Of Scattered Thoughts
Ive been finding it hard to express myself lately.Not just through words,but other aspects.When asked about opinions and questions on a subject i will go blank on it.I dont know why,but thoughts that i used to have scattered and fled from my mind nowadays.Scattered and hopefully not lost whatsoever.I feel like i need a gathering of thoughts once more,about anything and everything that is happening right now.All jumbled up and twisted,manipulated and distorted they are.Like the day when i was on the Mrt train.I feel like i am squatting in the corner of a big room,with people all talking and laughing around me.It is getting hard to breath,and its getting hard to see.It is blurry,and i am finding it hard to see my fingers or anything outside a one metre radius from me.Then the sound begins to drown my thoughts and the scattered and ran.Now the voices and sound began to turn into murmurs and muffled noise.Like a woofer being turned way too loud,its pounding against the side of my head and i am covering my ears so hard they hurt.I start to scream,and scream and i grab my chest so hard.My ribs expands and my heart pounded against them,and soon after air was escaping from my lungs faster and faster.I let out another silent scream and then fell into a deep dream.All was silent,and i found myself looking at a dark room,not knowing what to do,or what to think,or how to react.Thoughts left and i am now left alone to face whatever might reveal itself from the shelter of the shadows beyond.And that scares me.Thoughts leads to dreams,to motivations,to the thing that drives you.Without them,you are nothing but an empty shell.I try so hard to regain those lost thoughts,and perhaps here in the Secret Garden of mine,maybe i can find them again in this Paradise of Lost Thoughts.Thats the reason why this blog exists in the first place,isnt it.I guess we all go through this stage in life,the stage where we are lost,blurred.We all need to gather our thoughts once in a while i guess.Sort of like spring cleaning,sweep out the dirt and welcome the new year.Its one of those "Once-in-a-while" things that we all must go through?Find the key and open the gate to the Secret Garden again,perhaps there you will find what you lost long time ago.I desire to find the lost and found so much,to get out of that room,that train.Away from the crowd to that garden of mine.Where the birds sing,mornings are ever so clear and clean,with the leaves washed by the midnight dew,the night quiet and the sound of crikets hiding in the bushes.Stars glimmer,and the moon hangs.A small waterfall in the distance flows down and hits upon the rocks.And perhaps over the rocks and under a tree,a quiet and soft spot upon dead leaves,i can quietly think,start all over again,whilst the music playing on my blog now repeats over and over again somewhere in the corner.Just some random thoughts from my mind.Yep.Dont read too much into it.I dont sound suicidal do i?Haha.No i am not,yet.

Song of the Moment---Blue by LeAnn Rimes

Of the Definition of Kiss
Courtesy of Sock Khim

Professors of different subjects define the same word different ways.
Prof. of Algebra: kiss is two divided by nothing.
Prof. of Geometry: kiss is the shortest distance between two straight lines.
Prof. of Physics: kiss is the contraction of mouth due to the expansion of the heart.
Prof. of Chemistry: kiss is the reaction of the interaction between two hearts.
Prof. of Zoology: kiss is the interchange of unisexual salivary bacteria.
Prof. of Physiology: kiss is the juxtaposition of two orbicularis oris muscles in the state of contraction.
Prof. of Dentistry: kiss is infectious and antiseptic.
Prof. of Accountancy: kiss is a credit because it is profitable when returned.
Prof. of Economics: kiss is that thing for which the demand is higher than the supply.
Prof. of Statistics: kiss is an event whose probability depends on the vital statistics of 36-24-36
Prof. of Philosophy: kiss is the persecution for the child, ecstasy for the youth and homage for the old.
Prof. of English: kiss is a noun that is used as a conjunction; it is more common than proper; it is spoken in the plural and it is applicable to all
Prof. of Engineering: What is a kiss?

PS.Been addicted to LeAnn Rimes nowadays.Haha.So dont be surprised when you hear me singing her songs in school or whatever."Oh~Life goes on~"

Of the Date with The Lord of the Rings
Blog Entry #1
I did not blog yesterday,though it was a fairly important day on my personal calendar.Chiefly due to the fact that i was half dead while i got home from the Science Centre yesterday afternoon.Alright,this traces back to Thursday when i did the bloody CIP.Apparently i got sick due to the air-con in the cafe,or so i assumed.So now,i am down with a bad running nose problem,as well as a swirling head.Yay.I couldnt even walk down the corridor without holding on to something.Anyway,i woke up at 1020am yesterday morning,and prepared to get to City Hall Mrt by 1130pm.Mom was kind enough to fetch me to the MRT station before heading to the airport to fetch dad.I took the MRT down to City Hall from Bishan,and met Samuel at the platform.Apparently we were on the same train.Anyway,Krishna came soon after and we headed up to the food court at Raffles City.Im not a big fan of food court stuff,save for the Tippan Yaki i had a couple of days ago.Krishna told me the roasted chicken was particularly good.And so i bought it.It tasted,normal.And i didnt finish it because i lost any form of appetite.(When im sick i tend to eat very little.I was sick all the time when i was young,and that explains why i resembles a stick.)Krishna managed to cobble down a whole Subway sandwich which was at least 1metre long.Fine,maybe i am exaggerating.But it was at least 60 to 70cm long.All of those,managed to fit into his stomach.Wow.We ate our lunch,and took the MRT to Jurong East Interchange.It was fun of course,talking with them again.Afterall they are old friends from secondary school.They say that friends from secondary school will stay on the longest.Oh well,we will see.:)Anyway,got off at the station and asked for directions at the control station.We took 335 from that mrt station and reached the Science Centre soon after.Had our tickets exchanged and went into the exhibition hall.The Lord of the Rings Motion Picture Exhibition.Wow.The tickets burnt in my hands as i walked through the front door.I was pumped and hyped about this whole exhibition thing.Anyway,at the entrance we were greeted by the Argonaths,with the left hand stretched out far before their faces.I told Samuel,"By the end of the day,these would be gone."We went into the hall and saw the Map of Middle Earth,which i already had on my wall.Of course,it was much bigger than the one i have.We got in and there it was,Sauron with his full armour standing beside Barad Dur upon deep fiery pits.It was a neat model,exactly the one we saw on film.(Duh.)We turned left and stumbled upon the Mini-Mumakil in a glass case,then some art pieces done by John Howe and Alan Lee.These paintings were dotted all around the exhibition area,to show the people about the conceptual process of the movie.We came to Sam's backpack,which got Samuel pretty excited.It was neat,with the pots and pans hanging from the back.We went on into this dark room,where The One Ring was located.Pretty nice effect i must say.;)We scanned the area displaying the costumes worn by the actors.It was nice seeing those costumes up close and personal.Gandalf's costume was nice,and much more detailed than i thought.(With his staff and pipe.Also the parchments he read in FOTR.)Theoden's armour was there,Arwen's dress,(With Evenstar.)Aragorn's ranger suit,(Damn,where is his King armour?Shards of Narsil,Anduril and his ring.)Frodo's shirt(Which included Sting,and the Phial),Gimli's armour(Axe and all.),Legolas' costume(Bow and arrows),the Nazgul's costume,(Which included their swords and rings,as well as their crowns.)Galadriel's dress,(With her ring as well.)Elrond's costume.Other costumes included the Uruk Hai and Orc costumes and weaponry,not to mention the elves.They had the most beautiful weapons and armours around.We also got to see the Haradrium's costume,and the Rohan Riders.Oh,Gondorians too.Both their weapons and shields.I got to play with the swords used in the prologue!That was pretty cool.Oh,and Saruman's costume was cool.It was pretty scary to be honest,imagining Christoper Lee in that costume and looking down at you.Yikes.We came across some prosthetic masks,ears and feets as well.A saddle used in the films as well as a life-like Boromir in a boat!That was totally real.Me and Samuel were wondering if he might just sit up and freak everyone out.He looked exactly like Sean Bean and was really real.There was also the creatures section where they explained the use of 3D scanning on the Cave Troll and Shelob to aid them in the digital creations.Huge models like the Wheel of Shire,as well as Orthanc was there.Bloody sweet.Models of Orcs as well as their weaponry was shown there too.This big model of Lurtz freaked me out.His bow was cool.:) Me and the guys went to this photo taking booth to take a picture of us as hobbits and men.I was shrunk to the size of a Hobbit,while Samuel blew up and became really huge.It was all part of a photographic trick called "Force Perspection".That photo was expensive,but it was a whole lot of fun.While i was admiring the pictures were heard a bunch of teenage girls shrieking in the dark room with the One Ring.We followed the screams and saw someone dressed in Nazgul's black cloak and walking around scarying people.There was this old lady who did not notice it at first,only to turn around and scream.It was really funny following him around.I was telling Krishna to step on his cloak so it will tear off as he walked.There was this lady as well,walking around in the Hobbit costume.Weirdest thing was,she is an Indian.Hmm.Indian Hobbits?(Wonders.)Interesting.We got out of there,and headed to the merchandise shop to spend money.I got this chop on the back of my hand as i got out.It's pretty neat.I still have it on my hand,despite all the scrubbing and washing.Faded,but pretty cool.After taking forever to decide what i wanted to buy,i placed my money on this mug.I didnt looked really attractive,until Krishna told me that when you pour hot water in the mug the inscriptions will appear on the side.Wow.Thats awesome.So i bought it.It was 10 bucks,probably one of the cheapest things there.I wanted to buy the ring too,but it was pretty big.I was thinking about buying the Evenstar necklace as well.But i wont wear it,and its too big to give to someone.However,it was really beautiful.Krishna recommended me to buy one of the busts,or the swords.I slapped him when i saw the price.$160 and $459 respectively.It was great fun really,and we took a bus back to the interchange and took the separate routes back.By the time the Mrt reached City Hall i was almost fainting.I could feel the swirling getting more and more serious,and the world spunned around me as i waited for the train to arrive.The people around me talked,and their voiced drowned each other out.All i heard was a deep rumble that was sometimes higher than the next.My head was spinning,and i was forced to squat at the side of the door,while i listened to my CD.Called dad,and he came to pick me up from the Mrt station.Haha.There,ended my date with The Lord of the Rings.Awesome,awesome awesome.:)

Of the New Term and a New Girl
Blog Entry #2
Today,marks the unofficial beginning of term two.Though officially,it started last week.I got to school,with a Strepsil in my mouth and earphones plucked in tight to be ears.I was still feeling dizzy when i climbed the slope at the side of the carpark.i got to the hall,and the J1s already had their uniforms up.Very obedient bunch.Hmm.Unlike me,who started wearing uniform only a week after school started officially.I guess i was reluctant to turn from plain white to pure brown.Anyway,so i got to the hall as usual and sat myself down beside ZhuangYi.Valerie came in beside me,and told me that there was a new girl.Well,i took a peeked at her from the back and she was already starting a good conversation with Rachel.Hmm,she seemed familiar and yet,not quite.One of those faces,i thought.On further confirmation,i realised that she is a retainee from last year's J2.Did pretty bad for her Gp and got retained.Oh well,it sucks to stay back with a grade like hers,which is already worth praising in my opinion.Anyway,bad news for her:Your Gp is not going to improve much with Mr Yee around.Her name is Jasmine,Teo i think.Im not sure about the surname.Well,she mixed with my class pretty fast,and she seemed happy with us.Well,glad that we are not putting her out of our family like Krishna's class is doing to that British guy.Its always nice to have someone knew,regardless of whether that person is a he or a she.Its a breath of fresh air,and an opportunity to know someone,and let that person know about you all over again.I was down with a flu,so i was reluctant to talk much.(And i had a weird hair,so.)Another guy will be joining us 2 or 3 weeks from now according to her,and the girls got really excited,as to whether he was cute or not.I checked the yearbook and,dont put your hopes up too high girls.Haha.Anyway,nothing much to talk about this first day,since all i got was the normal everyday lessons,and that stupid face from Mrs Lee.Bitch.As usual.I have to stay back to do her tutorials.Well,as if i dont need to stay back in the first place,plus i will do it and smack them in her face.Oh well,now my head's swirling again.Im tired again.I better get some sleep.Lets cut myself some slack on the first day,shall we?Hmm.Bed,here i come.

Song of the Moment---Ain't Goin' Down(Til the Sun Comes up) by Garth Brooks

Song of the Day:
I Can Love You like That by John Michael Montegomery

They read you cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your prince charming
Would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
You never will forget
The way you felt when romeo kissed juliet
All this time that you've been waiting
You don't have to wait no more

I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move heaven and earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that

I never make a promise i don't intend to keep
So when i say forever, forever's what i mean
I'm no casanova but i swear this much is true
I'll be holdin' nothin' back when it comes to you
You dream of love that's everlasting
Well baby open up your eyes

I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move heaven and earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that

You want tenderness-i got tenderness
And i see through to the heart of you
If you want a man who understands
You don't have to look very far

I can love you
I can
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move heaven and earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move heaven and earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move heaven and earth if you were my girl

Of ABCs and 123s
I woek up at 850 to the sounds of Daniel Ong on the Perfect 10 this morning.Its a holiday,why shouldi wake up this early?Three letters:C.I.P.Damn.Rachel,WanJun,LiuYin,Shariffah,JiaYing and I decided to do our CIP at National Library.Argh.At first thought,it might be the perfect place to do your CIP.No cars whizzing by you and pour you with exhaustive smoke,the need to beg pedestrians for money to spare,the glares and the stares,the grumbles and the rejections,the sun and the wind.(I was refering to flag selling.)Here,quiet environment,no irritating pedestrians to beg,and most of all,aircon.Yummy.Perfect place?Hold that thought.And so i got up and my Aunt woke up a little later so she had a hard time cooking breakfast for me.I finished breakfast only at 925.I was supposed to meet JiaYing at 945.Oh hell,was i late!So i divided the job between me and my Aunt.I went to brush my teeth and wash up while she ironed my tshirt and shorts for me.When i came out she was still ironing,so i ran like mad to my room,threw out the books in my bag and dumped the discman into it.She threw the tshirt and shorts to me just ask i was about to run back and get it from her.Put on my socks and stumbled all the way to the front door and put on my shoes.Opened the door and turned on my handphone.Beep Beep.It was a message from JiaYing.She changed the time of meeting to 1030.A sudden moment of silence grew in me.I closed the door,and strolled back into the house and threw myself onto the bed.Surfed a little net,and got out at 1020.Bus came swiftly as i arrived at the stop,and i boarded it.I wandered around the control station and JiaYing was nowhere in sight.I called her,and she never answered.So i sent her a message asking if she was anywhere near the station."Haha,no leh..." was her reply.I almost blew up then.Got really pissed and went down to the platform to wait,thinking that she'll be late for 10 or 15 minutes.In the end,it was already 1055 and she was still nowhere in sight.I didnt want to be late for the meeting,afterall its not exactly nice to let a girl,or girls to wait for a guy.So i boarded the next train that arrived and went towards Douby Ghaut,hoping that the rest will be late.As i stood at the front of the train,i looked out through the mirror and followed the track as in came closer and closer towards me and disappeared under the train.Just as i was about to come up with any "Travel Thoughts" as i like to call them,this indian kid behind me started banging against the glass between me and him.I was leaning against it when he did that,and i looked at him at first,thinking that he did that accidentally.After a while,he started banging again,and this time it got harder.I got irritated and glared at him with that "Bang again and i will throw you out of the train and feed the tracks" kind of look.He obviously didnt care about it and continued banging.Great job mommy,just let him bang till the glass breaks and chops his head off.Finally,i reached Douby Ghaut and got off the train and that crazy banging kid.Met with LiuYin at the platform.She was looking pretty good with her blue jeans and pink top.We went up the elevator to the topmost level,and looked for Shariffah,who was at that time at the control station already waiting for us.I didnt see her at first,until i saw this girl with long well tied up hair,looking at the street map when i realised that it was her.We met up with her,and she was looking stunning as well.Blue jeans as well,with a pink bag and a white top.Wow.Haha.Not just me,even JiaYing said that later on about her.WanJun came a while later,even though she predicted that she would be 20 minutes late.She was looking stunning as well,with that black top and jeans.Suddenly,i felt so small.Haha.Rachel just woke up at 1015,JiaYing was nowhere to be seen.So me and the rest started betting on who's gonna be the last to arrive.And the last to arrive must treat the rest to a drink.Time passed and the time approached 11.JiaYing FINALLY,arrived.She was already rushing towards her until we asked her to relax,saying that Rachel was still late.I called Rachel,and she was already there.However,she didnt know how to get to the control station.I told her to head towards the old control station and follow the NorthSouth line.She said ok,and hung up.We waited,and she was not here yet.I called her again,and she was laughing in the phone."Lost?"i asked."Yeah!Where am i?Haha."she said.I smacked my head and tried to direct her to us.Finally,she made it to the old control station,unharmed and still in a piece.Thank lord.So we went up the stairs at walked towards National Library.To be honest,i was very pissed at that time.And the weather was getting to me.It was scorching hot and it was burning my hair and neck.My temper came and thank god i did not release it on the girls,since most of them were early,or earlier.As i turned back they were strolling behind me.Yeah,strolling.I walked faster and faster,and were already about 100 metres ahead.In a way,i wanted to go ahead and see if we were on the right route,on the other hand i was pretty pissed.Oh well,the anger subsided when the famous red bricked National Library loomed up before us.We rushed into the hawker centre just as it started to drizzle.Hawker centres are definitely not the best place in the country to look for the word,"Cleanliness".Here,it was worse.Probably THE worst hawker centre ever.Flies,cats,smokers and leaking roofs.You name it.It was more like a third hand tent with a temporary barbecue pit.So we sat down ourselves down.Shariffah,JiaYing and WanJun decided to eat while the rest of us,watched.(I was not hungry then.)I was in a hurry to leave that dreadful place,as it started raining.Finally,the ladies got themselves into the library and we went in search of the librarian to start the CIP.Get it over and done with.LiuYin and Shariffah went to the toilet while the rest went to the staff office for the CIP tags and the forms.I ran back to tell LiuYin and Shariffah about the office.I was in a hurry,so i was walking quickly down the corridor towards the toilets.A huge and fat indian lady was standing across the narrow corridor and i had no time to squeeze myself pass her.So i walked round her back just in time for her to turn her body.The back of my arm brushed against her soft and disgusting butt and i apologised.She glared at me with disgust.I was the victim hello??It was not my fault,considering you were blocking more than HALF of the corridor brushing your sorry was inevitable.I turned back and gave that face of disgust.I brought LiuYin and Shariffah to the office and told them about my horrifying incident with an indian and a disgusting butt.Soon after,we had our tags on and assigned to different sections to arrange books.I was assigned to a remote corner under the "Generals" section.18 shelves of books rolled out before me,and i found myself drowned in numbers and alphabets.I started on the first shelf,4 levels to each level,each divided into two.I started on my dedious journey,laid out by books underneath my feet.Arrange according to numbers,and then words.And so i went on,and on,and on,and on and on,alone.Others were all dispersed everywhere,and it was hard to find them amongst the shelves and the books.I finished the first 6 shelves and went over to WanJun,who was at the Business section at that time,already bored.I ran back to where i was and started on shelf number 7.As i toiled before the looming shelves i was endulged in thoughts once more.I forgot what i was thinking,just some random thoughts falling in and out of my head.I was the only person still left standing after 2 hours.I found this book about love and i flipped through it briefly,and was laughing at it silently.It had a quote which goes like this,"Life is incomplete without love.Once you get your love,you're finished.".Also,more meaningful quotes like,"Love is like sailing on the high seas with the compass not yet invented."Hmm.Interesting.JiaYing and Rachel came soon after to complain about how tough it was to arrange books in their section.JiaYing was incharge of the Cookery section.Since nobody ever heads for that section,no one ever bothered to arrange it.So it had been in a mess since the first brick was laid on that accursed land.Rachel was in charge of the Children's section,and the kids desperately needs a brain check.Arranging books according to colors instead of numbers or alphabets.So Rachel,Shariffah and LiuYin who were in charge of those sections,had a hard time putting the books into the right shelves.I,was the fortunate one,with a couple of interesting books along the way.Rachel and gang had to bear with Peter Pan and Jack and the Beanstalk.JiaYing had to deal with pictures of mouth-watering food and WanJun just dealt with,economics.As i arranged the 12th shelf,this man came over to the 4th and 5th shelf and started messing up my arrangements.Took out a book,not what he wanted and stuff it back in.I glared at him as i messed up my blood,my sweat,my toil,my time away from my friends and family.I almost slapped him with the nearest encyclopedia.Finished the last couple of shelves and met up with the rest at the Business section.We had a mini meeting if were going to stay or leave.Rachel,LiuYin and WanJun wanted to leave,while Shariffah,JiaYing and I wanted to complete the time.So they left soon after,and we stayed back to help JiaYing with her section,which practically took forever.JiaYing spent 6 hours on the cookery section.Shariffah and I sat on the floor and while admiring the food in the pages of the books we talked about school,life and the mysterious guy in her handphone messages.Haha.Well,he was just a friend.I was just blowing things up,made fun of her.Haha.Anyway,thanks for the message you sent me.I went over to JiaYing and talked to her as well,since arranging library books is not the most interesting job in the world.I told them,"Hey i have a song stuck in my head.Want to hear?Ok,here goes.ABCDEFGHIJKL..."And i went on with the ABC song.They didnt get why i sang that,but they started laughing later on.(I was already seeing numbers and alphabets.Not stars.)We were done!And we were called to this room at the corner of the library and guess what?We got scolded.Great.Because we used our handphone during work.Argh.What the hell?She said,"Please dont use handphones during your services,because we dont want to let the public think that we are allowing you do use them."WHAT WILL THE PUBLIC THINK IF WE USE HANDPHONES?IS THAT A BLOODY SIN OR AGAINST THE LAW?YOU SHOULD BE BLOODY THANKFUL THAT WE FINISHED OUR JOBS AND WE WERE NOT SMOKING POT OR ANYTHING.WE DID NOT WHRECK THE SHELVES,TEAR THE BOOKS,BURN DOWN THE LIBRARY AND KILL YOU GUYS.BE,THANKFUL.Why were we arranging books when you guys will be closing in a matter of days anyway?Bloody hell.Oh well,Shariffah went off first.So JiaYing and I had dinner at the Galilee's Cafe.She had chicken spaghetti while i had chicken and fish combo,which tasted awful.The only thing worth mentioning was my milkshake.As we argued over who's milkshake was better we started talking about school,life and future.And an interesting conversation about "Visions".Haha.We went back and as we walked pass the church she started saying how beautiful the church was,while i admired the moon and the star more.We took the same train back and went to the same interchange.Haha.It was an awful way to spend a day indeed.However,toiling with friends were really fun.Haha.Alright,now.Think again when you think CIP at library is fun.Think again.Oh by the way,Rs sent me a message today,i was so hyped i was jumping around in the library.Haha.Thanks.:)

Song of the Moment---Ain't Goin' Down (Till the Sun comes Up)

Of being Low on Luck
Examination.Tests.Depends on your brains,the effort,and to a certain extent,luck.I,depend on luck pretty much all the time.My promotional exam was pure luck i must say.Oh well,this time around,i think i screwed up.Luck was low,predictions were wrong,brain blocked and panicked.Great exam luck there.(Sarcasm intended.)What can i say?Perhaps not enough effort was put in.Maybe both.Maybe the test was just too damn difficult.Take maths for example,it was hard.Vectors questions in the Ten Years Series could be done with my eyes closed.I dont think im able to complete a single vectors question in this paper with 8 eyeballs wide opened.Its over,and its done.Every year i will screw up my first major exam.A trend since primary school.I hope every J2 students start off J2 like me.Or else i better start pulling up my pants and keep my fingers crossed that luck will hold till October or November.During the Economics paper i was staring at everyone in the LT while they busily scribbled answers on the foolscape.And as for me,i was staring at blank paper with lines across,trying hard not to laugh at the girl behind who just gave out a loud thunderous fart.I was bored to the core,and found myself counting the seconds.Praying for time to get by.The LT was so quiet,and it was hard to imagine it was occupied by 600 odd students.Time's up,i packed and left.Couldnt stand a minute in that LT.i was thinking to myself how the LT and the papers actually make yourself feel stupid.Looking at the rows of people i began to analyse why they are in JC in the first place.Sam wants to be a lawyer,so JC is probably her rightful choice.Valerie wants to be a journalist.Why are you in JC?Hmm.And as for myself,im not sure why too.In fact,i ask myself that all the time.In order to release that awful feeling in my mind i decided to go out with my friends.So Zhuangyi,Bernice,Rachel,JiaYing and I took a bus from school to Junction 8 for an early lunch.Stupid us,didnt think too much about the time the shops open.Everywhere was closed and we were already feeding on ourselves from the inside out.Desperate,we went upstairs to the food junction to search for food.Thankfully,by the time we reached the stores were about to start business and we decided on Tpanyaki for a change.I ordered beef without chilly and we set down in front of the chef.He walked out and put on his tall chef hat.Rolled up his sleeves to reveal a lion head tattoo on his right arm.He didnt have much smile to begin with,and i was intimidated when he asked if i wanted chilly."Erm.Beef,no chilly."Suddenly,i felt so small.Hmm.I love watching those chef cook.Especially when they cook right in front of you.Quick moves,a flip and a flop and the food is done.Very enjoyable to watch indeed.I sat right in front of the chef and recieved the full impact of "jumping" oil.God that was painful.Anyway,the beef was surprisingly good.The peppers were just right,and thank god i ordered the one without the chilly because ZhuangYi's face turned so red after he ate his share.Of course,he did not finish his stuff,nor did he finish his soup,nor did he finish his rice,and went to the toilet and locked himself in there.And so we spent the afternoon eating stuff and walking around Junction 8 shopping for,girls stuff.I must admit,that accompanying a girl on a window shopping frenzy is indeed a tiring job.Well of course,its not the most interesting thing to do in the world but hey,i did not crumble.I should be thankful.Soon after,we were on our way home.I got home and fell into a deep sleep all the way till 7pm.I dont know what gotten into me.I was too tired.Maybe it was because of the test.Subconciously i just wanted toforget about the god damn test.Alright,i will keep this entry short and sweet.;)Night.

Quotes of the Day:
Gabriel,'Have you ever heard of Harry Houdini? Well he wasn't like today's magicians who are only interested in television ratings. He was an artist. He could make an elephant disappear in the middle of a theater filled with people, and do you know how he did that? Misdirection.'
Stanley,'What the fuck are you talking about?'
Gabriel,'Misdirection. What the eyes see and the ears hear, the mind believes.'

Gabriel,'I have been told that the best crackers in the world can do this under 60 minutes but unfortunately I need someone who can do this under 60 seconds.'

Ginger,'Are you gonna sit here waiting for your daughter to become the newest star in her daddy's fluff porn films?'
Stanley,'Don't even try to compare my daughter's childood with your own.'

Stanley,'War? Who are we at war with?'
Gabriel,'Anyone who impinges on America's freedom. Terrorist states, Stanley. Someone must bring their war to them. They bomb a church, we bomb 10. They hijack a plane, we take out an airport. They execute American tourist, we tactically nuke an entire city. Our job is to make terrorism so horrific that is becomes unthinkable to attack Americans.'

Gabriel,'Big Stan! Nice suit.'
Stanley,'Thanks.'
Gabriel,'They say it's the suit that makes the man.'
Stanley,'Buy it?'
Gabriel,'Hope not.'
---'SwordFish'(2001)

Song of the Moment---She Believes in Me by Kenny Rogers

Of Today being One of Those Days
Alright,lets have an overall look at the block test so far.It sucked.That about sums it up for me.It was pretty bad.Lets start with General Paper.Did this question on the predictions of technology in the future.Whether it will be a technological dream or nightmare.I think i wrote out of point for that one.Met Samuel on the way to the toilet before the second paper and he told me that he wrote about wars,medicine and stuff like that.God.I wrote about how movies and books in the past helped us in the prediction of the future.I also talked about the technology now being only a mere dream fifty years ago.Hmm.I mentioned that whether the future will turn out to be a technological dream or nightmare depends very much on humans.Oh well,i think i wrote out of point.And as for the comprehension,i wasnt able to comprehend the passage.What was it talking about?At least the first passage was decent enough for me to understand.Which made me realise that i am actually one of the "QuirkyAlones".Not Anti-Love,not Anti-Sex,just not interested in dull relationships.Haha.So in a way i was able to relate to the passage,which in turned helped.More or less.Then came the second passage which went on like it will never end.Who is Attila the Hun?What was the passage about?Hey,beats me.I had my fingers up in my hair,with the roots desperately clinging onto my skull as i tried to pull them out.Argh.So there,i screwed up my General Paper,to a certain extent.So yesterday night i mugged Geography and Maths.When everybody else already gave up on Maths i was the only one still going.Corinna got pretty fed up with maths and started putting some Jigsaw Puzzle of hers together.I was in the livingroom alone trying to piece together those Jigsaw Puzzles as well.While her's was a picture of AngKor Wat,mine was a picture full of weird symbols and numbers,titled:Mathematics.As i watched Primal Fears on HBO,i started working on those maths problems in the ten years series.They were pretty easy to manage.And i thought i had the upper hand in maths.1230,time for bed.So i climbed into bed and fell asleep an hour or two after while thinking about my previous entry.(Read to understand.)Got to school this morning to find out that nobody really completed their studies.Not that i did.Well if you consider scanning through lecture notes as part of studying then yeah,i bet everybody did.Tested myself for the Integration formulas and guess what?I failed that little test of my own.The moment i stepped into the lecture hall i knew something was not right.That ever lasting feeling in your chest started to grow with every step you take,and the very air you breath seemed like a poisonous fume.Argh.Alternate sitting,great.No copying.Argh.Bad sign #1:My pencil spoiled.I pressed too hard and the whole top went in,and i couldnt press.Great.Bad sign #2:Bought the wrong refills for my G2.So i had to borrow.Bad sign #3:Didnt understand a thing on the question paper.So i skipped the first question,then the next,then the next,then the next.Until i came to the end of the paper without doing anything.Argh.Miracle is gone.I panicked.But hell,i looked around and everybody's foolscape was pretty empty.Save for the A4b girl in front of me scribbling away.1 hour passed,and my paper was pretty empty.Another half and hour passed and it was still empty.I was cursing under my breath,myself and the paper.It was particularly tough.It was nothing ive seen before.Ten years series seems like a skirmish here.Argh.I hate maths!I screamed under my breath.Time's up!Great.Empty still.Compared the "Emptiness" of my paper with JiaYing.Wow,i won.Haha.I was so frustrated i started to get high.Nobody had any form of smile on their faces,especially people like Sam and Valerie."This paper was meant to kill."said Samantha,while Corinna just laughed it off."See you in remedial."she said.ZhuangYi thinks that they just want everybody to go for remedial,thats why they set such a tough paper."Then why call it remedial?Just call it a lecture,as part of the timetable then."i said.Argh.Irritating.WanJun,Shariffah and LiuYin had to meet Mr Tong,so me and Rachel went to the Grand Stand to study Geography.We met MeiJian there and told her that we were both suicidal.Felt like killing ourselves."Im suicidal every morning."i told her.Argh.This sucks!Nothing went in for Geography.Kept thinking about the test previously.Jane was going home and asked me about the test.She managed,i guess.And she wished me good luck for the test later on.Apparently that worked.If only i met her before the maths test.Bah!The Geography test turned out to be better than i expected.In fact,i kept writing and writing.Crap kept flowing into my mind.To think on the bright side,at least things are coming into my mind.Unlike earlier on when the numbers swirled.WenLai drew her Italy map like the map of Malaysia and i was laughing my head off halfway through the test.I,on the other hand,drew a boot.(Italy looks like a boot.)I finished the paper and managed to go out of the lecture theatre smiling.Went out with lunch afterwards with WanJun,Bernice,JiaYing,LiuYin and Rachel.Talked mainly about superstitious stuff about lines on our hands and faces,about how having a big nose and a fleshy tip will earn you cash.Hmm.Doesnt make much sense but i'll take that under consideration.If you curl your fingers into a fish,the lines that shows on your pinky's suppose to represent how many girlfriends/boyfriends you'll have.How many serious ones as well.God.WanJun says i have 2.Thats pathetic.And both of them are faint.Not serious?But i am!Nvm.Superstition.Ok,signing off.Taking a nap and heading off to Keynes!Enjoy.

Quotes of the Day:
Indiana Jones,'Archaeology is the search for facts,not truth.'

Fedora,'You lost today, kid. But that doesn't mean you have to like it.'

Elsa[To Indy],'I'll never forget how vonderful it vas.'
Professor Henry Jones,'Why thank you. It was rather wonderful.'
Elsa,'[Kisses Indy] Zat's how Austrians say goodbye.'
Colonel Vogel,'Und zis is how ve zay goodbye in Germany, Dr. Jones.'
[Punches Indy]
Indiana Jones,'I liked the Austrian way better.'
Professor Henry Jones,'So did i.'

[Professor Henry Jones slams a vase on Indy's head just as he crash through the window to save him.]
Professor Henry Jones,'Sorry about the head but I thought that you were one of them.'
Indiana Jones,'Dad, they come in through the doors.'
Professor Henry Jones,'Ha,good point.Late 14th Ming Dynasty. Oh it breaks the heart.'
Indiana Jones,'And the head. You hit me dad.'
Professor Henry Jones,'I'll never forgive myself.'
Indiana Jones,'Don't worry I'm alright.'
Professor Henry Jones,'Thank God... it's fake. See you can tell with the cross sections!'

[Indy throws Colonel Vogel out of the window of a blimp,then notices the passenger looking at him with fear]
Indiana Jones,'No ticket.'
[Passengers immediately started looking for their tickets]

Indiana Jones,'How did you know she was a Nazi? '
Professor Henry Jones,'She talks in her sleep.'

Butler,'If you're a Scottish Lord, then I am Mickey Mouse!!'

Soldier,'You have the diary in your pocket.'
Professor Henry Jones,'You dolt. You think my son would be that stupid; he would bring my diary all the way back here? (pause) You didn't, did you? (another pause) You didn't bring it, did you?'
Indiana Jones,'Well,uh...'
Professor Henry Jones,'You did.'
Indiana Jones,'Look,can we discuss this later?'
Professor Henry Jones,'I should have mailed it to the Marx Brothers.'
Indiana Jones,'Will you take it easy?'
Professor Henry Jones,' Take it easy? Why do you think I sent it home in the first place? So it wouldn't fall into their hands!'
Indiana Jones,I came here to save you!'
Professor Henry Jones,'Oh yeah? And who's gonna come to save you, Junior?'
Indiana Jones,'I TOLD YOU...'
[grabs a gun and shoots all soldiers dead]
Indiana Jones,'... Don't call me Junior!'
Professor Henry Jones,Look what you did. I can't BELIEVE what you did.'

Elsa,'It's perfectly obvious where the pages are. He's given them to Marcus Brody.'
Professor Henry Jones,'Marcus? You didn't drag poor Marcus along did you? He's not up to the challenge.'
Walter Donovan,'He sticks out like a sore thumb. We'll find him.'
Indiana Jones,'The hell you will. He's got a two day head start on you, which is more than he needs. Brody's got friends in every town and village from here to the Sudan, he speaks a dozen languages, knows every local custom, he'll blend in, disappear, you'll never see him again. With any luck, he's got the grail already.'
[Cut to middle of fair in the Middle East, Marcus Brody wearing bright suit and white hat, walking around the the market,lost.]
Marcus Brody,'Uhhh, does anyone here speak English?'

[Indiana and Henry are tied up]
Indiana Jones,'Come on, dad. Help me get us out of here. We have to get to Marcus before the Nazis do.'
Professor Henry Jones,'But you said he had a two day head start. That he would blend in, disappear.'
Indiana Jones,'Are you kidding? I made all that up. You know Marcus. He once got lost in his own museum.'
---'Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade'(1989)

Song of the Moment---Hang by Matchbox 20

Of the BookStore and the Unprovoked Question
Its Sunday,aka the last day of the week and the last day of the holidays.Always have that feeling of departure.Unwillingness flows within my blood as i woke up this morning.Not morning actually,in fact i woke up half past noon.Been sleeping late this couple of days.Yesterday was Taiwan's Presidential Election.Im not exactly bothered with politics much.Especially when i am here and they are there,the effect it has on me has lessened over the years.However,my parents,especially my father,travels to and fro Taiwan,and they always have a thing or two to say about everything that happens in the political arena.My parents went back to Taiwan a couple of days ago,and my Aunt is living with me right now.Yesterday morning they went to vote of course,and naturally they voted for the Nationalist.My Aunt is a Nationalist supporter as well,so yesterday at 4pm she switched to a news channel and started watching it.Until the Nationalist started losing was when she switched it off.I however,continued watching.Since i support neither side,i wont jump around and stamp my feet like my aunt did.Well anyway,they lost,they were pissed.Supporters gathered at the high courts to protest against the votes,saying that it was an unfair election.I was pretty interested in it,so i stayed up late to watch the news while reading through my Tourism Notes.Until 3am i think,just when the situation got really interesting.Anyway,yesterday night i had this weirdest dream.I dreamt of Mr Melancholy.Hmm.No he did not get pissed with me again or anything.He merely had a bet with me,asking me to go up to Rs and say hi to her at a shopping mall.And i did.Saw her with Siti and went up to her.The weirdest thing was,when we entered a bookstore,it was actually HER bookstore.Talking about weird dreams,this is definitely up there with the Tamagotchi dream.So we wandered around that bookstore and she showed me around.It was one of those very simple dreams,and it ended when my Aunt came into my room to open the window.I woke up and saw her staring at me.She said i talked in my dreams.Argh,old habit.Im not sure about you guys but sometimes i will talk in my dreams,without me actually knowing it.It's pretty creepy actually.Anyway,like i said before,it's always nice to see her once in awhile.In my dreams or whatever.I guess that'll be the only place i'll see her.I was sitting alone in the living room at 2am yesterday,wondering when was the last time i saw her.June 2003.Wow.In 2 months or so it'll make a year.A year.What a long time.Much has happened since then.I wonder how she's been.If she's doing well with her life.For a year,ive been totally "disconnected" with her.Like we are on different sides of a scale.Occasionally we get to talk through sms messages,but thats about it.Sometimes,just sometimes,i wonder how i even got through this period of time.I amaze myself sometimes,for what i achieved.My friends asked if i still like her.Well,in a way,i do.JiaYing asked me that question just yesterday afternoon,and i told her that though i still like her,the feeling is more like a distant memory.I could sense it,feel it,but not strongly.Diluted in chemical terms.Time is my best friend in a way,helping me to heal wounds and forget about the past.Helping me through this period of time without her presence.Its funny how i look back,and everything seems as if it only just happened yesterday.The image of her sitting with me in the SRJC canteen was still so vividly carved within my mind.(Will be further elaborated when the time comes.)Anyway,i was having a chat with my friend Siti online yesterday.Hmm.She's more than a friend really.A messenger to me.One,because she's Rs's neighbour.Two,she was in the same Primary School as Rs.Three,she is in the same school as her now.She tells me a lot of stuff,about what's happening to her and with her.The guys and her studies.Sometimes,i run out of words to thank her.Because she always brings news,and even though i am so far off,im still able to keep an update on her.So yesterday we were chatting,and Siti told me that Rs messaged her the other day to ask for my birthday.Wow.I was stunned for a while there.I asked if Siti was having a conversation with her initially when she asked her that question.She said no,and that Rs messaged her without much reason.Yeah,i must admit that i was pretty excited.Will she give me anything?Will she not?What will she give and how?Maybe she wont give at all.Afterall,she might not even have the time to buy me anything.Come to think about it,she knows nothing about me.We are on an unbalanced scale where i know everything about her and she knows nothing of me.I wonder what will she buy.Hmm.I hope its not like a pink tshirt like what Harry wore during the outing.(Shudders.)Oh well,it is still a long way from now.In fact,i better worry about my block test coming up than what she will give.After all,No expectations=No Disappointments.No Disappointments=Always happy.Dont keep your hopes uo too high,it might fall down and hit your face when it falls.Ouch.Alright.Minority Report's showing tonight.Cant wait to watch it.Back to the books.Ta.

Quotes of the Day:
Officer Fletcher,'John, don't run.'
John Anderton,'You don't have to chase me.'
Officer Fletcher,'But you don't have to run.'
John Anderton,'Everybody runs, Fletch. Everybody runs.'

John Anderton,'He set me up. He set me up.'
Director Burgess,'Who's the victim?'
John Anderton,'Somebody, Leo Crow.'
Directos Burgess,'Who's Leo Crow?'
John Anderton,' I have no idea. But I'm suppose to kill him in less than thirty-six hours.'

John Anderton,'Why'd you catch that?'
Danny Witwer,'Because it was going to fall.'
John Anderton,'You're certain? '
Danny Witwer,'Yeah.'
John Anderton,'But it didn't fall. You caught it. The fact that you prevent it from happening doesnt change the fact that it was going to happen.'

Agatha,'Can you see?'

Gideon,'Careful, Chief. Dig up the past, all you get is dirty.'

Agatha,'Is this now?'

[The readings Agatha is giving run quickly on a makeshift screen.]
John Anderton,'It's too fast. Slow it down.'
Rufus Riley,'How do I slow this down, I should hit her on the head?'

Dr Iris Henimen,'Find the minority report.'
John Anderton,'How do I even know which one has it?'
Dr Iris Henimen,'It's always the more gifted of the three.'
John Anderton,'Which one is it?'
Dr Iris Henimen,'The female.'
'Minority Report'(2002)

Song of the Moment---I Am a Man of Constant Sorrow from "O Brother, Where Art Thou" Soundtrack,performed by The Soggy Bottom Brothers

Of the Japanese and Gothic Names

Kinjiro Tsuchiya -san
That is my ninja name,according to that website.Of course,i wont go around telling people to address me as that.It sounds decent enough compare to the others.Haha.

Generate your Ninja name here!

Cob Webbed Crotch
Argh.Why am i a crotch?Lets stick with the ninja name shall we?No wonder i prefer the Japanese culture to Gothic culture.They tend to have better names.Haha.Its bloody lame.

Generate your Gothic name here!

Of the Blonde,the Pink and the Old Times
Woke up at 830,again.It was actually misty outside this morning,with an odd buring smell in the air.I guess it has something to do with the forst fires in Indonesia again?Hmm.Oh well,it mightve been due to the high humidity in the night.Who cares,the city actually looks better with mists surrounding it anyway.Guitar practises.Argh.Dreadful.Reason:Boredom.Though Tomas was not that to terrorist most of us,but the tune of the song kept repeating in our heads and drowning us in little black musical notes and song sheets.Some of the most boring hours came from guitar practises.Not to mention the intense pain at the tips of my left fingers after each practise.However,it is fun in a way.To be able to be distracted from the daily work.I guess i'll rather have this than more school work?So it ended at 12nn and we packed up to place the guitars back into the music room.As we walked down the stairs Grace,Yilin and I decided to go to the LOTR Exhibition together.Not that i mind anyway,since we are all big fans of the movies.(And books.)However,we havent settled on the date yet.Argh.Anyway,I went home immediately afterwards and hit my beds.I was too tired and my head was throbbing.Not to mention my fingers too.Soon,i fell into a deep sleep and was drown in thoughts.5pm,i was woken up by my Aunt.Oh by the way,my mother and sister flew back to Taiwan this morning to attend the funeral held next week if im not wrong.I got tests so,couldnt make it.Glad that grandma understands.Anyway,so my Aunt came over on Monday to take care of me.Yes,though i called myself Mr Independent a few entries ago,i cannot survive a day without food.Or at least someone to take care of me.Oh well,i guess i will learn the wonders of independence in army.Anyway,so she woke me up at 530 and i sat up in my bed.The sun was setting in the West and buildings casted great looming shadows on the swimming pools down below.Kids swam in the swimming pool as the parents busily packed up for dinner at home.And as for me,i was about to go out for dinner with my 1s24 friends.Ha.Cant wait.So i got out of bed and changed into my Bums tshirt and pants,stuff my wallet into the right pocket,alongside some coins,then my handphone into the left.Plugged in the headset and i was ready to go.Efficient eh?Stepped out into the afternoon sun and felt the heat striking against my face like thousands of bunsen burners thrown at you.(Dont ask why i used Bunsen Burners as part of the analogy.It kinda sucks but who cares.You know what i mean dont you.)I walked down the path beside the drain and saw the basketball,as well as the volleyball girls training.Bernice mustve been really pleased with that.(Chuckles.)Reached the 22 bus stop and waited for it to come.That bitch in front better stop puffing smoke into my face or else i will stuff whatever thats left in the pack into her candy ass.22 arrived,i boarded.Listened to Perfect 10 as the bus slowly sped down the road.Fast forward.(Whizzzz...)I got onto the MRT and saw this arabian lady with her robe or scarf,whatever you call it,covered from head to toe.Save for the area around her eyes.Wow,she has really beautiful eyes.Deep shade of brown and eye lashes reaching out like thorns.She got into the same carriage as i,and for a moment i forgot the potential danger that lady has.After the Madrid train bombing i totally forgot her relations to the terrorists through Islam,and to the bombing of the trains.And i was IN a train with a lady from an Arab country,covered from head to toe with a bag as big as 3 watermelons in her hand.Doesnt that just remind you of a scene from Madrid?Hmm.People eyed her suspiciously as the MRT sped down the track.Oh well,she got off at Little India and everyone breathed a sigh of relief.Over-reaction i guess.But cant be too careful.Damn,i was half an hour early!Reached there at 6pm and i actually strolled.On purpose.Why am i always the early bird?The early birds get to eat the worms?How about this:The early worms get eaten.So i sat down at Dhoby Ghaut MRT,and waited for time to kill itself as soon as possible.I was already starving and i couldnt wait another minute without food.Finally,as i was playing games on my handphone,a guy stepped up to me from in front.I didnt notice him at first until he greeted me.I looked up,and saw this weird looking guy in pink tshirt and a blonde hair.And i mean,blonde.Dragon Ball blonde,seen it?It was close to the mark.It was Harrison.My mouth dropped and said,"You have to change hairstyle every single time i see you huh?"He laughed and we started talking about how much his hair cost and how his teachers in school actually thought that his hair was cool.(Yes,teachers.)Incredibly,we actually managed to carry on that conversation for 15 minutes.Me and Harrison never really clicked.But this afternoon,we did.All because of his stupid hair.Nigel came soon after,followed by Sandra,who was completely shocked by Harry's hair.Pink and Blonde.He was definitely the highlight of the day.Topic of the day as well.Target for jokes at the same time.Jane and Serene came together,and bursted out laughing when they saw Harry's new look.Deehui came with her boyfriend,but he left soon afterwards.I didnt get to see that dude though.Sad.Met up with Nat at PS and we went upstairs to eat Swensens.I ordered Fish and Chips,which was awfully small for my liking.Got a good scoop of Nat's chicken baked rice and DAMN,that tasted good.Icecream came soon after and i finished by Frosted Chocolate Malt.Holy,that was good too.(Though it was the last to arrive.)We sat there and talked about the old times,life in JC,poly for Harry's case.The future and results.Jokes and more jokes.Nat poured us with jokes that none of us seemed to understand.It felt really good to sit with old friends and talk about life again.Like i was back in Burger King chatting with them and playing heart attack.Haha.That i wont forget.Time flew,and by the time we payed our bills it was 9+.So we headed towards Singapore Shopping Centre and went up to Funky Balls to play pool.(Yeah,Funky Balls.Funky huh?)Me and Serene actually forgot which floor its at,so we had to go down from the 7th floor.Search floor by floor.After a couple of tries we managed to find the floor and got into the place.It was packed,even at 9pm it was full of people.We were the 4th in line,so we had to wait outside for a table.Nigel and Harry got bored,so we went up to buy credits for some arcade action outside the pooling place.Harry and Nigel had their fingers dancing upon the buttons and joysticks while the girls played datona.I took over and challenged the computer.Of course,the game ended with a pathetic result.Which i will not reveal.Finally,our turn came and we started some ball hitting action on Table 4.DeeHui and Sandra thought it was already late,so they left before us.Serene left soon after,with Harry as her personal escort to the MRT station.Harry's father complained about him being out at 11pm at a pooling place.So he had to leave as soon as possible,leaving Nigel,Jane Nat and I.We opened another table and started playing on both.I lost a game to Nigel,but won another.Of course,as the pathetic pool player i wont because Nigel whacked Ball number 8 into the hole before he got his balls in.Luck i'll say.We stopped playing at 1130pm and the 4 of us rushed to the MRT station to catch the last train,and the last bus for Nat's place.We said goodbye to him before the Glass House,and the 3 of us literally ran to the MRT station.Caught the MRT and took it back.Surprisingly,the carriage was packed with people as well.Considering the time,it had amazing large amount of people.Jane,Nigel and I stood all the way,and talked about our schools and juniors.How she was pestered by boys a couple of months ago.(Yeah,boys.)Oh well,i got off at Bishan and took a cab home.I was too lazy to catch the last bus home anyway.Haha.It was a fast ride and it only took me 4 bucks.Nigel asked Jane to message both the guys when she get home,just in case anything happens.Thats very kind of you Nigel,i should learn from you once in a while.And so she did,calling me later when she got home,and asked me about maths as well.Now,it is 250am,and i am still hyped about today.It was fun.Finally got my chance to come out from my house and breath the air of the city again.More importantly,the presence of old friends,and old times.Hope to see you guys soon.Some day we will meet again.;) You guys are the greatest.1s24 forever.Peace out.Z.

Of Mathematics,Arithmetics,Statistics and Other Matters

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
! ;Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she
doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets
a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he
gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money
than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a
man.

HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him
a lot and love him a
little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a
lot and not try to understand
her at all.

LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but
married men are a lot more
willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change,
but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't
change, and she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning
of a new argument.
HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT

GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings,
poking me in the ribs and
cackling, telling me, "You're next." They
stopped after I started doing the same thing to
them at funerals.

Of Undetectable Changes
Changes.There are two types of changers.Voluntary and involuntary.Under involuntary we can further categorise changes to detectable,and undetectable changes.A change that is sensed by the object that had been changed,and one that is not sensed at all.An undetectable change is a scary one.If you dont know that you are changing,you wont know what you might change into.And naturally,you wont be able to stop it from happening.The worst thing is,when told about your change,you dont exactly know what changed and what didnt.What to change and what not to.What the heck am i talking about?Well,i was talking on the phone with Krishna a while ago,asking him something questions concerning maths.Well,before i hung up,he said,"Eh,you changed a lot.Very weird now.Not in a bad way though.Just,weird kinda weird.You know?".I didnt take heed of his comment at first.However,after much thought,i started to think about what change i have went through since i got into JC.I couldnt get the answer.I have not a clue what i have changed.He said i became more,"Playful".Which is an awfully weird and disgusting way to put it in my opinion.Im not sure if he is the only one thinking this way.How have i changed really?Perhaps it is the environment ive been in since i first stepped into JC.Im not sure of the actual reason.And that scares me.Like i said before,changes might not necessarily be a bad thing.Sometimes,it is for the better.However,i dont even know if the change within me is a good one or a bad one.If it is good,fine.Go ahead.However,if it is bad how am i supposed to stop it?To stop an invisible force,a presence which im not sure of is presence at all.Its like someone asking you to dodge from something thats coming at you,but you dont exactly know what it is.Hmm.Odd.He couldnt come up with an answer as to how ive changed as well.I personally dont like changes,save for acknowledged ones.Fast forward the time frame to ten years later.At a reunion party,i want people to say,"Hey you've changed and yet,you are still the same old you.Its a same old brand new you.".I encourage changes,but not the ones that i dont know of,or involuntary ones.Oh well.Heck it.Maybe next time when i talk to him i will put on the moody side of myself.Which side of me is the true self i wonder.The moody side or the "Playful" side?Which side do i prefer then?Im like Edward Norton's character in Primal Fears now,having a split personality.Argh.Maybe not to the extent of killing sombody,but it is confusing sometimes,as to which personality you should adopt.Perhaps,when facing different people,characters are switched without the person actually knowing it?What am i talking about.The sugar this morning during breakfast must have gotten into my nerves.Anyway,just one of those thoughts that come from nowhere.No need to take much attention to it.Afterall,i use my blog as a dumping ground for my thoughts.They come,i dump,they go.After a while,they'll be forgotten and lost.Perhaps,Krishna's wrong?Ha.

Of the Breakfast at McDonald's
Holiday Day 3.Monday.Had to go back to school for geography lecture.Great.The best thing is,the lectured topic will not even be tested in the up coming block test.What a constructive way to use time.Couldve been spent on a more enjoyable activity:Sleep.Samuel wasnt free today,and Krishna is occupied from now till the end of the March holidays.Therefore we didnt get to go to the exhibition as planned.Oh well,we will be going after the block test anyway.Though its a week or two later but hey,its better than leaving one of them behind and going alone.Anyway,so this morning i digged myself out of bed with an imaginary chisel and out of home.Though i ate some bread in the morning before i left,i was still starving from head to toe.Therefore after the lecture JiaYing proposed that we go to the McDonalds to have breakfast.Hmm.Its been awhile since i had McDonald's breakfast.In fact the best part of McDonald's is in fact,the breakfast.However,before that we went up to the 4th level to grab some postcards that JiaYing really wanted of a guy she seems to have a crush on.Perhaps not a crush,more like an "Eye-Candy" sort of thing.So on the way she and her friend,i think her name is Carine,gossiped about how handsome he his,how impressive he is.(He's an all-rounder.)I personally dont think much of him,he looks pretty ordinary.I guess girls' tastes of guys are somewhat different from the guys' point of view,vice versa.Anyway,while they went on and on and drooling all over the postcard(Not really,exaggeration.),Rachel and I were chit chatting about life.And so,we reached the McDonald's at Serangoon Central,and bought our food and started eating.Well,what more can a bunch of teenagers do while sitting around a table and have breakfast eh?Talked about school,students,ex students,teachers and ex teachers.The usual.Soon after,we were about to leave the place.However,the departure was somewhat interrupted by the fact that the girls wanted to head to the loo first.Argh.So as a gentleman i am i waited outside the McDonald's.(Pure self-satisfactory statement.)Those police who were adding cash to the atm machine outside the McDonald's eyed me curiously,since i was walking up and down the corridor beside the machine.Thought i was about to toss out a gun and kill them,then grab the safe which was already half loaded with cash then dash off into my friend's van.This is not Ocean's Eleven or Italian Job dude,calm down.Im in school uniform,what the hell can i do?JiaYing and Carine came out first,and told me that Rachel was still in the toilet,and they'll leave first.Oh well,so i said goodbye to them and continued waiting for Rachel.I waited so long,i was wondering if she already came out and left a long time ago.I couldnt go in a check or anything,since that'll be regarded as an indecent act.So i waited outside and tried calling her a couple of times.No,she didnt answer.Finally,i was out of patience.I left the place.Just when i crossed the road to head on home,a familiar voiced called out to be from across the road.It was Rachel running down the slope,with her badminton racket in one hand and her bulky back on.She looked ridiculous,looked like a lobster.Haha.So i sat on the back of a lorry,while waiting for her to cross the street.Argh.Oh well,so we strolled back towards school.Said goodbye to her as she turned right to her bus stop,as i continued towards the pavement beside the drain.As i walked home i thought,looking at the way JiaYing and Carine drooled over that person's picture,got me wondering if the theory is indeed true,that everybody has to like somebody.Oh well,think about it.I bet the ugliest,fattest,thinnest,geekiest guy in school likes somebody.Remember that malnutrition guy i mentioned?I bet he likes somebody too.The truth is,everybody needs to like and be liked.However,due to the cruelty of life itself,not everybody has the luxury of the latter part i mentioned.However,liking someone lives within everyone.Its like a build-in antenna in a handphone i guess.It's already there,but we dont see it.They have to like somebody i guess?Oh well,which got me thinking.I guess she likes somebody too.Just that she's too taken up with her work in school,that she's holding back her liking.Oh well,cant blame her for liking some guy can i?He's probably that basketball dude she mentioned to Siti awhile ago while they passed by the basketball court.I didnt read much into it but,a crush is a crush.He must have all the qualities huh?Good looks,nice body and a brain.In which i have none.Argh.What can i say?She's got good taste.I am mentally prepared for the day when her Friendster profile,under "Status" is changed to "In a Relationship".Having said that,i doubt if i would be able to hold back the pain when one day i see it.im sure nobody would like the feeling of the person you like,liking somebody else right?If everybody like somebody,she's gotta like somebody too,isnt it?Hmm.Just one of those thoughts while walking home...

Quotes of the Day:
Jimmy McGinty,'You know what the difference is between a winner and a loser?'
Shane Falco,'The score.'

Jimmy McGinty,'Here's a list of people I've been keeping my eye on over the years. They've all played football somewhere, not all of them in the pros. But they all have something unique to bring to the game. We're gonna take those people and try to put together a winning team. If nothing else, they should be fun to watch.'

Jimmy McGinty,' You're looking at a 65-yard field goal here.'
Nigel "The Leg" Gruff,'You just hold the ball, Shane, and I'll kick the bloody piss out of it.'

Shane Falco,'Why me?'
Jimmy Falco,'I look at you and I see two men: the man you are and the man you oughtta be. Someday those two men will meet, and it should make for one hell of a football player.'

[Jamal comes to Shane's rescue,after Shane's car was overturned by Martel and his friends.]
Jamal Jackson,'That's your ride?"
Eddie Martel,'Yeah?'
[Jamal takes out a gun and shoots Eddie's windshield.]
Eddie Martel,'Thats my windshield you son of a-'
Jamal Jackson,'Son of a-?Son of a bitch?Son of a bitch?'
[Jamal shoots and breaks the side windows of Eddie's car.]

Jimmy McGinty,'A real man admits his fears. That's what I'm asking you to do here tonight. Who wants to go first?'
Clifford Franklin,' I'm afraid of spiders, Coach.'

[Discussing about fears.]
Shane Falco,'Quicksand.'
Clifford Franklin,'Aw, shit yeah. Quicksand's a scary motha, man. I mean, first of all, it suck you right in, and even if you scream, you get all that muck in your mouth... '
---'The Replacements'(2000)

Song of the Moment---She by Elvis Costello

Of Thunders and The Odyssey
Hmm.There,the first day of my holiday began with the NYJC English Drama Club's performance in the evening yesterday.To be honest,i was pretty hyped and excited about it,since the last time i saw a drama production was ages ago.Not that i am a big fan of drama production or anything,but i think it is my responsibility,as a friend,to be there to show my support.I dont know any of the people performing really.Not personally at least.I know WanJun,LiuYin and Shariffah,who was mainly in charge of the backstage work,especially the music and costumes.(Which were beautifully done by the way.)WanJun had a small part in a dance and my main focus was of course on MeiJian who did a song at the second part of the play.Which she of course,nailed.Anyway,lets start off with the preparation work i had to do before heading off to school.Clouds were gathering outside my window as i put on my pants and plugged the headset into my ears.Grabbed my umbrella and ran out of the house and hopefully,reach the school in time before the rain starts to pour.It started drizzling when i reached the first floor.Though it wasnt heavy,i opened my umbrella and walked into the rain.It had been raining like that at the same time everyday for the past week.Not that i dont like rain or anything,i just hate the fact that i have to risk getting myself drenched outside the comfort of my room.Anyway,so there i was walking to school when the road before me brightened up,as if someone suddenly turned on a giant street lamp.Flash.Moments later,a sudden boom ripped across the sky and into my ear.My heart skipped and looked to the sky from under my umbrella and saw the threatening clouds gathering quickly and furiously above.Lightnings after lightnings,thunders after thunders,i quickened my footsteps as continued my journey to school.Today's thunder was unusually loud and scary.A few hours ago clouds were nowhere to been seen in the sky.Odd.So i reached school a little earlier and met up with Ahmad and Jessica,as well as Samuel who was doing his CIP hours.As i walked up the stairs beside LT4 our "favourite" councellor,Wu XuanDe came up and greeted me.I dont have much grudge against that guy or anything.However,the girls seem to have some major problem with him.I guess he's trying too hard to be friendly,especially to girls.I mean his pick up line was simply horrible.Oh well,those are not my words,quoted.Anyway,so i talked with Ahmad and tried to kill time as i waited for Rachel to come.As usual,she was late.Been busy picking out clothes i guess.She finally arrived at 730 and we rushed into the LT and got ourselves a seat in the centre row.Valerie came as well,Corinna did too.And four of us sat together just as the lights went out.For some reason it went on and off for a couple of times,which got me wondering if the show was ever going to start.Finally,the show started,and we all got excited about it.It started with a bunch of masked people walking onto the stage."What does it mean to love,to...".I got lost after that.Then the show started yada yada.I shall not go into details about the story since i dont understand it at all.Well the basic structure of the story can be understood,but i dont see the meaning to it.After the show i was still wondering to myself what does it mean to love,which was the theme of the play.Anyway,Gideon was the main actor,and his costume was sweet.Reminded me of Brat Pitt's costume in Troy.(Since they are both Greek Mythology)Samantha plays Penelope,his wife,who has some bad relationship with her mother in law.Gideon got marooned on an island with his 3 stupid crew members,and met up with Cyclops,this monster built by the Ex AEP students,controlled by 3 drama members.Then they met up with this seductress,whom Gideon's character had sex with.Of course,that part was interrupted by the intermission.Damn.Anti-climatic.Hasif played this,female god thing.I dont even know why she was there.I dont know her significance to the story,and also her part in the story.However,Hasif's performance made me doubt if he can play anything well other than a female.He's really good as a woman.Samantha and Gideon both sang pretty well,considering the fact that they are drama members instead of choir singers,they were pretty good.Anyway,the story went on,with a few modernised storyline intercut between the anciet ones.Which included a dance performance by the drama members,in which WanJun participated.That was nice.(I didnt understand why it was there as well,but it was entertaining,who cares.)Also another dance by Circe,if i spelled that right.She didnt sing,but the drama members did."All that Jazz" from the film,"Chicago".What has it got to do with the story?I have not a clue.My review on the play?Well,lets start with the bads.When there is a serious fight scene between characters,especially between 2 of the best actors,Samantha and her mother in law,they tend to speak really fast.Though very loud,but like someone said afterwards,muffled.The music was loud,which means that i couldnt hear what the actors were saying.Partly because the speakers were above my head.I guess i got lost because of the fact that i couldnt hear the actors properly.Might have enjoyed the play more if i actually understood why her mother in law killed herself.I was like,"What?".The play reminded me of Martin Scorsese's movies.One which goes nowhere.One which you dont necessarily understand the storyline.Like a headless fly,you dont know where the story is going.Something happens,you solve that problem,you move on.And you dont see the problem having any significance in the story whatsoever.Ultimately,the story is about Gideon's character's journey back home to his loved one.But i dont see how the dances are linked to the story.Worst thing of all,the dances wont be included in their SYF performance because they wont be judged by the music and the dance.That stinks,because in my opinion the best part of the play was actually the dances itself.And as for the good parts,well actors that should be named are Hasif,Samantha,Sanjeeda and the mother in law.(Dont really know her name.)The lighting was nice,added a mystical feel to everything,and Shariffah,great work on the buttons.MeiJian's performance was what made the tickets worthwhile.The mere two minutes sent the audience in an uproar.Like i said before,the dances were great.Holy hell,the costumes!They were awesome.Which explained why LiuYin and WanJun were so stressed.5 of them had to make every single costume out of nothing.Incredible.In which i credited them in front of the whole LT later on,addressing them as the,"Unsung Heros".A few comic reliefs here and there added humor to the play,with the girl running about before Gideon killed her,as well as the erotic jokes.However,since this is a play ultimately about anciet greek mythology,i dont think terms like,"Eye Drop" should be even mentioned.Weird.However,they were pretty funny anyway.The story was weak,however i cannot deny that it was a good performance,and that i enjoyed it.I guess if the story was improved i wouldve enjoyed it more.Great applause to the backstage crew as well as the cast,great stuff for your part.All right,here ends the review of The Odyssey.After which we congratulated the crew and the actors,and wanted to go out for supper.However,they were too tired and some wanted to go home,leaving me as the only enthu one around.Oh well,so i had to resist the temptation of a ice cream cone and head on home.Saw Valerie and Corinna home,and went home alone on the wet pavement.The school has a whole new different view at night.Its all quiet,and the field was extraordinarily silent.Stepping on the wet soggy grass was pretty comfortable.I challenged Rachel for a 2.4 run around the track in pitch black.Of course we headed back after 20 metres or so.Thats all folks.Enjoy your day and,have fun.This is Weilien,out.

Song of the Moment---Lullabye by Shawn Mullins

Song of the Day:
Breathing by LifeHouse



I've found a long way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do
When I get there...
Take a breath and hold on tight
And spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be...

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind
Into the truth and I'm
Trying to identify the voices in my head
God, I wish it were you
Let me feel one more time what it
Feels like to feel and
And break these callouses off of me one more time

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah-ah...

I don't want a thing from you
I bet you're tired of me
Waiting for the scratch to fall off
Of your table to the ground...
'Cause I just wanna be here now...

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be...
Where I wanna be...

Of the Last First Time
I let myself down on my parent's new couch in front of their television and switched on the television.God,it was a long day.Why not treat myself to a little fruit by the tv?So mom got me some fruit and i started munching on them while surfing through the channels.News,news and more news.God.The 9 O'clock period is full of news prgrammes.Picked a great time man.Way to go.(Sarcasm intended.)Personally,i hate watching the news.Elections,killings,bombings,(With that said,i'll like to observe one minute of silence to those who perished in the train bombing incident in Madrid,Spain.)politicians,yada yada.We do have to keep up with our general knowledge,learn more about the world.But if watching the news means that i have question the world about where love has gone,i'll rather watch Suria.Anyhow,so i changed the channel to channel 5.(My favorite channel off cable.)Yay!American Idol!Cheers for the pen salesman who got through to the finals.So i sat there and watched American Idol as time wore on.This advertisement popped up on screen during one of the numerous commercial breaks and particularly,it caught my attention.I am one of those guys who will jeer at commercials in cinemas,and when the movie suddenly stops at the climax for advertisements.Which is why i love HBO and Star Movies.No commercial interruptions baby.There are only a handful of advertisements out there are actually funny enough for a few chuckles here and there.But this one caught my attention.Hmm.To be honest,though it did catch my attention,i dont even know what it was advertising for.At least i dont remember.It started with a old lady climbing onto a helicopter.Then it took off from the landing platform and circled around a building.The lady was scared at first and she grasped the hand of another passenger.Soon,she was enjoying the view of the world outside the window of the helicopter.Then the screen faded to black and a line of words appeared that says,"When was the last time you did something for the first time?" or something close to the mark.I know it is an old advertisement but i guess i wasnt paying much attention to it most of the time it aired.Anyway,i thought about what i just saw,then started questioning myself about the last time i did something for the first time.Hmm.Where to begin?Lets start with the firsts.I first breathed the air of a emergency room in 1986.I first took a plane in 1991.I first attended school in the same year.First cartoon that i ever fell in love with was Doraemon.The first time i ever had a crush for a girl was back in primary school.The first time i was totally alone was when i first attended Secondary school in 1999.The first time i crossed the Millenium Mark in 2000.The first time i fell in love was in 2003.To be honest,i dont remember the last first time that i had.In fact,there are so many first-times everyday that people just dont notice of.The first time you skip school,first time you pee your pants.The first time you kissed a girl.The first time you get slapped by a girl.Which probably happened right after the kiss.Hahaha.These are just some of the things we tend to remember and take note of.The so called,"More important First-times".However,some intimate and yet more important things are build up each day.The first time you have a conversation with this person,the first time you talked to that person.The first time you had this feeling for a certain person.The first time a certain thought comes to your mind.These feelings and thoughts etc,are often neglected and forgotten by most because they do not stand a significant role when classifiying the various components of "First-times" and of course,life itself.There are little things in life that we should indeed,take note of.I have a friend,who was obsessed with the ladies,that he forgot the word,"Respect".He was so focused on obtaining self satisfaction through his "First-times" that he forgot about the important word,"Respect".I will not elaborate on that.However,my point is,that we should not be overwhelmed and overpowered by the desired to obtain that "First-time".Make a mistake?It's all right.I still remember the first time i failed a subject back in Primary school.I think it was Mathematics.That was my first time failing the subject,in fact a subject.The important thing is that we shouldnt focus so much on that fact that it was the first time we failed,but concentrate more on making sure that it is the first and the last time that happens.Everyday,we learn a lesson.A brand new lesson.And these lessons are learnt through the little pieces of life that passes us by unheard and unsung.These are some of the most important lesson that should be taken note of and grabbed hold of.And to gain precious knowledge through these lessons is the most important thing one can get.What is the last first time you had?It might not be a big deal really.However,to grab hold on little things in life and make sure you see the lesson it is trying to teach you,THATS a big deal.When we succeeded in something for the first time,we should make sure that it will not be the last first thing you did,but rather do make sure that it will never be the last first successful thing you did.Make everytime,the first time.When you encounter failure,who cares if it is the first time you failed or not.Make it the last.When it comes to the context of love.This so called "Rule",does not apply.When in love,one tends to go head over heels.Im not sure about you guys,but when i see her i fall in love with her all over again.And everytime,is the first time to me.And everytime we part,that will become the last first time.No matter how i resist,she will always be the last first time i know.Everytime is the first,and make every first failures the last.Just a thought.:)

Of the Numbers and the Forfeit
Hmm.Today was really fun.Haha.It rained again today.It had been raining like this since Monday?I think.Anyway,i hope this weather goes on because im starting to fall in love with the combination of rain and bed.Isnt that one of the best combinations one can ask for?:) Anyway,today started off with the usual lectures after lectures after lectures.Admit it.It was boring.Yes it was indeed.Couldnt wait for all of them to end really.During CT period we had to clean the geography room.Great.But before i get into the details i have to mention something about what our ct said to us.Or rather,me.Yesterday during the routine guitar practise my handphone started vibrating in my pocket.So i stopped playing and answered the call.It was from Miss *.She said,"Can you tell the class to bring newspapers and rags tomorrow?I forgot to tell you guys this morning.We will clean the classroom during CT period tomorrow.By the way,i wont bring anything,so you guys figure out what to being amongst yourselves.".Yeah,add the last line,thank you.Bloody hell.I almost shouted back into the reciever and pull your bloody hair off your skull.Being such a kind soul i decided not to waste my time on you and hung up without saying goodbye.I was really pissed at that time.You didnt have to tell me you will not be bring anything?Plus you couldve brought a pail or something,which mightve made life so much easier for us,instead of having us walk up and down the corridor to the toilet.Thanks.You drive to school,so bring a pail for us wil you?Nevermind.I dont give two shits about you and your stupid stories about CIP.Anyway,ZhuangYi brought the notes he collected from Mr Yeo to school today and distributed to the class.He did not print for everyone,which was understandable since it was a really thick bunch of notes and each of them costs about 7 dollars.So about 5 person will get one set of notes and we will print it ourselves.Fair enough.Finally,hope at last.No more empty maps from our Ng Kim Teck.Bastard.I am sick of his bloody maps and diagrams.Quality notes,here it is.You better check them out.THESE,are from Mr Yeo,that teacher whom YOU convieniently tookover.These are his notes,and you better learn how he did it,because what you are doing now,sucks.Anyway,Mr Yeo not only gave us notes for Regional Development but also for the chapters that will be taught for the rest of the year.That means i will be able to skip lectures and still be able to catch up with lessons.Haha.NKT,you are useless now and none of us need your pathetic presence.If you think by playing William Hung videos and music in class will please us in anyway,think again.You think your jokes are funny?Try harder.Tan-wards and Lim-wards.Omg.Where did those come from?Good news:You make me think that WanWei's jokes are funny.Hmm,back to CT period.After we cleaned up the room and made it as new as ever,we continued the game we were playing.Players:WeiYi,Angeline,WanWei,Rachel,JiaYing,Bernice and myself.We played Zhong Ji Mi Ma,where the players will guess a number between 1 and 99.The person who gets the number,loses.The worst thing is,whoever loses 3 times will have to do a forfeit,which is to call the guy/girl that you like.Hmm.Well,WeiYi wanted to target Bernice.However,somehow there was a miscommunication between Angeline and WeiYi and in the end,WeiYi got the number.Hmm.In the end,the mastermind behind the set up,or consipracy,was the one hwo suffered.Of course,she havent called yet.(I doubt she will.)Today was the first time i actually had fun with the class.Or,the most recent one i can remember.I dont remember having so much fun with the class before.Of course,with different individuals yes but not as a whole.Haha.Today was good.It feels good when the class has fun,and when you have fun alongside them.The feeling is just great.Though long,but good.It continued to rain till the afternoon.Instead of going to the nearest hawker centre to grab some food i stayed in school to do maths with Rachel.Most of the time i just sat there and cracked jokes.I am a bad influence i have to admit.Not bad as in bad but,bad.Hmm.Think about it.:)

Quotes of the Day:
[Giving the dog a bowl of water.]
Bo,'Don't give him that water, it's dirty.'
Morgan,'Bo, He licks his butt every day, I don't think he will mind.'

Graham Hess,'Bo, when your mother had you, it was the most amazing thing. When they handed you to her, you smiled at her. The doctors said it was unusual because newborns never smile when they are born.'

Graham Hess,'Morgan, after you were born, the doctor gave you to your mother. When she first looked at you, you just stared right back. You both just stared at each other for longest time, and you didn't even cry.'

Merrill,'There are many things that I can take. But what I can't take is when my older brother, who's everything that I want to be, starts losing faith in things. I saw that look in your eyes last night. I don't ever want to see that look in your eyes again.'

Graham Hess,'Its happening.'

Tracy Abernathy,'I swore 37 times in the last month. I said the 'f-word' a couple of times, but it was mostly 'shit's and 'bastard's. Is 'douche bag' a curse?'
Graham Hess,'I suppose it would depend on the context.'
Tracy Abernathy,'How about "John you're a douche bag for kissing Barbara"? '
Graham Hess,'It's a curse.'
Tracy Abernathy,'Oh, well then it's not 37 times it's 71 times.'

Bo,'There's a monster outside my room, can I have a glass of water?'

Graham Hess,'People break down into two groups when the experience something lucky. Group number one sees it as more than luck, more than coincidence. They see it as a sign, evidence, that there is someone up there, watching out for them. Group number two sees it as just pure luck. Just a happy turn of chance. I'm sure the people in Group number two are looking at those fourteen lights in very suspicious way. For them, the situation isn't fifty-fifty. Could be bad, could be good. But deep down, they feel that whatever happens, they're on their own. And that fills them with fear. Yeah, there are those people. But there's a whole lot of people in the Group number one. When they see those fourteen lights, they're looking at a miracle. And deep down, they feel that whatever's going to happen, there will be someone their to help them. And that fills them with hope. See what you have to ask yourself is what kind of person are you? Are you the kind that sees signs, sees miracles? Or do you believe that people just get lucky? Or, look at the question this way: Is it possible that there are no coincidences?'
---'Signs'(2002)

Song of the Moment---Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry

Of Crushes and A Loving Feeling
People have to distinguish between love,liking,crushes and a loving feeling towards someone.Well,i guess most dont.At least i think most people just categorize them under "Love" and not further differentiating them into different aspects.I guess "Love" cannot be explained merely by words.Since its such a big and important its usually left to the different individuals to decide for themselves,the definition of that word.And as for "Liking",its more like a step towards "Love".Or should i say,what comes before "Love".You want to get to know this guy/girl.You start to like her and you want to get to know her a little better.He/she has the potential to become your partner and that creates a liking for that person.It is a natural feeling of course.Crushes are a silly form of liking.You have a crush for someone and you go gaga over that person.I wont say its a liking,since its probably not serious in most ways,and the feeling you have when you see that person is for the most part,based on looks of that person.Most of the time,you dont know that person.However,you study that person from afar.Sometimes,you know that person is not the type that you will like.However,you still go ahead and stare at that person till the sun dont shines.Thats a crush.Loving feeling?When in the canteen you want to sit with that person.When you are in the classroom you want to sit next to that person.When you want to forward a funny message that person comes to mind.Thats a loving feeling.When around that person you have a little tickling feeling inside,and you feel happier when you are around that person.Sometimes,you dont even act yourself when close to him/her.Though you know that he/she is definitely not your time,its just the pure sense of fun you get when you are around that person that attracts you to him/her.I guess thats a loving feeling.Not necessary that a could be a relationship going on afterwards.It might,but i guess it has the most diluted components of a crush.Well,why go through all the trouble to explain the words through my thoughts?I dont know.Been looking around the school lately.Sometimes through the yearbook as well.(Or CD-Rom to be exact.)Looking at those people i have two or three people that i cant get my eyes off.I guess,it is only normal to feel this way.Im sure the biggest nerd in school has a liking for someone?Anyway,i dont even remember their names whatsoever.But i see them pretty often in school.In the hall,lecture theatres,corridors,canteen,you name it.When one of them comes around the corner i will go,"Hey its you." within my mind.Of course,i dont tell them that since I dont even know a single one of them.Hmm.Sad to say this but most of them are based on looks.And that kinda sucks.But what the hell can i do.I dont know them.Like Corinna refered to some of the guys in school as her,"Eye Candy".I guess thats a way to put it?You feel good when you see them i guess.And you try to put up your best behaviour by not acting like you are acting to be putting up your best behaviour.Tough to understand?Well,the more you try,the more fake you look.Simple as that.Who the heck am i trying to impress here anyway?Oh well.I have a friend who had a crush on this girl,a friend of his friend.Confessed and got rejected.Ouch.That stinks.To a certain level i guess he has got a lot of guts.So much guys that he flushed his brains out.Please think before you move.Anyway,am i going to do just as that?No.Of course not.My life in NYJC will end in a couple of months and after that,it is bye bye to JC life.I will wipe the dust off my funky butt and wave my hands to the school building,leaving no love for it.I know,kinda harsh to say that,but it is the truth.Its not like having a crush or two is going to make any difference.Want to know who they are?Dream on.The last time i dedicated "Desperado" to a guy in school everyone went around guessing and caused me some unnecessary trouble.Oh well,i will give you some hints then.One of the just cut her hair,used to wear a blue hairband.Brown sometimes.The other wears spectacles once in awhile,and her class is a single digit class.The other has a unique name that sounds like some Japanese comic book.The other was mentioned in my blog not long ago.Well,good luck guessing.Im glad that i drew the line between the four different kinds of feelings for the opposite sex.Of course,no one stands in the first category other than her,yet.Instead of falling head over heels for someone when its no more than a crush,im happy that i know what i am doing and what i am feeling.The feeling on control over myself is not just satisfying but overwhelming.With that,i will be able to know when to cross the line and when not to cross it.Not any time soon i guess.Again,stop guessing.There are about 700 odd students in NYJC and please,if you are able to guess any one of them i will bet 10k that Scooby Doo 2 wins Best Picture at next year's Oscars.I mean it.Like i said,my friend got rejected.I guess the only clear reason is that he didnt know how to distinguish between the categories mentioned above.If he had a clear mind about what he was feeling that he might not have landed in such an awkward situation such as this.To me,she's more like a crush to you.And crushes are normally not to be approached or touched.One simple reason:they dont know you.Chances of rejection?Full.Perhaps,having stated the different categories will limit myself more.And thats bad.I dont know.I guess i should see it as a form of control,instead of restriction.You dont want yourself to end up like HIM,do you?I have to admit,by having to categorize your feelings seems a little stupid and ridiculous at times.However,if you dont want to be hurt,do want to feel pain,thats about the only way there is to prevent it.Its like painkillers injected into your gum before your teeth is plucked out.Restriction is a form of protection.Am i afraid?Yes.Coward?No.Taking precautions.