Of Capability,Impossibility and Inevitability
'Why all the crying?Why all the sufferings..after merely a rejection?'i say as i speak to myself..'Merely?What do you know about rejections?You dont know what it did to me..and still doing to me...'the other me says...'Im not saying that rejections should be treated as a simple no...all im saying is..maybe there is a deadline to things..a time when you gotta get over things..to stop thinking abt her..maybe the time is now..and stop the crying..stop the thinking...its like a rock tied to your ankles...it wont get you anywhere..' Yes...let go now...but how..i have not a clue..Yesterday i have been pondering over the same question on the same place..Of how i am or when i am supposed to let things go..while sitting on my bed in the middle of the night...(Thats when the thoughts start pouring out..)So how?The capability of myself..what i am able and not able to do...thinking back...i think i am foolish...been blinded like a fool by love and greed..i never thought of my own capabilities..when i can do...i know what i can do for her ultimately..and there are few..i know what i cant do...and there are soo many...for one...i cant make her happy...im sure of that...i have no apparent reason for that..it's just one of those gut feelings you get sometimes..i guess im just not willing to sacrifise my time or...money to be honest...on a matter that is uncertain...there are lots of guys other there after her and stuff..and i must admit..there is definitely one guy out there who has the capability of doing what i could not..and that is,to make her happy..to be willing to sacrifise...and i often use that as to comfort myself...we,the guys after her,have a same common goal...at least for some...the few minorities..and that is...to make her happy...and truely..i really want to see a smile on her face caused by me...but anyway...i havent the ability to do it...we all set out on this purpose...and if you cannot fulfill that purpose then leave it to someone else..why stop others from completing the task...Selfish?Jealousy?Envy maybe?When you have no capabilites...Rejection is not impossible...its inevitable...its a fact...even when you dont see it or feel it...so all and all i tell myself that all that have happened is not impossible..its inevitable due to my incapabilities..my lack of will to make one happy..to make her happy...it is my fault that this happened..so let others have a chance..after all you didnt BUY her...she's not yours...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Rita,'It's like every time I wake up, I FAIL!!'

Sam,' You don't know what it is when you try, and you try, and you try and you never get there!!'
---'I Am Sam'(2001)

Song of the Moment---Gui Ji by Jay Chou