Of Samantha's Precious Crystals
Caution!Explicit language and Emotional
Yesterday night i was sitting on the couch in my room thinking about whether or not i should skip PE tmr morning or simply go ahead and meet my doom...folded up my PE shorts and T-shirt and stuffed them into my bag...just as i was about to climb into bed my sister came in and handed me my handphone..."You left it in the toilet..there's a message..."i thanked her and opened the message..it was front Samantha...The message was sent at 0:20am and i mustve been a pretty important matter...so i called her up instead of replying to that message...Surprisingly she picked up the phone and she sounded weird..initially i assumed that it was due to the flu she had a couple of days ago...but she told me that she was crying all night..when asked why she told me that she was thinking about the stuff that happened for the past few days..especially about our replacement for Geog tutor..and she started crying when she thought of how good Mr Clarence Yeo was to us when he was still around with us back in 2003...i didnt exactly know what to do at that time..since im a sucker at talking to crying girls over the phone..(Not to mention face to face..)And it was past midnight and my brain wasnt working right..(As if it ever did..)She told me that all her favourite teachers from the Arts stream..(And ONLY from the Arts stream)are now elsewhere teaching instead of carrying on with their work here in nyjc...Miss Berlinda Tan(If thats how you spell her name..)the literature teacher,Mr Abdul Halim the GP teacher,Mrs Hougan the Geography teacher and Mr Clarence Yeo,our Geography teacher,our CT tutor,or guide and our friend...Let me give you a background on those teachers..im not very familiar with Miss Berlinda Tan since she teachers literature and i am a sucker at literature..i havent touched that subject for more than 3 years...So i wont be able to give you a detailed account about her...And as for Mr Abdul Halim,he is a great GP teacher...he must be the most unpopular teacher amongst the 4 i mentioned..(Though still liked by a lot of students..)He has his way of doing things in class which is different from other teachers...Weird ways if thats what you call it..especially the time when he asked the whole class to write him an apology letter just because the class was copying what he was writing on the transparency while he was talking.."Disrespectful!"he said...He's an extremely knowledgable individual as well...He's like a living encyclopedia...with pages and words melted and moulded to become what he looks like...he knows absolutely anything and everything under the sky and beyond it..not to mention the multiple Masters degree and the PH.D degrees he has...he's truely a wonderful teacher to lose...Mrs Hougan,she never taught me for a very long time..for a few months or so..But her explaination of plate tectonics will always stay with me..and her lame jokes in class will be remembered as well...she has her way of teacher..and unlike Mr Halim she teaches with a twist of fun...Once she commented that Melvir's drawing of the plate boundaries was like 2 cakes moving towards each other..And how she almost got knocked down by a car when she was in a carpark...how she scolded that driver..Hilarious...And as for Mr Clarence Yeo...if i were to tell you about him i will go on forever..in fact maybe take up the whole page if i need to..Summary?Well...Four words:A friend,A Guide,The Man and the Light...Go figure...Anyway,she was telling me how much she cared for all those teachers and how they left NYJC within merely one year...and she asked me for the pattern...(Well i didnt necessary see the pattern..)Well they were all very popular teachers...and they are liked by all the students they've taught..and why are they gone?Because the level head(Explicit Language ahead..)Mr "I-am-a-fucked-up-bastard"(I will keep quiet about his name..Sorry for the language)saw the coming of the teachers..the rising of their popularity...and he's post as the level head was threatened by the 4 teachers..due to greed for power(And money i assume..)he made the lives of the teachers difficult by asking them do more works..set more exams and teach more classes and organise more fieldtrips than their initial work quota..(Bloody son of a bitch..)So the conspiracy was unmasked and i finally learned the truth about that black slave..(Though i never liked him anyway..)So those teachers will quit due to the immense pressure and he's threats will be eliminated..(For those who dont believe me..contact those teachers i listed..This doesnt just happen in movies but also in a school..Just to let you know..)Anyway,Sam was pretty upset about that fact..of course i was pissed as well..to learn that it was all due to someone's greed..which affected us all..Though i was greatly angered by the news..i told Sam that there's nothing we can do now to turn the situation around..there is no point crying for what happened and what is irriversible..If Clarence Yeo knows that you are crying for him I'm sure he wont be very much happier in Mj..But if crying makes you feel better Sam dont hold them back..do not be afraid of crying..At the mentioning of that name she started crying again..though i could tell that she was desperately holding them back...I dont get it...if you want to cry...just cry...as long as you dont cry for the wrong reasons..He's worthy of yours and our tears..Ive always told my friends..especially the female friends,(Since my Guy friends never cries...Other than the occasion when YiXiang cried after he got stripped but nvm that..)that tears are true representation of one's emotions towards something or someone that cannot be denied...It is the crystal of saturated emotions that is natural and god sent...It is more beautiful than any jewel beneath the earth or any star above the clouds because what it means is more than just some water droplets from your eyes...but it shows what the person is feeling deep inside...not all tears are of a bad cause..and not all bad things are worthy of one's tears...If one can realise that then there is absolutely no shame in crying...To give that precious crystal to that someone special or important in your life...that not only shows what these tears represents to him/her..but also what he/she means to you...Dont hold them back Sam,you will only be denying yourself and what you truely feel...Like you said before...you said that you wear a mask...to be a strong individual...until you realise that you are not who the mask shows you...why dont you take off the mask for once and look at yourself through the reflection of the tears in your eyes..What do you see?I see the true Samantha Lim staring back at me..:)All darkness must pass...and when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer...This is only a passing thing and one day our paths will meet again...Dont despair..for now is not the time for grieving..I will have you smile again..not to grieve for what happened but to accept the situation and what is to come...stop wearing that mask and show people the true Samantha..