Of Goals
Hmm,today was one of those typical busy days.Had to run up and down the school just to pass this to him,pass that to her,get that from him and sign this for her.What am i to do anyway?Im the CT Rep,and im fated to do crap like that.Not that i dont like it,i am actually enjoying the amount of responsibility that has weighted down on my shoulders.Incredible that i am actually enjoying it.I guess thats one of the few things i can name about school that i actually like.I guess the weirdest thing is that it has everything to do with school,but has nothing to do with what i hate about it.Hmm.Anyway,our classes voted for the theme for the Dinner & Dance this year as the StarryNight.Most probably it will be selected since Retro is the other option.(I seriously doubt if anybody other than Mr Seah will choose this.)Miss Nirmala had this goal session talk with us during CT period,asking us to write down our goals and "Be realistic."she said.So i wrote them down on half a piece of foolscape paper,courtesy of Samantha.For this year i plan to get Bs for my subjects.Realistic?I dont know,I'm not sure about Econs but i can get Bs for others,and i am qute confident about that.And to get at least 1270 for my SAT.Realistic?I dont know.After that tragic experience last year with SAT i am seriously doubting my ability to score anything more than 1200.Anyway,I wrote about the future.What i want to do.Of course most of them are written here --->.On the right hand side of this blog.To earn lots of money and to buy a car,a house then go around the world.Alone?With friends?Girlfriend?Wife perhaps?I dont really care.As long as i have fun.And to survive 2005 and 2006.Years of the NS i'll call them.And after that i will be a free man.How i wish Ive survived my NS already and i am now waiting for the university admission.Thats if i get pass the As at all.I want to get into Mass Com.This course in university.But i heard that you need to have high scores for the admission.That demoralised me by a mile because,i dont score well.You have to get a2 for Gp.That's like trying to make a roasted chicken run a 100 metre race.Impossible.Sigh.Set up a movie company in Singapore,or maybe back home in Taiwan.Perhaps create a partnership with Weta and take their footsteps.Learn from them,how did they managed to start their first step in New Zealand in the first place.Oh well,if that doesnt work,then i will try the music business.Be a producer or something.Porbably not the singer because,i dont sing well enough.If that doesnt work then i will go into writing.Writing has always been a passion for me.Though i am not the greatest writer out there,in fact i am not even the best writer i know amongst my friends.But i always come up with ideas which i will jot down in this notebook i have.Well,maybe someday i guess?Afterall anyone can publish books nowadays.You dont really have to have the skills in writing well anyway.Are my goals realistic enough?Well who cares?Goals are afterall,goals.Like what Nisah said,"Goals are goals,they dont need to be achieved.And you probably wont."Where will the road lead?A friend of mine is going to Poly now.He cant take the JC education system anymore.Well,perhaps poly might have been a better choice for me.Perhaps i made the wrong choice.I can leave school now and head straight for poly.Start my own business of my A levels screws up,and perhaps if that fails,i will work for my dad.Maybe i will take the withdrawal form from the school tomorrow.I cant take the life i live in right now.I cant wait to work.But thats what everybody says isnt it.People never appreciates what they have,but what they desires.I think that in a couple of year's time when i join the workforce i will be missing the days when i go to school in my uniform early in the morning.What goals will i have then?To follow the everyday routine?Wake up,eat,brush teeth,go to work,come back home,eat,sleep.Is that going to be my life after my school days end?Even then i shouldve had goals surely?Earn a million and stop.Two million.Perhaps ten million.Hundred million?Whatever it is,i dont think i will enjoy my life in the workforce very much anyway,maybe if i like my job.Some interesting job just as a writer or,perhaps an entertainer.I wish for the day when i wake up in the morning to meet the bright morning sun pouring in through my curtains,and when i look at my alarm clock,i know that i wont need to wake up so early and not fearing what tomorrow may bring.The day when i know that there is nothing to fear tomorrow.No more tests,examinations,homeworks,fierce boss,irritating colleagues yada yada yada.In the meantime,i am stuck here in my school life.And soon i will be struggling through my As and make sure i still have the strength after that to drag myself through mud and dirt in the NS.Then after that make sure that i have the interest to even find a job.Then...Nevermind the future.Look ahead but not too far.Look forward and not back,thats why the eyes are grown in front.

Quotes of the Day:
King Arthur,'For the first in my life, I wanted what all wise man say can't last; what can't be promised or made to linger any more than sunlight. I don't want to die without having felt its warmth on my face.'

King Arthur,'Lancelot, just a thought. A man who fears nothing is a man who loves nothing; and if you love nothing, what joy is there in your life? I may be wrong.'

Lancelot,'I dare not kiss so lovely a lady. I have but one heart to lose.'

King Arthur,'May God grant us the wisdom to discover right, the will to choose it, and the strength to make it endure.'

King Arthur,'Only a fool wants what he can not have.'
---"First Knight"(1995)

Song of the Moment---Hotel California by Eagles