Of the Empty Seat and the Flash Movie
Ohh~What a day.Just came back from guitar not long ago.Exhausted,and bored.While others are trying desperately to find the perfect Valentine's Day gifts for the one they like,the one they love,the one they have a crush on,or simply their friends,i am at home wondering when i will see her again.Probably the dumbest thing to hope for and to think about on the days towards Valentine's Day.Afterall,Valentine's Day is supposed to be the most romantic day of the year.A time when you can spend with the one you like and perhaps,the one you love.However,for some its like the day when the results come out.A report card which shows how successful you are in your love life.If you dont have a date on this day then its pretty sad.If you havent had a date for two years thats very very sad.If you havent had a date since forever ago thats very sad and pathetic.Oh well,i dont really care what others say.I will elaborate on that later on.Anyway,i got to class this morning trying to look on the bright side of things.Melvir is my best guy friend from class really.And well,it sucks to know that he left the class and the school to pursue something in his life.I dont have the right to stop him whatsoever,i must admit that.But somehow or another things are different when he's not around.Or rather,when a guy is not around.I was telling a friend of mine on the phone just now,that no matter how close you are to a girl,when asked about their best of friends,a female's name will probably pop up instead of yours.Thats the truth and face it,a guy can never replace a girl.Even if you can,thats a miracle.Anyway,so the class is left with 3 guys.ZhuangYi Hanwei and Me.To some that might be a paradise for males.Afterall you are surrounded by females 24/7.However,from our point of view,it is pretty sad.For some reason 3 of us cant click with each other.They are nice people of course but,ZhuangYi likes soccer and i dont.Hanwei likes computers and i dont.I like guitars and they dont.I cant even come up with any decent topic to talk about everytime im with them.When i sit beside Zhuangyi during maths tutorials all i can do is to sleep or to do a maths question or two.However,when Melvir's around,we will be at the back of the class talking about anything under the sky and beyond.When Ravish was here it was even better.The truth is,its boring without him.Bloody hell,i found myself staring out of the window at the clouds this afternoon during Geography tutorial.Yes it was boring but also,i felt extremely bored coz he was not there to talk cock with me.I know this sounds gay but you guys can think whatever you want to think.Sigh.I never had a problem of deciding who to talk to during breaks or after school.Afterall if i dont have anyone to talk to i will probably talk cock with Melvir in some empty classroom.Nowadays i will leave the room and go to the toilet just to avoid awkwardness.Its not that they are not nice people,but i guess the problem lies with me and i have to deal with it.Melvir you bastard.Anyway,Valentine's Day's in what,3 days?And the mere fact that Cross country is held on that day as well turned most of the students off to a record low.Excited,yes.But they cant accept the fact that they have to go out on a date after sweating and running under the scorching sun.Boring.And as for me,i dont have that kind of problem.If i have the strength left to crawl home to my bed and have a good nap i will be extremely thankful.And as for dates?Quotes Adriel,"Who gives a flying F***?".Indeed,i dont care about dates anyway.Screw those.The last time i tried,it kinda failed so...Screw it.More or less,there is a level of jealousy.The fact that people are enjoying themselves while you stay at home and play computer games?What a turn off?What a bloody bore?What can you possibly do about it?Find Miss Right-Now?Hanwei just messaged me online and gave me this link to this little flash movie.Its about this guy who is not exactly the handsome type of guy,talking about being steadless on Valentine's Day and how he's dealing with it.Well,i guess more or less i can relate to this "Not-so-good-looking" guy.He calls himself Xiao Bing,so i shall address him as that.Anyway,i am no f4,i am not jay chou.And i cant sell a single piece of my photograph even if i paste money on the photo frame.They are not even willing to bring the photo home to drive away evil spirits.Oh well,i am not handsome,i have no charm.I have a dream,which is a foolish dream.Sometimes i doubt if dreaming is anything better than not dreaming at all,since nothing comes to reality and everything become hopeless.I used to tell me friends,when i grow up,i will be satisfied with a good meal and a good wife.With those,i will be very thankful.People told me that it is impossible,or extremely hard to find someone like that.Maybe being handsome is everything?Of course i didnt believe it.Im turning 18 soon,and for 17 years,ive never gave any girls any Valentine's Day gift save for one.That didnt really work out anyway.I never gave anyone else anything because,ive never been liked by anyone before,at least i havent heard of any.For me,i live a very simple life.I try my best to do whatever i need to do all the time,and i believe that it is important to treat the girl that i like,right.I am a self proclaimed nice guy sometimes,however,God played a trick on me every year and well,even though i am a nice guy in some ways,ive never succeeded in my love life.Oh well,some says that when God takes something from you,he will give you back something else.In that case,what did he give to me?Time.He gave me lots of time.Why do you think i am typing nonstop here anyway?The truth is,he took away this girl that i couldve had and exchanged it for time.I can do whatever i like.I can play guitars,read my books,surf internet,do whatever i can and like under the stars.However,i'll glady exchange time with the girl i truely love.There are some people who boasts about their love life,announcing to the world about their relationships,some even has two relationships at the same time.I hate those kind of people.I hate it even more when they are attached,then dump this girl because he saw someone of better looks or boobs.I might be stupid,i might be old fashioned,i might even be giving myself excuses.Perhaps i dont know how good the feeling is to have someone to cuddle with,to hold,to kiss and to love.Perhaps i am too dumb to know and experience that.However,i know that i live with dignity and respect for myself.Oh well,this Valentine's Day i might be lonely,however,i dont mind waiting for HER forever.No matter how many Valentine's Days i have to wait,i will wait.I know there are a lot of girls and guys out there without someone to enjoy this day with,therefore i wish you a happy Valentine's Day.Better luck next year.

This short flash movie is actually for guys.However,girls can watch it too.Its pretty cute.=)
Check out the Flash Movie.

Oh by the way,I am so going for The Lord of the Rings Exhibition at Science Centre,which will last from 13th March to 4th of June!!17 dollars per ticket!!Here i come baby!!
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