Of Her
I shall admire you from afar...Look at you in the dark...With my name unknown i leave a place in my mind for you..Im not sure if i should call you someone new or a replacement..Which is indeed an awful word to say it..great courage i had the last time i felt this way..being too foolish was why i tripped..this time i see well in the dark..i see far ahead..and close under my feet..i know my perils and i know where the safety is..i will not and shall not surrender to my will and fall into that love web again..You have been mentioned before..but that was a long time ago..now my feeling grows..but i shall keep it down low..everytime i feel the urge to do something foolish again i will look at myself through the mirror..somehow everything just goes back to normal after that...is that the so called lack of confidence?or just being realistic..i think the latter made much more sense..i look at you through the corner of my eyes..every morning i catch a glimpse and i am satisfied..i am gladdened by the picture you posted of yourself online..thats the only time when i can look at you as long as i want without others around..i guess i shall go back to the 'me' back in my sec sch days...being witless and a coward..afraid to express my feelings towards others and keeping it buried deep within my mind..maybe thats the only way i can prevent myself from getting hurt once more..i get a grim satisfaction whenever you sit close to me...the sound of your laughter when you talk to your friends..the smile you give when you see others..a smile a frown i clearly carve them in my mind..however this time i will keep my big mouth shut...so you wont stay away from me like someone did..others wont laugh at me for my stupidity..i wont hate myself for being myself..a happy ending?only you...or maybe her will make me complete..without either of you will only make the puzzled unsolved..im satisfied..im glad..i shld think like jessica..satisfied with merely a crush on someone...and nothing more...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Julian,'But after my nap I always watch the Kangaroo Song.'
Sonny,'It's overtime right now and there's a penalty shot about to take place. This happens about once every ten years so... '
Julian,'Kangaroo song, kangaroo song, KANGAROO SONG!'
Sonny,'ALLLRRIIIGGGHTT!'
---'Big Daddy'(1999)