Of 11 months,28 days and 9 hours of 2003
As we look back at 2003..the things we did and the things we didnt..the things we are satisfied of..the things that we regret..things that shouldve been said..things that shouldve been said...what happened this year?the goods and the bads..the happy and the sad..the friends and the enemys..of losing and gaining..of rejoicing and crying...the dates that should and will be remembered..the people that youve met..the people that left...

This is Weilien's Review of Life 2003...

So what happened to me?im sure my close friends should know what happened since i got into JC...first 3 months was the best 3 months of the year..in fact the best 3 months of my life..indeed..when i was in SRJC i made a lot of friends..The environment and the place was just so right when i was there...had a lot of first times in SRJC..
1st Times:
1)Skipping school
2)Switching Uniforms
3)Falling in love
4)Falling out of it..
5)Felt the harshness of JC life
6)Made TRUE friends
The truth is that SRJC will be an experience that i'll never forget..The classes we used to skip..the lectures we used to pon..the lunches at heartland mall..the farewell dinner at Marina Bay..the steamboats..the Heartattack at Burger King..the scoldings and all of those little things we did and fought together..it was a really fun experience for me..Special thanks to SRJC class 1s24 for making that happen..Never felt this close to a class before..or to anyone in fact..though our paths led us to different routes and ways..we will still be together as one..

The road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began
Now far ahead the road has gone
And i must follow if i can
Pursuing it with eager feet
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet
And whither then?i cannot say...

Someday our paths will meet..maybe they wont..but when we meet i'll say hi to you..and if you trip i will carry you..because once in my life you guys were there to help me through..:)Thanx 1s24..Love you guys..:)
my class wasnt the only reason why i loved srjc so much..probably because some of the teachers as well..Like Miss Lee whom i'll like to say a big thank you to..you've made our GP lessons a must every week..transforming a very boring lesson into a microscope for us to see the world..I still remember the Taboo game we played in class as well as the Jingles i sang..though it wasnt very perfect but you were there to show your support..Everyone else at SRJC whom ive met..Jessica Ruiyi Janice Laibun Enthu(aka Kian Heng) Andrew Jasmine Puifang Guijin Siti Ashriq WeiJie Russell MiaoTing XinYin and a whole lot more..Thanks for being there when i needed you guys..Special thanks to the friendly guys during PE...Mr Ma..i still hate yr face but you're a great PE teacher..Andrew Cox..Screw you to hell...Specially like to thank seniors like Audrey and 'Xiao Bai' who were my OGLs..made the orientation a whole lot of fun...Audrey if you happen to read this..im so sorry about the comment about you looking like Doraemon..:P hahaa..Everyone from Auriga..enjoyed every minute with you guys during the orientation..especially the BBQ we had at east coast when we sat in a circle on the beach and listen to my dirty jokes..thank you so much for being such a wonderful audience..Most importantly without this person my life in SRJC wldnt have been complete..Rs..thank you for being a friend..ive tried to become someone a little more than a friend but i guess im fine not being that...Though you were not there most of the time when i needed you most but..you existence is still very much appreciated..Is the Valentine's day card still with you?And the seashells?Or are they thrown away?And hope you like the earrings i left at your doorstep..Though things didnt turn out as well as ive wanted it to be between us..i guess i just wasnt thinking straight back then..how foolish and stupid can i get...i hope you find a better fortune with some guy in school..im sure there are better candidates than me..Thank you for showing me reality..how stupid i am...You will always have a corner in my mind tell the end of my days as the person that i found and lost..the precious and the light...the single star in the dawning sky...if i were to describe you with one word..it'll simply be,'Wow..'I wasnt able to understand why you left...or why you rejected me..however..i think im beginning to understand..i know now...maybe its fated that im not able to give you happiness..anyway..i have to say a couple of things to you..Thank You,Im Sorry,Be Happy......

After the 1st 3 months things went downhill..with my admittance to NYJC as a start..with SRJC still firmly stuck in my mind back then i was hoping that NYJC would be on par or even better than SRJC..due to the constant advertising from my friends from NYJC...well it turned out to be one of the worst places ive ever been to...The school itself looks like a warehouse..which i managed to convince myself not to be bothered with it because we'll be moving soon..(Which didnt last long since he contractor went bankrupt and we couldnt move..)My class was 'nice'...compared to 1s24 this class is simply a bunch of different people forced to live together under one roof..though they are all nice people but due to some individuals my class have never been an enjoyable class..the quarrels..the rumors..the arguements..with each other and other classes just made me sick of the school and the class..especially the incident to deal with J and R just made me sick...come to think about it it wasnt exactly my fault to post what i want to post on my blog..but nvm i wil let the matter to rest...the truth is i never felt welcomed or comfortable in this school..i feel out of place and like a stranded bird in a locked up cage..dying to get out..the next couple of months in NYJC was a living hell...i enjoyed everyday outside of school and dread everyday when im in it..even though Mr Yeo was there to make us happy and stuff..trying to create a bond between us..but still i dislike the class a lot..maybe im just comparing with 1s24 too much and too often..but i cant help it...Not to mention the 'great' teachers here..the maths department and the PE department has the worst teachers in the world...best organisers...good job!!(Sarcasm alert..)the leap carnival was so boring and dead that i'll rather kill myself with a basketball...Thanx for failing almost every one of my econs tests Mr Teo...and the pouring tutorials from ur maths teacher..the lousy seats and the stupid LTs..the old building and the leaking roof...ARRRGHHHH!!!get me out of here...You dont know the sweet till you tasted the sour..which is so true..ive tasted sweetness in SRJC..now i know how horrible nyjc is...dont even get me started with the bloody uniform..i cant wait for the day when my As are over..and i can piss on the school building and say Sayonara to it...i long for that day to come...

Family wise..this year has been good..dad earned a lot this year despite the recession and all..and he bought the family lots of stuff...video cameras..new computers..new car...a lot more..his brother which is my uncle has problems with his business in taiwan..and my dad has to manage his business here in singapore..in china as well as helping out with his brother's company in taiwan..so most of the time he wont be in singapore..but even though the distance is great..we are still a very close family..my sis hadnt change much since she was 9 years old..still sceaming at her idols when she sees them hoping and dancing around on tv..those bloody monkeys should get a life and fast..my mom is still the same..but she took up the job as the director at my dad's company...I love my family..:)Nuff said..

Dates to be Remembered:
1)3rd of January,2003
2)4th of January,2003
3)14th of February,2003
4)28th February,2003
5)12th March,2003
6)23rd October,2003
7)18th December,2003

1)Day i met Rs 2)First dance with Rs 3)Day i made the mistake of my life 4)Os results.. 5)Last Dance with Rs 6)Rs's Birthday 7)The Lord of the Rings:The Return of the King

Conclusion
So how was my year?Half was perfect and the other was trash...i dont believe that next year wld be any better..but oh well...its been a fairly good year i guess..:)

Its been 11 months 28 days and 9 hours since ive met Rs...and for 11 months 28 days and 9 hours i have been thinking about her...since the last time i saw you in June..everything had been a blur to me...the longest 11 months 28 days and 9 hours of my life...:)

What to do on the Last day of 2003
Sit back and relax..stay away from noisy parties downtown and bikini babes on beaches..lie on my bed..listen to some music..and reflect on myself..i know its not the perfect way to spend the last day of the year on..some might wanna go clubbing..some might wanna go out with friends..but i guess im just a loner..been alone every christmas..new years eve..new year..used to it..once ive thought of bringing her to a beach and do our little countdown..but that's just a fantasy and nothing more...Kinda sucks i know but..thats how it is...hey 2004..hope you will bring me more luck..:)

Of the Lost and Found
"Good morning!!its the Perfect 10 98.7 f..." *BANG* i slammed on the off button on my radio clock..'Im up...im up...' i mumbled as i crawled out of bed again at 1030 this morning..rubbed my eyes and stared out through the window as cloud floated by the sky...havent woke up at 1030 in ages i thought..and i went out of my room to search for food..mom was not at home..probably at dad's office or something...so i called Samuel and met him at the comic shop awhile later at Serangoon Central..was supposed to go to his house but in the end i spent half the time reading Naruto at the comic shop..actually its a pretty interesting comic..i might just continue reading it from today onwards..Met up with Guan Ming and we went to Heartland Mall for Yoshinoya..since everyone was starving our stomachs out..Was drinking my soup when JiaYing suddenly banged the window beside the table i was sitting..which almost got me choking on my soup..She was there to meet some friend..and was late..(As usual..)well that was a pleasent surprise..Took a long walk to Sam's place and finally i reached his house..the way to his house was like a damn maze...left turns and right turns...up and down slopes..through fields and stuff..that really got me confused 5 minutes into the walk...anyway...he's house is a really cool place..lots of mini buddhas here and there..which had a striking resemblance with Samuel himself..he's room is neat..considering the fact that Barn's room is like a damn warehouse..He has the whole second floor to himself..with a personal tv outside his room as well as a computer..so i spent the afternoon there surfing computer while i lied on the ground and watched central..(Yes..cartoons..)i left awhile later..since i had to rush to Siti's house to hand her her Christmas present...Samuel took me through the estate and cut through a shortcut to the Bowen Secondary area..that place looked awfully familiar..until i saw the church around the corner when i realised that this was the route i ran my 4.8 every friday during the first 3 months..made some really good friends along that route while running..supporting each other...making sure that one doesnt faint on the way...so he left me at the bus stop and i took a bus to her place...as i took bus 156 the dream i had yesterday came back to haunt me..as if trying to remind me of the feeling of being lost amongst a totally foreign place..no being able to find her..got off the bus and looked around the area..it was strangely quiet there..with only a couple of cars zooming pass on the road..and once in a while sound of kids playing on the playground in the distance..i plugged my earphones into my ears and played John Mayer's CD as i walked into the blocks looking for block 501 where both of them stayed..506A...506B...504...502...as the numbers of the blocks counted down my heart started to rush faster and faster..and each step i took became heavier and heavier..until a point when i had to drag them through the parking lots..Siti had to go out with her family for dinner at Ang Mo Kio...so she wouldnt be able to meet me...so i searched the area..finally block 501 loomed up before my eyes..and i climbed the stairs to Siti's home and placed her present on this chair in front of her house...then i went up to the 14th floor...i was nervous...very nervous...i guess i was afraid that i might be spotted by her father or even herself..what if the door's opened?i thought..as the lift brought me up to the top floor...i half expected her to be standing in the lobby waiting for me..butn o..it was empty..with the warm afternoon sun filling up the lobby...492...492...i mumbled as i looked for her place..i turned the corner and went down the corridor...491...490...wait...did i miss her house?so i turned back..and at the end of the corridor was her house..the door was closed tight..and it was blue..outside there was a cupboard full of shoes..there was no window beside the door whatsoever...and the gate to her house was locked as well..Siti asked me to hand the present to her personally...and i wanted to..but i hestitated at the end of the corridor..holding the envelope in my hand..i doubted if i should press the doorbell or not..i wonder what her dad will think if he answers the door..maybe its already become a tradition that some guy will come to his house and knock on his door looking for his daughter every christmas..o well..maybe there was something else..the fear of seeing her again..after all seeing her will only rekindle the desire within me..without knowing what i was doing..i already had my finger on the doorbell..but i pulled back..and placed the envelope on the cupboard...then i left her house...before i took the lift i took one last look at her place..it was all quiet..no sound at all..deep in my heart i expected her..or perhaps someone to open the door..and hopefully notice the whie envelope placed on the cupboard..but no sound of locks or doors came from her place...so i turned to the lift...got in a pressed 1...i lost her in my dreams...i lost her on block 501 yesterday...in my dreams and reality a few months ago when i screwed up during the confession...but today i found her again...but my guts and couraged failed me as i stepped closer to her..and i lost her all over again..its like finding a treasure chest on the side of the road..and decided to leave it coz u were scared what might pop out from inside the box..later realising that its actually a chest full of gold...how stupid was i...i lost her all over again...

Song of the Moment---Hands by Jewel

Of Vienna, Tristan, Devon, Jaina,Arwen and Block 501
The sky grew dark and it started to rain...i held my umbrella tight within my grasp while i ran through the parking lot..trying desperately to memorise the address of her home..and soon i got lost amongst the blocks...block 501 was nowhere in sight...and i searched frantically for it as the rain continued to release its fury on me..at that moment from the corner of my eyes i spotted block 501..gladly i ran towards the lobby and pressed 14 on the row of buttons..it lighted up and the lift took me up up and up..holding her Christmas present in one hand and my drenched umbrella in the other the lift slowly progressed up the shaft...the door opened and i searched for her house...no matter how i searched..i couldnt find her place..i ran up and down the block..but her home was nowhere to be seen..i got tired and weary...and the sky was growing dark...and still raining...so i sat down on the staircase and fell asleep...

12.34nn
I sat up from my bed...turned around to check my radio clock..bright yellow numbers shining back at me from behind the plastic cover..12.34...damn...ive slept pass noon again...its been like that for the past few days...i guess its time to sleep earlier than usual...anyway...so there i was sitting on my bed...waking up from a horrifying dream...of getting lost and not knowing the direction whatsoever...i grabbed my forehead and laughed at myself under my breath..and went for lunch...during lunch mom told me that we will be going to Vienna,a buffet restruant for dinner tonight with my parent's friends...and their names are known to me as well...due to their great hospitality when we went to japan a few years ago my parents decided to treat them to a buffet dinner and United Square..and so we went there and met up with them at the restruant..ive known their kids since the time when i went to japan..Roger,this extremely cute kid with a chubby face..and a mouth which never fail to utter something hilarious which will get me and my sister rolling on the floor...he's 5 and yet he has his way of making people laugh...and his sister Anita is the quiet one..2 years old..and she fell aslp on the dinner table soon after the dinner started..she was really cute in that white dress her mom bought for her..and her smile was sweet as well everytime she hears the word,'Pi4 Gu3'(Butt in chinese..)for some reason...anyway...so there i was being the big brother amongst the kids..and i was dragged to the fountain area to play with roger...of course he was the one who did the dragging..with the spoon i used for icecream still in my mouth he pulled me to the foundtain..literally pulled me there..anyway..so i watched as he tried to step on the water everytime i shoots out from holes on the ground...and everytime he tried to press the hole the water will spurt from the hole and splash onto his face..i watched as he made a fool out of himself...i had to bring him food..help him order drinks...bring him to the toilets..help him put on his shoes...well...its a tiring job to be a father...or parents for that matter...i guess thats something most teenagers will try to avoid..which led to the invention of condoms by the way...anyway..i guess im just the odd one out..i wanna have my own kids i guess..obtaining satisfaction from the smile on their faces when you give them something they desire...ive thought about it over the years actually..and even thought about their names...the boy will be called Tristan or Devon..while the girl will be called either Jaina or Arwen..o well..just one of those little fantasies of mine...kinda stupid if you ask me but...when you get bored anything flows..Tristan because he's an character from a movie called Legends of the Fall played by Brat Pitt..Devon because i think his name is cool..it actually belongs to this american child star..that dude from Final Destination..Jaina is from the game Warcraft3..no reason for it...just a nice name..and Arwen is from The Lord of the Rings..why Arwen?coz the other female character's name,Eowyn,doesnt sound as nice...:P ive always imagined my future son to be tugging at my sleeves and asking me some maths question..and i will be clueless about it due to my lack of knowledge in the field of mathematics..and i will ask him to ask my wife and she will be cooking in the kitchen...o well..its a stupid fantasy..and for those people reading this and thinks that its stupid please leave...i dont blame you...so ive named my sons and my daughters..and my wife?well...good question...where is she?well...read the first paragraph..i lost her on block 501...

Of the Wheat Field and the Forest
WHAT IS LOVE?

One day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is love? How can I find it?" His teacher answered, "There is a vast wheat field in front. Walk forward without turning back, and pick only one stalk. If you find the most magnificent stalk, then you have found love." Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with empty hands. Having picked nothing, his teacher asked, "Why did you not pick any stalk?" Plato answered, "Because I could only pick once, and yet I could not turn back. I did find the most magnificent stalk, but did not know if there were any better ones ahead, so I did not pick it. As I walked futher, the stalks that I saw were not as good as the earlier one, so I did not pick any in the end." His teacher then said, "And that is love."

WHAT IS MARRIAGE?

On another day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is marriage? How can I Find it?" His teacher answered, "There is a thriving forest in front. Walk forward without turning back, and chop down only one tree.If you find the tallest tree, then you have found love."Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with a tree. The tree was not thriving, and it was not tall either. It was only an ordinary tree. His teacher asked, "Why did you chop down such an ordinary tree?" Plato answered, "Because of my previous experience. I walked halfway through the forest, but returned with empty hands. This time, I saw this tree, and I felt that it was not bad, so I >>chopped it down and brought it back. I did not want to miss the opportunity." >>His teacher then said, "And that is marriage."

This is the lyrics to the song playing on my blog now..enjoy..:)
Lyrics of the Day:
Foolish Games by Jewel



You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in morning
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took off your coat and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that

Of the Misty Runway and the Dust Covered Sports Car
when did today begin?well it goes back to christmas night..when me and my sister decided not to sleep at all..and so we did..stayed up and watched television throughout the night..which is one of the greatest achievements of taiwanese television..good quality shows 24/7..unlike singapore..after 1am the television forces you to go to bed...yes and thats the reality of things here in singapore..boring and dead..anyway..so we stayed up all night until my aunt woke up at 4am to make breakfast..kinda weird to have breakfast at 4am though but anyway..then we did a last minute check of the stuff we brought with ourselves and at last..we locked the front door and took the lift to the basement to drive to the airport..the day has finally come..the day when i meet my life...again...once every year i get to run away..i get to live in a dreamworld for a week or two in taiwan..hoping that maybe i can be unleashed from life..but i know deep in my heart the day of departure will soon arrive..and that i'll have to wake up and smell the air of death again...like jiaying said yesterday...she dreads the days to come..especially next year..who doesnt really..im hoping now that im a working man and not having to worry about my schoolwork..whether a small mistake in an exam will cost me to lose the rest of my life..or will i die in NS..anywayz..so we finally reached basement two and as i dragged the luggage through the basement i saw that red sports car there...its been there since the last time i came..which was more than a year ago..and my aunt told me that the owner of that car went overseas and its been awhile since she saw him..he's probably dead anyway...killed overseas or drifting on some unnamed island..whatever it is..the car gathered a whole lot of dust..in fact if i jump onto the surface of the car my aunt will probably take a week or two to find me..it gathered a thick layer of dust..so i thought if the owner is really dead then it'll still be around when i come back next year right?so i went to my aunt's car and tore out a piece of tissue..wrote my initials on the windshield of the car and ran away..hopefully that guy's family wont drive the car away before i come back...anywayz..the journey to the airport was a long one..i was already starting to miss taiwan...the delicious food and the nice people..oh gosh..and i have to wait a full year before i can eat those and meet them again?the thought went past me like the trees speeding pass our car..the morning highway was pretty empty and my uncle sped down the highway at full speed...he was trying to cheer us up by telling us his personal comparison of the population of singapore and china..he said that if every single chinese in china were to spit in singapore it will create a flood serious enough to drown all singaporeans...i guess i was too tired then..i was laughing my head off..got to the airport and we said our farewells..sad though..but we will meet again soon..hope they have a safe trip to alaska next may..at 710am me and my sis boarded the plane and soon after it took off...back...back to reality i thought...what an end to a wonderful holiday!!i thought sarcastically..as the plane drove slowly down the runway i saw through the side windows..a thick fog was gathering at the end of the runway right before our plane turned the corner..another plane took off before us and soon it disappeared into the mist and was gone..other than shapes and shadows of distant buildings nothing could be seen..our plane braked into position and soon it powered up and i was ready to live my home..soon the mist grew closer and closer and we were consumed by it soon after...i pictured my plane being consumed by the mist..as the plane runs through the mist it breaks apart due to the eddy winds then covers back up again behind the tracks of the plane..which made me think...if that plane represents me..whats the point of life?you position yourself at one end of the runway...you see your problem ahead of you...you are scared that you might do something wrong and crash..but with courage you charge towards that fear and doubt..after all the best way to conquer your fear is to face it innit?well then if fear is like a mist...you run through it and it consumes you?it swallows you up?life eats you in?what are you going to do?what are you going to do?everything's blurry and misty..what's my goal?where did i start?everything became blurry...as i rose above the clouds i stared out in despair as the cities grew smaller and smaller..eventually disappearing the white cotton like clouds..on the left the clouds consumed all that was below..but on the right where i was sitting...cloudless sky stretched from my window all the way into the horizon...as in someone cut through the infinite sky leaving behind a clear and distinctive line called the horizon..it was pretty awesome..:)bye taiwan..see you in a year...

QUOTES OF THE DAY:
Roy,'Look, Doc, I spent last Tuesday watching fibers on my carpet, and the whole time I was watching my carpet, I was worrying that I, I might vomit! And the whole time, I was thinking, "I'm a grown man! I should know what goes on in my head!" and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I should just blow my brains out, and end it all! But then I thought, well, if I thought more about blowing my brains out, I started worrying about what that was going to do to my damn carpet! Okay, so, that was a GOOD day, Doc! And I just want you to give me some pills and let me get on with my life! '

Roy,'To some money is like a foreign film without subtitles.'

Angela,'She said you were a bad guy. You don't seem like a bad guy.'
Roy,'That's what makes me so good at it.'
---'Matchstick Men'(2003)

Song of the Moment---My Stupid Mouth by John Mayer

Of Christmas and Homeward Bound
first of all...merry christmas everyone..:)this is an annual thing..hope you guys are enjoying yrselfs..whether you are having a family gathering..or friends gathering at some cafe..or clubbing like a dickhead at some club..or simply staring into deep space on your balcony feeling lonely..hope you guys enjoyed yourselves..yesterday my aunt and uncle brought me and my sister up to taipei again for some christmas eve celebration thing..i really didnt want to go..in fact i'll rather go around the city and do some shopping...but my sister insisted on going because those stupid monkeys aka energy was going to the show..great...so we went there at about 630pm and sat on the first row right in front of the stage..it was located at thos huge park at the centre of taipei..sorta like the central park in new york but this is a little smaller i guess..but its really cool coz its pretty empty and huge..and u can just stroll through the place without people bumping into you whatsoever..so we reached there and the sow started...first it was some stage performance by a bunch of old people from this charity group..then more charity group performances..then more kids singing..then more kids...we were starting to doubt if energy will ever arrive...just when my sister was about to leave the place they came on and my sister started screaming like an idiotic fanatic..i really dont see how good looking those guys are or how well they sing..fine they do dance well but other than that they are more like some money shaking monkeys for the record company..anyway..so there i was in the freezing cold filming with my video camera of them hopping around on stage..well thats at least better than some native taiwanese dude doing solo on stage like some karaoke..get a life dude..so they came on for like 20 minutes or so and we went home..yea great way to spend christmas eve huh?seeing those bloody monkeys dance around the stage while stupid fans scream and shout for them like they are some gods..ridiculous..nowadays humans..especially girls...tend to grow younger and more childish mentally as they grow older physically...exactly whats happening to my sister..so i we walked back to the parking lot we walked through a short cut across the field..there was previously some christmas lighting carnival and here and there there was christmas trees brightly lighted under the star dotted sky..there was some creative light competition of some sort and there was a lot of different kind decorations here and there..was pretty awesome to look at..and romantic too if you ask me..so there i was in the middle of the field thinking about someone that i havent thought about for awhile who was then 3000miles away from me..wonder how she's doing and how she is spending her christmas eve..probably with her family or friends..totally forgeting about my existence..but thats alright..christmas was never special for me anyway..what is christmas anyway?i know its the day when jesus was born and all..and a day of love and stuff..gifts and all..but cut that crap ive never celebrated christmas other than some small gathering amongst my friends..no christmas trees or gifts nothing...christmas to me is just another day...not that i dont want to celebrate..its just that everytime during christmas i just start to think of that special someone..and this time it was her..a day of love?hahahaa..whole lot of crap..why not call it a day of lonliness which will better suit me and my situation..staring at the picture she just updated of herself and her friends..i asked myself if deep in my heart i seriously think that its possible for my damn face to appear beside hers..then i look in the mirror...laughed at myself...the answer?no...what was i thinking?was eating steak lunch just now with my uncle and aunt..tmr i will be flying back to singapore..seriously there's nothing i miss there..in fact if im given a choice i will stay here in taiwan..there's nothing i need there that i cant get here anyway..the one thing..or the one person i desire most abandon me in the fresh winter snow...hahaa..(Go figure)so there's nothing that i really need back there..but the reality is i have to go back..and it sucks..i have to face reality there again..no longer in a dreamland like i am now in taiwan..its just a fun place for friends..food..and pure fun...back in singapore?the harshness of reality pouring down on you like a thunderstorm after noon...or a flash flood in geographical terms...to face school...homeworks..tests..and the fact that i dont have her by my side..just makes me want to break down and tear my face away...probably one day i might just kill myself and step off the ledge of my balcony..i fear reality..i fear life itself..its painfully real and it cuts deep into my mind and all i want to do..is to stay here...homeward bound?am i really going HOME?or just going back to hell?go figure..in the mean time..merry christmas Rs..

Of the Real Hero of The Lord of the Rings



this hobbit is the real hero of the trilogy..without him frodo wouldnt have destroyed the ring..sam's friendship with frodo is pure...he has no other intentions than to be there for frodo when he needs help..all he's trying to do is,'im here to help...tell me what can i do to make things easy...'he's someone who asks for no rewards whatsoever...but the satisfaction of a pure friendship...he's the hero of the lord of the rings..as well as many readers out there...good on you samwise gamgee..or shall i call you..samwise the brave?

Come,come take me away Lord of the skies.Bear me away to the Undying Lands,to a place without fear and doubt.Away,away on your wings,far far away into the clouds.Maybe upon cloud number 9,where time can erase all.Into the mountains and over the oceans. Fly away from here,fly away from reality...

Of the Holidays and the Days to Come
sigh..its been awhile since ive posted..again..a big big sorry to my fans..(yes i have fans you know?)anywayz..this will be a couple of day's worth...so...behold...
Thursday
alright..i went to taipei to catch the lord of the rings:the return of the king...i still remember the day when was counting day number 321...hahaha...look how far ive come..we got there at 2pm and the stupidiest thing ever happened..instead of purchasing the tickets straight away we had to wait for the ticket booths to open at 3.50 then we can start buying the tickets...can you believe there's such an idiotic and inefficient rule?even if u get there at 8am..its not use!!why?because the booth only opens at 350pm..the only advantage you get is the fact that you get to be the first in line..so we stood there and waited for almost 2 hours just for the tickets even though ive booked the tickets a month before the release...stupid stupid stupid!!anywayz..so there i was waiting patiently for the booth to open..and there was a couple of old dickheads wandering around selling tickets at high prices..it doesnt happen very often in singapore really..there's another stupid rule in taiwan that each person can only buy a maximum of 4 tickets..so one of those old bastards will cut the queue..then his or her friends will come in and cut queue as well..then they will all buy 4 tickets to sell to others at extremely high prices..and there i was..stuck between two bunch of old dickheads..and they were cutting queues here and there..this young dude even got pissed and scolded one of them..to the point that the old shit got pissed and walked away...the old ladies behind me were pushing against me and my aunt got really angry and almost started a fight..o well..i purposely kicked one of them in the side...irritating dickheads..anywayz..so i got my tickets and in no time i was sitting in the theatre waiting for the film to start..the lights dimmed and the newline cinema logo came up...i guess i was too excited when it finally appeared..i was literally shivering with excitement..the movie was tear-jerking really..ive never cried during a movie before..my mom too..never really cried before..other than the time when her parents died...other than that she never really cried..and that day 3 of us..including my aunt..cried during the movie...and my sis?well she was too busy holding back her pee..so she forgot to cry i guess...what the hell...what makes an epic epic?what is the definition of an epic?something that will make you laugh?cry?cheer with joy?have you punching the head of the dude in front coz the bad guy killed your favorite character?well if that's so,then THe Lord of the Rings:The Return of the King definitely is the epic of all epics..its truely a masterpiece..perfected through Peter Jackson's vision..scenes to be highlighted includes the part when faramir rides on a suicide mission to osgiliath by the order of his father..also the ride of the rohirrum when the rohan riders comes to gondor's aid..when they ride through the host of orcs and rescues the gondorians..when legolas takes down an oliphaunt..when sam carries frodo up mt doom..(i cried here...)when aragorn says,'For Frodo..' and runs towards the host of mordor..and a lot more scenes that i cannot fully type out..its simply amazing...highly recommended for everyone to watch it!!its the event of the millenium and if you dont watch it..it will be a shame to miss it..
Saturday
just two days after i first watched the return of the king...on saturday morning i watched it again..call me crazy and call me mad...i dont care!!im cracking!and im proud of it..watched the ten oclock screening and yes i cried again..wow am i an emotional bastard..what to do..everyone around me was sobbing and sniffing and i was sorta affected by the mood of it all..so i was wiping my tears throughout the movie..and furiously during the sam and frodo scene..anywayz..after that i went up to taipei again to Xi Men Ding to meet Bao,Sarah and Wa for some quality shopping..believe it or not ladies and gentlemen but i spent 100+ sg dollars on that single day...bought at 60 dollars limited edition 3D map of middle earth..was sorta forced by sarah and my sister..:P but im glad that i bought it anyway..its awesome!!it was 8 degrees in taipei and despite wearing my matrix coat i was shivering all over..so we dashed into a nearby starbucks and had a cup of hot chocolate..met up with Bao and Wa after that and we went around xi men ding..hahaa..its like walking on the streets of tokyo really...you see weird people in wacky hairdos and dresses and people playing guitars and stuff on the streets..with lots of stalls selling local food...wow...amazing...anyway..we went to eat steamboat after that and me and my sis treated the rest to the dinner..which is also why i spent so much money..:P

QUOTES OF THE DAY:
Pippin,'[Singing To Denethor] Home is behind the world ahead, and there are many paths to tread, through shadow, to the edge of night, till the stars are all alight. Mist and shadow, cloud and shade. All shall fade, all shall... fade. '

Theoden,'Ride now! Ride now! Ride for ruin and the worlds ending! FORTH EORLINGAS!'

Gandalf,'Death is not the end, just another path. One which we must take. (pauses and looks at Pippin) The grey veil of this world rolls back and all turns to silver glass... and then you see it. '
Pippin,'See what?'
Gandalf,'A green land amongst the sea. '
Pippin,'That doesn't seem too bad. '

Pippin,'We'll see each other soon. Won't we? '
Merry,'I don't know, Pip. I don't know what's going to happen. '

Sam,'I cannot carry it for you, Mr. Frodo, but I can carry you! '

Aragorn,'For Frodo.'

The Witch King,'You fool, no mortal man can kill me. '
Eowyn,'I am no man.'

Gandalf,'Lord Denethor is Boromir's father. It would be very unwise to bring him news of his beloved sons death. Best not to speak of it. And be careful not to mention Frodo or the ring. Or Aragorn, say nothing of him. In fact, its best if you don't speak at all, Peregrin Took. '

Elrond,'Put aside the Ranger, become who you were born to be. '

[after Legolas single-handedly takes out a war elephant and its drivers]
Gimli,'Bah! That still only counts as one! '

Gimli,' I never thought I'd die side by side with an Elf.'
Legolas,'What about side by side with a friend? '
Gimli,'Aye. I could do that. '

Gimli,'Certain death. Small chance of success. What are we waiting for? '

Eomer,'You should not encourage him. '
Eowyn,' You should not doubt him. '
Eomer,' I do not doubt his heart, only the reach of his arm.'

Sam,'Don't go where I can't follow!'

Aragorn,'My friends, you bow to no one.'

Frodo,'The Ring is mine.'

Faramir,'Since you are robbed of Boromir, I shall do what I can in his stead. '
[He bows then begins to leave, then stops and looks back at Denethor]
Faramir,'If I should return, think better of me, Father. '
[Denethor doesn't look up as he answers]
Denethor,' That will depend upon the manner of your return. '

Gimli,'This is something unheard of! An Elf will pass under a mountain, but a Dwarf dare not! Oh, I'll never hear the end of it!'

---'The Lord of the Rings:The Return of the King'(2003)

Of SAT score...
just shoot me..

Of the Forgotten Entries
first of all im very sorry that i havent posted any entries for the past few days..i believe since..sunday?well ive been pretty bz these few days....bz having fun i must admit..now i shall give u a brief summary of things that i did since sunday..

on sunday my friends brought me around the city area to do some shopping..we went to Feng Chen..the largest shopping centre in asia i think...and we saw that Zhang Zhi Chen guy having an autograph session...so my sister being an extremely busybody person bought one of his cds and queued up for his autograph..and poor me..i had to help her take photos and viedos...but its alright..im not interested in that dude anyway...he's a nice guy in person..looks better as well...and his songs are great..but im just not fond of chinese songs really..:Pthen we went to this indoors theme park...it was pretty small..only the size of...4 school hall?but it was really fun...they have this twister machine..spins you round and round and round and round..i must admit..im scared of theme parks..especially their roller coasters and other rides..but this time since everybody went onboard i had to follow..pretty embarrassing if i dont eh?so i went on up there and got spinned round and round till i almost puked..i even went upside down sometimes...honestly it was pretty fun...for a moment there i thought the machine broke down again...coz i seemed to go on and on and never stopped..i was screaming with my friend during the ride...:P anywayz..after that i had to leave them because we had to attend my grandma's birthday dinner up in taipei...great...my dad got lost coz he didnt know where the resturant was..and he went round and round and i almost puked on the car..by the time we reached the resturant everyone was almost done and ive lost all appetite due to the car ride...so i just sat there and talked to my sis...i know thats not the very best option when in an awkward situation but hey..she's wayy better than those kids who seemed to be on drugs..running around like bulls..literally...crying kids..shouting kids...screaming kids...oh hell just shut the hell up????im wasting my time here to eat lousy food when i couldve been playing ps2 with my friends!!so give me a moment for god's sake!!

from monday onwards things went along fine..aunt brought me around taipei for some shopping..and i bought the john mayer cd...a magazine and a giant poster..went to night markets to shop as well..it was pretty good..watched a couple of movies and rented more...hahaa..yea its been really fun...which is also why i forgot abt my blog..really sorry guys..:P:Pon wednesday my father's sister treated us to dinner at this 6 star hotel or something...though the food was great..but my mind was full of the movie i was gonna be watching in less than a day...The Lord of the Rings:The Return of the King..:P

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Sully,'Mike, this isn't Boo's door.'
Mike,'Boo? What's Boo?'
Sully,'That's... what I decided to call her. Is there a problem?'
Mike,'Sulley, you're not supposed to name it. Once you name it, you start getting attached to it. Now put that thing back where it came from or so help me-- '
[Mike pauses, realizing that they suddenly have the attention of the entire scare floor.]
Mike,'Oh, hey! We're rehearsing a-- a scene for the upcoming company play called uh, Put That Thing Back Where It Came From Or So Help Me. It's a musical.
[singing]
Mike,'Put that thing back where it came from or so help me... so help me, so help me and cut! We're still working on it, it's a work in progress but, hey, we need ushers. '
'Monsters Inc'(2001)

Song of the Moment---Bigger than my Body by John Mayer

JOKES OF THE DAY:
I knew a blonde that was so stupid that.......
* she called me to get my phone number.
* she spent 20 minutes looking at the orange juice box because it said "concentrate."
* she put lipstick on her forehead because she wanted to make up her mind.
*she tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order.
*she sent me a fax with a stamp on it.
*she tried to drown a fish.
*she thought a quarterback was a refund.
*she got locked in a grocery store and starved to death.
*she tripped over a cordless phone.
*she took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept.
*she asked for a price check at the Dollar Store.
*she studied for a blood test.
*she thought Meow Mix was a CD for cats.
*when she heard that 90% of all crimes occur around the home, she moved.
*when she missed the 44 bus, she took the 22 bus twice instead.
*when she took you to the airport and saw a sign that said "Airport Left" she turned around and went home

Of the Purple Mountains and the Sunken Atlantis
Today i came back to Taiwan!!which was really one of the only few things that kepy me alive throughout the year..its been awhile since i landed my foot on my homeland..and it sure feels nice to breath the familiar air again..Got up at 945 and called for a cab..then my sister,mom and i got to the airport..everything went on fine as usual...the wait for the flight is as usual...very long and boring indeed..and i sat at the viewing gallery..watched the morning sky disappearing behind the threatening clouds..soon it started raining and there i was alone at the viewing gallery...while my mom and sister went shopping..rain splattered onto the big glass windows as huge planes rolled pass the windows..suddenly i felt weary..very tired..and i fell aslp on the couch..finally im able to put everything behind me and enjoy my holiday in taiwan..i guess ive toiled for a year and finally...im tired...so i slept like a baby in the viewing gallery while listening to my discman..soon i was awoken by a vibration in my pocket..it was my hp..it was a msg from Faith and she bidded me farewell..i was bored at that moment..and i was all alone there..so we exchanged msgs for awhile..talked a whole lot of crap..but i do appreciate the fact that she was willing to accompany me on my last few hours in spore..haha..Soon after i fell aslp again...and was again woken by my sister who offered to buy me some drinks from coffee bean..we boarded the plane at 110pm and the plane took off soon after...hahaa...guess who i saw..that dude from ch8's who wants to be a millionaire..hahaa..i was telling my sister the lamest thing to do is to go up to him and say,'BAI WAN DA YING JIA!!'o well..u cant really blame us for starting such a pointless conversation..we were bored..for some reason ive always loved the meals on the planes..though they are not fantastic whatsoever but i like it..my mom seems to hate it though..i watched 'Uptown Girls' on the plane..haha it was a good show..killed a whole lot of time really..At 5pm the plane started to decent..and i peeked out of the window to catch the last ray of sunlight staring out over the clouds..the clouds below were like rainforests..some crests were taller than others and the sun casted its shadows on the backside of the emergents..as the plane decreased its altitude i could see mountain ranges reaching out into the horizon..it looked like a big claw had just scratched the land below..leaving deep marks on the ground..the clouds encircled the mountains..and like an pale white ocean it reached into the encaved side of the mountains..making it look like waves splashing onto a shoreline..for some reason the mountains turned purple under the setting sun..and it was so beautiful i wanted to take a picture of it..but i forgot..damn..then the plane continued to decent..further down there were some clouds at a lower alititude..by this time cities and roads were visible to my naked eyes..and the sight of it peeked through the gaps between the hanging clouds..the clouds were still like an vast surface of an ocean..and beneath it was the city..and it reminded me or the sunken city of atlantis..haha....we touched down in taiwan at about 530 and i met my dad at the arrival lobby..hahaa..he took us to my aunt's house and we had dinner there..gosh it was great...i got my hands on the LOTR tickets!!oh boy it feels so good holding it..after waiting for it for 300 odd days..hahhaa..alright..gtg now..take care ppl!!

Of Electric Guitars and a Mad Brother
Today...the last day that I'll be in Singapore..Tomorrow noon i will be flying off to Taiwan..Which is pretty cool coz i havent been back for a year or so...a pretty long period of time indeed...cant wait to see my friends and breath the air again...(Not really looking forward to meeting the relatives though but what the hell..)But before that,since yesterday was utterly ruined..ive decided to drop by Barn's house for a visit..Before that i went to Bernice's house to get my earrings..and dont worry they are not for me..;)Well she came down half asleep and in her cedar PE T-shirt..and obviously she was still in a dream..coz she gave me the wrong change...but its alright..then i met Samuel and Barn...and we were forced to Bishan to carry a Bass guitar and an electronic drumset back...All thanks to Barn who made us his slave..Actually i didnt really mind..i purposely grumbled about it..And sam was grumbling about himself being hungry and needed food desperately..so we arrived at Charmaine's house and Sam had his lunch there..Its kinda weird to have lunch at a stranger's house though...but nvm..i ate before that anyway..so i started playing with the dogs..a Maltese and the other...im not sure bout the breed but its that dog from Lassie..Pretty awesome dog..though a little dead...sitting there staring into nothingness.the Maltese was hyper active..hopping around wagging its tail and stood on its hind legs..literally waved its front paws at me and Samuel..it was a pretty interesting sight so me and gang stayed a little longer to play with the dogs with Charmaine's sister..Charmaine was soft spoken really..or simple shy...we didnt talk to her at all..or at least i didnt..in fact i didnt realise that she was Charmaine until Barn called out to her...Anywayz,so carried the drumset and Bass guitar all the way back to Barn's house...and he's right..it was in a mess..a big huge mess indeed..especially his kitchen,livingroom,even his own room was in a big mess..as if a tornado swept past his house and his house in a whreck..it was really that bad..He's room is not the worst ive seen anyway...Alvin Tan's room is wayy worst..with the dim lights and the small room...i actually felt uncomfortable in his room really..Anywayz,Barney has this crazy brother who cant stop talking really..and he's always laughing at nothing...Me and Sam played PS with him and because i wasnt very good at video gaming..i lost a couple of times..Was pretty embarrasing but hey...it was fun anyway...i took Barn's 1700 dollars electric guitar and played with it...Mind you,this is the first time ive touched a electric guitar..pretty awesome..though really heavy and stuff..but it's pretty easy to play...like what mom said..a light stroke and the sound will be very loud and prominent..Anyway Barn taught me some basics to electric guitar and some tricks..hahaa..it was pretty fun..but i think it'll be awhile before i pick up an electric guitar..Weird that everybody's leaving Singapore today and tomorrow...Barn's brother Paul left for Japan this afternoon for some Band performance..Rachel is leaving for Shanghai later during the wee hours..Bernice will be leaving at 6am tomorrow morning and i will be leaving at 1pm...hahaa..i guess everyone just cant stay in this country anymore..Alright..i shall start burning some CDs and packing for tomorrow..Hey Taiwan..here i come..Farewell my friends..;)

Song of the Moment---Breathe by Michelle Branch

Of Differences and Distances
8th of December..we were supposed to go on a class outing...sorta like a farewell lunch at Swensens for Mr Yeo..afterall he's leaving next year and we thought maybe we can organise a little something as a class before we leave..So Bernice was the organiser and a couple of days earlier she msged a couple of people in class to inform them about the outing through sms and asked those people to forward the msg..i admit it's not the best way to pass a msg on but hey it works anyway..And we did..Unfortunately most of the class couldnt make it because of OCIP and camps...that's alright..Some agreed to come...and we ended up having 10 or so people on the list..and this is the best part..so i changed into my t-shirt..combed my hair got out of the house when Bernice msged me about the cancellation of the outing...GREAT...Because only 4 people going?Wow what a class..best class ever...*Sarcasm alert*Rachel even said that she DOESNT want to come...wow great...i was talking to Bernice about it...at least LIE...i dont know..actually i had a chat with Wan Jun the other day about the outing...she was reluctant to come because she wasnt CLOSE to Bernice and her clique...i was pretty frustrated about that really..i mean..there are differences between people..that i do understand..and there are people who cant get along with other people..that i understand too..but cant you put aside these differences for once and get along as a class for one pathetic day?This is not for ourselves but for Mr Yeo hello?Cant you realise that fact?Yes go out with yr bfs..Thats not a problem...you will never ever see Mr Yeo in the school teaching as ever again...and there you are hanging out with yr bf?What's up with that?To be honest im not the same kinda people as those people from Bernice's clique...but so what?School is a mini society where you get used to people and learn to tolerate them...Put aside your differences..And there you are doing your own things disregarding other people's feelings..Bernice organised this..and she really wants everyone to come as a class for ONCE..and what you do?You go out with your bfs...I understand that there are distances between you guys..maybe some of you hate each other..Cant stand the way he/she talks,walks,looks Yada yada...but wake up!Stop being so selfish please..both me and Jiaying thought the day was utterly wasted because of some selfish bunch of people..Yes our class is a good class with nice people..so what?Admit it this is not a CLASS..WE are not the BEST class..Cant believe some individuals from our class always go arnd saying that A4A is the best class ever and shit like that..Oh please just shut up..You dont know the definition for class..You might question me as well..What truely is the definition then?I might not give you a definite answer to that...but all i know is..THIS is not the best class..and if you guys cant close the gaps between everyone there is no way this wound can ever be healed..Like the Russians and Americans during the Cold Wars..they hated each other to the max...and during WW2 they placed aside their hatred and they fought their comon enemy:Germans.Please people...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Sebastian,'Dear Annette, I don't know what I could possibly say that would rectify the harm I've caused you. The truth of the matter is that being with you was the only time I have ever been happy. My whole life has been a joke. I prided myself on taking joy in others' misery. Well, it finally backfired. I succeed in hurting the first person I ever loved. Enclosed is my most prized possession. My journal. For a long time I considered it my trophy. A sordid collection of my conquests. If you really want to know the truth than please read it. No more lies. Please give me another chance. I'm a wreck without you. '
---'Cruel Intentions'(1999)

Song of the Day---The Scientist by Coldplay

Of Computer Games and R11-3
Yesterday Barney and Sam came over to my place to hang around..actually me and sam were supposed to study SAT but we ended up talking crap with Barney and played computergames...Barney's hair's growing longer and longer...i bet after a couple of months he'll need wires to tie his hair...anyway,he came and helped us a little with SAT..since his english is so powerful..(In major contrast with his Chinese..)Then we started playing this game installed in my computer by the dude who fixed it for me..this game called Unreal Tournament..haha..it's pretty fun..completed every stage..though its a pretty mindless game...go around and kill aliens..but hey...its good to get your minds off things once in a while...anyway...we hung out till 10pm until i was extremely tired..for some reason i woke up really early the previous morning...so he went home..and i literally fainted into a deep dream afterwards..O and Liping finally came over and get her wallet from me..it was raining like mad yesterday evening and she just came from AMK...called me up and told me to meet her at this bus stop near school since she didnt bring an umbrella..so me and Barney walked through the rain together and went to meet her..while Sam battled aliens in my room...Samuel has the most comical way of playing computer games..he will be shouting and screaming..even dodging bullets...(Seriously..)And you will probably here stuff like this coming down the hallway:You stupid chicken!!where are you!!Let me kill you!!OK Samuel is here!!Samuel is here!!Somebody Save me!!(And starts singing the Smallville theme song..)Which really got me and Barney rolling on the floor...Today i woke up at 7am...prepared for my SAT..Still very irritated by the fact that im supposed to take the test at Bras Basah when my school is right beside my home..Great..the worst thing is i dont even know anyone there..arrived at the test centre and stared into a crowd of strangers...probably older than me for most...and yes..i forgot to bring calculator...(But its ok..considering the fact that i have a far more superior brain than most...:P)My room was at R11..and seat number 3...great...15 people in that room...too small for any form of cheating...Someone kept farting during the test...that was lovely...and the girl beside me didnt look smart at all..or too young to be even taking this test..this really beautfil girl sat behind me..but as if i care...the problem with SAT:you dont have time to stare at pretty girls...if you do you probably wont have time to finish your paper..which is true..they dont give you any time to breath..immediately after you finish the last question time's up..and you have to go on to the next section..the worse thing is you cant touch the previous sections anymore...so basically if you cant finish the sections...that's it...Get the wrong answer?Marks deduction...Blank?Zero for that question..so basically i left a lot of blanks..especially at the english section...sigh...even Samantha that english professional thought it was tough...how can i say that it easy...anywayz...im just glad that the test is over..and that i can slowly wait for Tuesday to come along...back!back!back to taiwan!!

Song of the Moment---Tiny Dancer by Elton John

Of Tomas and Guitars
This morning i was supposed to wake up to go for guitar practise..i went for the first one of course...i didnt go for the second meeting because the day before i went to Palawan Beach and was too exhausted to do anything..plus i was too high that day so i completely forgot about it...i apologise for that...And as for today,i really dont feel like going..Dont get me wrong..i love Bernard Wong...i think he's a great guy with a touch of a child...i love the rest of the guitar club members..they are fun to be around with...more class-like...Then how come i dont like to go for Guitar practises?TOMAS is the real reason why...to be honest..i hate him...FINE maybe not hate..but he does have high expectations for everyone...unnecessary expectations to be exact...each person is appointed different sections of a piece to play...so some group of people will be playing guitar 1..some will be guitar 2...so on and so forth...I was appointed to play guitar 3...and of course for the past few months i have been practising my part...caring nothing about the others..after all why should i?Anyway,during the first practise 2 weeks ago he wanted us to learn every single guitar..even when you dont need to play them..i was like,'What in the world for?' And of course he forced me to learn guitar 1 and 2 from scratch..right on the spot..hello?i havent played it before and you expect me to play it right now with a snap of your fingers?what you think im a music prodigy now?Wake up your bloody idea and smell reality..not everyone is as talented as you..i know you have relations with international guitarists and stuff..but stop bragging about it..and dont ever ever TOUCH my guitar..this dude has the tendency to grab the neck of your guitar and shake it to and fro when you cant play a note...or hit it with his marker...Son of a bitch if you grab the neck of my guitar i will tie guitar strings around your neck and hang you on the flagpole..hit my guitar with your marker again i will draw your face with that marker and strip you naked...he is so intimidating in my opinion..why cant we just play something a little more interesting?I guess its because that day 3/4 of the club didnt show up and we had to postpone our performance..and as a result we are doing this crap during the holidays...GREAT...alright i will stop complaining and look on the bright side of things...I bought a new computer...i paid 500 bucks for it..dad paid 500 and my mom the rest...and it rocks..it has a huge monitor and an absolutely awesome stereo system to go with it..like Seth Green said in The Italian Job,'They have speakers so loud it will blow women's clothes off!!' I think these speakers can do just that..its scary..its monstrous..i like..hahahhahaa..alright..gotta taste it out now...later..

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Lt. Colonel Hal Moore,'Our Father in Heaven, before we go into battle, every soldier among us will approach you each in his own way. Our enemies too, according to their own understanding, will ask for protection and for victory. And so, we bow before your infinite wisdom. We offer our prayers as best we can. I pray you watch over the young Jack Geoghegan. That I lead into battle. You use me as your instrument in this awful hell of war to watch over them. Especially if they're men like this one beside me, deserving of a future in your blessing and goodwill. Amen. '
2nd Lt Jack Geoghegan,'Amen.'
Lt. Colonel Hal Moore,'Oh, yes, and one more thing, dear Lord, about our enemies, ignore their heathen prayers and help us blow those little bastards straight to Hell. Amen.'
---'We Were Soldiers'(2002)

Song of the Moment---Life for Rent by Dido

Of Plants and Patching Up
Yesterday night..or rather this morning..i was faced with a very difficult question from a friend of mine..who was having relationship problems with his girlfriend..was talking to him through msn and he was really troubled..about whether to path up with her or not..what can i say..'its really your own decision..' i said..then he threw to me this question that really got me thinking for awhile..'Weilien..whats love?'Gosh that was tough..tougher than those boring math questions or those wordy geography essays...this is THE question that i havent asked myself before..and i guess a lot of you havent really asked yourself too..What is it really?A feeling?Just another word?A friendly gesture?I really didnt know..so i kept silent for awhile without talking...and said,'Love is like a pot of plant. You cannot give it too much water because it will rot, nor can you give it too little water because it will dry up. You cannot place it for too long in the sunlight because it dry up,nor can you put it in the shade for too long because it will wither. Love is rough, love is tough, you have to treat it with care. Sometimes you try too hard to make things right, you work too hard to make it a beautiful plant. In the end you get cut by the thorns on the plant. The truth is. its very hard to manage. Too much or too little of something will only destroy it. However if yu succeed,it will become the most beautiful plant in the world.' I told him that..didnt really make sense to him since he was in a depression. Then he asked me if he should patch up.And i told him,'Go ahead and patch up...No problem...All you do is to stick a plaster over the wound...But remember this,though you dont see the wound since its covered up...its still there...it still exists...you are just covering up the truth because you are afraid to face it. Like an Ostrich which sticks its head into the sand when danger approaches. Its not going to solve anything. What you have to do is to find the medicine to heal the wound. But the formula for the medicine,you guys gotta find out for yourself. After all the wound was torn apart by the hands of both parties.' Then i got too tired and fell aslp...Oh well what can i say...He's a nice dude...the girl's weird though..for some reason everyone around me these days are falling for weird girls...I think she's too childish when it comes to love...seeing it as merely a feeling...getting into a relationship to her is to experience the first times...the first time you hold hands..the first time you kiss..the first 'I love you' you hear from the opposite sex.But in reality relationships are more than just that.Its not about the adrenaline rush that flows through your whole body when your lips first touch the guy's. Then what is it?That i will leave it to you to find out.This is not physics or chemistry where there is a specific definition for almost everything.What is a relationship?what is it about?Find out for yourselves..On the way you might stumble you might be hurt...but knowing the truth about something..thats fulfilling indeed...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Penny Lane,'I always tell the girls never take it seriously. If you never take it seriously then you never get hurt. If you never get hurt then you always have fun, and if you ever get lonely you can just go to the record store and visit your friends. '

Russell Hammond,'And you can tell Rolling Stone magazine that my last words were... I'm on drugs!!!!'
William Miller,'Russell! I think we should work on those last words! '
Russell Hammond,'I got it, I got it. Last words: I dig music. I'm on drugs!!!'

Anita Miller,'FECK YOU!'
Elaine Miller,'HEY! '
Anita Miller,'This is a house of lies!'
Elaine Miller,'Well there it is, your sister used the "F" word.'
William Miller,'I think she said "feck."'
Elaine Miller,'What's the difference? '
William Miller,'The letter "u." '
---'Almost Famous'(2000)





Song of the Day---Man on the Moon by R.E.M