Of the Guy Crying in the Corner
Great,so geography lecture was cancelled.Apparently Mr J.Ng was sick and he cancelled the lecture.Oh well,it didnt really affect me since i never really intended to go anyway.I hate to wake up at 8am on Saturday mornings just to attend an hour or two of lecture.What the hell for?Anyway,so intead of going for the geography lecture i went for the maths one instead,which started at 1030.Too bad i missed out on the social gathering our class had at Mac.(Since they came to school only to realise that the lecture is cancelled.They went to Mac to kill time,while i drowned myself in dreamland.)Argh,i dont really care anyway.I will get lots of that in the days to come.So i dragged myself up at 945 and took up my guitar and some papers,and got out of the house.Great to see Wong Lai Yong on a Saturday morning.(Sarcasm.)Well,she didnt scream,so thats always a good start.I guess on other days she never really figured out the real use of a microphone.To enchance the sound and project them louder,so instead of screaming into the microphone you can talk normally.The lecture ended soon after i sat down.I was pretty distracted by Rachel who sat beside me.She was playing with the salt packets she got from the MacDonald's breakfast she had earlier.And i accidentally salted myself as one of the packets broke and poured it on my pants.Rachel poured them on the table and sprinkled some on the ground and claims that it will preserve the school.(Yeah,haha...)So i prinkled some on her and say,"Hey look,you'll stay like this for awhile."All right i admit,we were being extremely lame.She was high,overdose of caffeine,i just tagged along.After that the class went home and i met up with Russell and Ahmad to wait for the guitar practise to start.it was demoralising to be honest.Watching those two professional guitar players jammed on rock songs while i,the amateur,sat there and sang along with them.I think if i were to survive on the streets with a guitar i wont last for a week.My voice is probably the best marketing plan for me.Anyway,i got bored waiting so i decided to wake myself up by washing my face in the toilet.So i left the room and walked down the corridor to the toilets.As i turned the corner to the corridor on the other side of the building i saw this guy in yellow and the other girl talking together in the corner.I didnt take much heed until i realise that that guy was JL,(His name i will keep disclosed.)a friend of mine from the club.I wanted to say hi,but they seemed to be having some deep conversation.So i figured they were a couple,(Or so i heard.)having one of those "Couple Talks".Feeling ignorant,i continued on to the toilet.Splash,splash,splash.Yeah,yeah im awake."God you look terrible..."i mumbled under my breath as i wiped the water off my face.Looking at the obviously thinner me and the worn out self in the mirror was definitely not a welcoming sight.I pushed out of the toilet and walked back the same way.JL and the girl was still there but this time,JL was sitting on the floor with his head between his knees.And the girl was facing him and holding his hand.He took off his glasses and started wiping things off his face.(Tears i assumed.)And the girl looked worried and started saying something to him,which i couldnt hear from that distance.As i didnt want to be involved,i scrambled pass them as quickly as i could and i bet JL saw me running away pretending that i saw nothing at all.Well he came in to practise with us awhile later and,he looked at me and i greeted him.I guess he expected me to ask him about what happened,but i didnt.I guess somethings should be left to oneself and not shared.(I dont think he will share it even if i ask of him anyway.)Hmm.My thoughts?I dont know.Seeing so many relationships break apart nowadays are making me question the motives of these people when they are joining the "I am a teenager and i am attached" club.Honestly,what were they thinking?I wonder what a relationship is to them,the importance of it.To experience love,simply have fun with it,or to take it seriously like most minority do.(Wait that didnt sound right...)Hmm.Why engage on a relationship when about 80 percent of the time,its going to fall apart?1 out of every 4 married couples in Singapore will divorce.Well,thats a staggering figure if you ask me.How about the odds for a teenager in a relationship?Our concepts of love is not matured enough,our knowledge about commitment is not,well,right.Who am i to say that anyway?I am no adult,or matured enough to make this form of judgements.However,thats exactly why i am not in a hurry to have a relationship.Not being able to satisfy the significant other,the fear of not being about to commit.The weight of responsibility pouring down like the rain after noon.I dont think i will be able to satisfy anyone,since i cant even satisfy myself sometimes.I want to make the significant other happy and yet,i dont think i can do it.Like the previous entry about goals,well since you dont think you can achieve the goals why not work hard towards it?Well,this is different.You cant work towards being committed or not unless you go down and test yourself in a relationship.And if i cant?What's going to happen?Another girl's heart being broken.Everybody only has one heart to lose,and i dont one anyone's heart to be crushed by my bare hands.I guess JL wasnt ready for a realtionship.Or perhaps the girl wasnt.But to be able to pull a strong face after that,thats amazing dude.Seeing those couples around me breaking up does make me feel a tiny bit of sympathy for them.But at the same time,i laugh at them for not thinking things through in the first place.Maybe you wouldve been better off if you thought about it seriously.Minorities like WanJun and Rachel had managed to hold their relationships together for awhile.Good luck on them.As for those getting attached,i doubt if they will last.Even when my best friends get attached.Perhaps this comment is out of pure jealousy,pure envy.Yeah,perhaps.You guys might hate me for saying that.What the hell,i guess that feeling is sorta inevitable.All right i shall go off now.Before i do a friendly advice for JL."You might have known.Next time you will know."

Quotes of the Day:
[whispering to the mob after roaring at them]
Shrek,'This is the part where you run away.'

Donkey,'Wow, that was really scary and if you don't mind me saying, if that don't work, your breath will certainly get the job done, 'cause you definitely need some Tic Tacs or something 'cause your breath STINKS.'

Shrek,'Well it's no wonder you don't have any friends.'
Donkey,'Wow, only a true friend would be that cruelly honest.'

Lord Farquaad,'Tell me where are the others.'
Gingerbread Man,'Eat me.'

[Shrek enters the tournament.]
Farquaad,'What's that? It's hideous.'
[Looks at Donkey]
Shrek,'Well, that's not very nice.It's just a donkey.'

Shrek,'You can't tell me you're afraid of heights?'
Donkey,'No, I'm just uncomfortable about being on a rickety bridge, over a BOILING LAKE OF LAVA.'

Princess Fiona,'You didn't slay the dragon?'
Shrek,'It's on my "to do" list. Now come on.'
Princess Fiona,'But this isn't right. You're meant to charge in, sword drawn, banner flying--that's what all the other knights did.'
Shrek,'Yeah, right before they burst into flame.'
Princess Fiona,'What kind of a knight are you?'
Shrek,'One of a kind.'

Donkey,'Hi, princess.'
Princess Fiona,'It talks.'
Shrek,'Yeah, but it's getting him to shut up that's the trick.'

Donkey,'Don't die, Shrek. And if you see any long tunnels, stay away from the light.'

Donkey,'Hey, what about Shrek? He's ugly 24/7.'

[The air smells of brimstone]
Donkey,'Ohh. Shrek. Did you do that? You gotta warn somebody before you just crack one off. My mouth was open and everything.'
Shrek,'Believe me, Donkey, if it was me, you'd be dead.'
---'Shrek'(2001)

Song of the Moment---Walking After You by Foo Fighters.