Of Demoralization
Hmm.A good performance,a bad performance?I dont know,people have been giving comments on my performance yesterday on either side of the scale.Some thought it sucked and was terrible while others thought it was great.Hmm.I wonder if anybody's lying,or just plain picky.I personally thought that i wouldve done better,but i was really nervous yesterday,since it was my very first performance in front of a live audience in my life,its inevitable to become nervous.A friend of mine scolded the other for not persuading me to back out from the performance,which made a fool out of myself.Argh.Shut up.I did not volunteer to do this performance in the first place.Secondly,if you can do a better job,please show me.Oh well,what can i say.I didnt need to know those comments,but on the other hand,they are pretty important to me as well.Ironic isnt it?The only important comments are the ones you dont want to hear.What an ironic world.I admit that i did not sing as well as i couldve yesterday.Perhaps if i sang like how i did during the audition i wouldve recieved less of those idiotic comments.I didnt think it was that terrible,but perhaps they were right,more or less.Argh.Afterall,it was my first performance,and i tried hard,and my best.I guess.My nerves gotten into me yesterday.I bet even the greatest singer in the world started off like me.How can you please the whole crowd at the same time?To have a music which suits the taste of everyone and sing up to the standard of everyone?Besides,if im really that bad,what the heck am i doing in the talentime finals?A bad day perhaps?Of all days,great.Hmm.I normally take criticism pretty well,but today's one really gotten into me as i walked home from school.Well,i guess a criticism from a stranger sinks a little deeper than the ones given by friends,since they are normally taken as advices.Sigh.Demoralize?A little bit.However,i want to prove them wrong.I want to prove them wrong so bad.Dont ever judge me with one freaking performance because,i still have one coming up,and i swear i will blow you away.Please God,give me the power to prove them all wrong.Sigh.This stinks.Its a Friday and i am actually troubled over something like that.Its not supposed to happen.I have to get back to school later on for the rehearsal.Argh.This stinks.My bandmate couldnt make it because she wants to spend time with her boyfriend.Somehow,i feel like i am doing this for myself.She kept refering the song as,"His song" and showed no interest in this competition.I feel as if she is doing this for my sake,and that she's just there to help.I really dont want her to feel that way,since i feel that we should win this together.Argh.I hate it when someone is pretending to be interested.Perhaps she's just living within her own world,like she normally do.Oh well,i will prove them wrong by doing my best later.I cant possibly be perfect all the time can i?If you want to make a comment,please tell me and not tell your friends.Sigh.Nvm,i guess i'll be able to get over this in no time.Back to practises.I have to perform later because she cant make it.Great.How often will this kind of opportunity come along?Nvm,problem faced,solve it,leave it.I shall do it on my own now.Vocals,vocals,vocals!