im taking one of those studying breaks right now..i am so tired..notes after notes, tutorials after tutorials..coming on top of me like a unfriendly wave..Grr i hate this..Promos in a couple of days time..however i dont feel the intensity of it...not that i am slacking or anything..its just that everytime i study there will always seem to be something that i left out...or left undone..and i hate that feeling..after all who likes it?the train is coming and fast, and i am like the man on the end of the railway trying desperately to lay the tracks so that the train wont derail...i havent got time to think about anything else other than studying...skipped school just to study at home and stuff...am i doing the right thing?that made me question my action...thinking bout the days after my promos makes me fear the future...the chinese Alevels coming up...project work...Sat after that..they are like ropes strangling me...i cant breathe right..i am gasping for air...i was sitting alone in my room awhile ago,staring at my notes...mind?blank...nothing went in...in fact the words started to swirl and twist...i threw the highlighter down and starting playing my guitar...i do that when i am really troubled or stressed..i guess i prefer taking the peaceful way out...i am going back on the 10th of December...mom already bought the tickets and i cant wait to go back and meet my friends and family...i dont know why...i always feel this distance between me and my friends in taiwan...though we are childhood friends..everytime we meet we seem to start all over again...its inevitable to feel that way of course...but come to think about it..are you guys just acting to be nice with me just because yr parents asked you to do so?Stupid relatives always asking the same questions when i meet them..how old are you?how tall are you?wow u look more handsome each year blah blah blah...am i THAT close to you?i barely know you...even your name...i can barely remember who you are related to...and there u are asking me questions just to make broken bonds meet again...:rolleyes:hello?wake up yur bloody idea...anyway...i am tired..of everything around me right now...for some reason i dont see hope in my future...thats kinda bad huh?having no hopes or something to look forward to..my friend asked me to consider a singing career..haha..i might...you never know..maybe one day you will see me on american idol making a fool out of myself and get jumped on my Simon...alright..i have to go back to study again..go back to the dungeon again...work and toil again...this sucks...5 days to freedom...5 days to decide my fate....to live or to die?stay tuned after 5 days...dont change your channel...same time same place...i will see you tomorrow..;)

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Stella,'I trust everyone. It's the devil inside the person I don't trust.'
---'The Italian Job'(2003)

Song of the Moment---White Flag by Dido
'There wont be no white flag above my door...i wont put my hands up and surrender...there wont be no white flag above my door...im in love..and always will be...'