit by your handphone and just stare at the screensaver for her to message?Or play some game which you've never touched in years,just to kill time?Change the wallpapers,ringtones so that when the "Beep" sound comes,you'll know immediately?When that moment comes,that feeling's priceless.Oh well,i am sounding like a kid now.How embarrasing.But it is a form of stupidity i am willing to accept.Haha.

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Song of the Day:
Some Say Love by LeAnn Rimes



Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you its only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.

It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only
For the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose

A bloody nice song to fit my mood now.Wow.Message me online if you want the song.Haha.Gotta love LeAnn.