LYRICS OF THE DAY:
Where is the Love? by Black Eyed Peas

what's wrong with the world, mama?
people livin like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world's addicted to the drama
only attracted to the things that'll bring the drama
overseas ya we tryin to stop terrorism
but we still got terrorists here livin
in the U.S.A, the big C.I.A
the bloods & the crips, and the KKK
but if you only got love for your own ways
then you only leave space to discriminate
and to discriminate only generates hate
and when you hate, then you're bound to get irate
madness is what you demonstrate
and that's exactly how anger works and operates
man ya gotta have love, this'll set us straight
take control of your mind and meditate
let your soul gravitate, to the love ya'll

Chorus:
people killin
people dyin
children hurt and
women cryin
will you practice what you preach
and would you turn the other cheek
father father father, help us
need some guidance from above
these people got me got me questionin
where is the love?
(love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(where is the love the love my love)

it just ain't the same
old ways have changed
new days are strange, is world insane?
if love and peace is so strong
why are there pieces of love that don't belong
nations droppin bombs
chemical gasses fillin lungs of little ones
with ongoin sufferin, as the youth die young
so ask yourself, is the lovin really gone
so I can ask myself, really what is going wrong
with this world that we livin in, people keep on givin in
makin wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
not respectin eachother, deny thy brother
a war is goin on but the reason's under cover
the truth is kept secret, and swept under the rug
if you never know truth, then you never know love
where's the love ya'll? (i don't know)
where's the truth ya'll? (i don't know)
and where's the love ya'll?

Repeat Chorus

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
as I'm getting older, ya'll people gets colder
most of us only care about money makin
selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
wrong information always shown by the media
negative images is the main criteria
infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
..
whatever happened to the values of humanity?
whatever happened to the fairness and equality
instead of spreading love we spreadin animosity
lack of understandin leading us away from unity
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin under
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin under
gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
now ask yourself

Repeat Chorus

just came back from watchin The Italian Job..great movie..ratings?i will give 9/10...it was an amazing movie in my opinion..the heist was great...lots of surprises indeed...the movie starts with a bang..literally..alright here's whats the story is about..a bunch of thiefs stole a safe by blowing a hole in the ground..then using a fake save as a decoy they managed to steal it...the safe contained 3.7 million dollars worth of gold and of course..they were happy and excited about what they wanted to buy and all...Seth green wanted to buy a set of speakers that will blow women's clothes off..that was hilarious..ive always liked seth green since Rat Race..anyway,they are off guard and did not realise that steve(Edward Norton)was playing both sides..he betrayed them and killed Donald Sutherland...the story after that revolves around how the other guys wanted to have revenge on steve..so they asked Donald's daughter played by Charlize Theron,a specialist at breaking locks to help them steal the gold..(Charlize is as hot as ever..ever since i saw her in Devil's Advocate..wow..)script was well written as well and the cinematography was alright..since that guy who did this movie used to do music videos..great movie..highly recommended..go check it out~!by the way..i just downloaded the return of the king trailer and wow...goosebumps all over..you guys have to somehow get yr hands on that trailer as well..alright signing out..peace~!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Aragorn,'I see in your eyes,the same fear that will take the heart of me.A day may come,when the courage of men fails,when we forsake our friends,and break all bonds of a fellowship. But it is not this day...this day...WE FIGHT!!'
---'The Lord of the Rings:The Return of the King'(2003)

Song of the Moment---Where is the Love? by Black Eyed Peas

its a weird and new experience especially for me..ive never stayed up the whole night before...actually i did...but not in singapore..or observed the things that happened around the wee hours the way i did last night...last night i decided to stay up all night just to study..well of course i must admit i dit not study through the whole 8 hours or so...but then again...the quietness of the night was really suitable for some quality studying..although nothing really got into my mind...due to the recent incident that clouded my mind..anyway..i started at 10 and its interesting how you see the lights of the residents from the opposite blocks slowly goes out one by one...then switches back on one by one in the morning...or the noise of the cars on the road slowly dying down and then coming back to live again in the morning...the sunset and the sun rise...and chaotic world suddenly settling down and then stir back up again..and i was there to see it all happen...just by sitting on my balcony i managed to see it all happen before my eyes...its amazing how something as simple as staring into the wide world can evolve into something so different...anyway...mom woke up at 530 and i was there to bit her good morning..probably the first time in years since i woke up earlier than her...its odd to hear her talk about what happened yesterday when all those incident to me,only happened today...this makes me wonder...if we can predict the future...and something bad's about to happen tomorrow that is inevitable...why cant we all just stay awake all night..so that tomorrow will never come and we can all stay in the present...we wont need to talk about the bad stuff that happened yesterday coz we still exist in the present...(if you know what i mean)if i knew about he's gonna tell us on wednesday..i wouldve stayed up all night on tuesday night..so that im still living in yesterday...since i cant stop time..i guess thats the closest i can ever get...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
'Love comes un-noticingly...however when it leaves...you will notice its presence..'

Song of the Moment---There's Gotta Be(More to Life) by Stacie Orrico

Can things still be the same after what happened?can wounds be healed?can gaps be filled?can lonliness be cured?things can never be the same again...no matter how hard you try to cover up the truth...put on a big smile when you walk into the class...pick up where you left off the last lesson...joke around like there's still tomorrow...this will never ever erase the fact that departure is near...inevitable nonetheless...i came to realisation that no matter what we did or will do nothing is going to change the current situation...i am sure a lot of people now feel cheated...as if being cheated in a relationship...in fact its exactly what it is all about...being cheated...this couple of months spent with him...the journey started off fine...but we are now strolling on an endless road across a desert...we cant see the destination from where we are now...and next year when he leaves we will eventually come to the cross-roads...a road junction..when we'll have to choose our own path without him holding our hands...by right we will be confortably sitting at the back of the bus driven by him as we slowly drive towards our own destination...but no...we have to decide now...we have to choose now...the future is unknown...and fearful...where will this road under our feet lead us to?can you answer my questions now?no...you cant...you are quitting..you are leaving...Its like a mother of a cheetah...leaving her child in the middle of an african grassland...then fled and watch her babies get eaten up by other animals...helplessly they are devoured by the creatures of the wild...at the cross roads..where are we supposed to head?where to?help me answer this question...

All Good Things Will Eventually End
all the good things will sooner or later come to an end...no matter how hard you try to stop the end from happening...like a beautiful full moon you see in the night sky or all the wonderful experience you have while with your friends...or even the girl whom you like most and the times you guys spent together...these are just some of the things which will never last..'Change is the only thing in this world that is constant'. True enough...all things will change...the clouds will never be the same once it changes its shape...everything will change...and everything will never stay the same when flowing alongside the current of time..the only thing that will never change is the everlasting cycle of changing...To the good or to the bad?you might ask...well it really depends on what you are looking at...suddenly one day the world becomes a peaceful place and everybody lives happily ever after..thats a good change...you strike lottery and become a multi-millionaire overnight...thats a good change...what about a bad change?Perhaps losing all your lifetime savings...maybe the news of the death of your close friend...or maybe even the departure of someone important...this might sound ridiculous to some...or to most...people like him is hard to find...like good friends...and the fact that youve met them in some point in your life makes them precious and unique...especially when it comes to the times spent together..through the thicks and thins...through the smooth and rough...through the highs and lows...weve been through it all and done it all...we usually think of friends when it comes to a class...however,the person that makes this all happen...is normally left out of the grand picture....why did i spend a whole chunk of words above?he announced to the class that he will be leaving next year...to go to meridian junior college to teach general paper instead...what a whole lot of bullshit..down grade yourself and force yourself to teach something you are not familiar with...thats stupid...force yourself into an uncharted territory...thats moronic...to leave a class which treats you as the best teacher ever...thats foolish....to leave before finish teaching a class...thats silly...(and irresponsible)to expect a class still concentrate on their studies after recieving such a ill news...thats dumb...like what Grima Wormtongue said in The Two Towers,''Lathspell' I name him. Ill news is an ill guest.'whoever brings bad news is a ill guest..but hes not...however...giving the crappiest reasons to leave...thats being an ill guest...giving out excuses....thats being an ill guest...to expect us to do what we could not...thats being an ill guest...to make girls cry in front of you...thats being an ill guest and being a bastard...why leave us?i...in fact the whole class...is not blaming you for what you have decided to do...if you want to leave...that is your own free will...if you want to move on with your life...thats you on decision...we cannot interfere or to change your mind about anything...however...to leave us hanging...thats totally wrong and irresponsible...Sorta like a man hanging desperately to a rope hanging on the side of a cliff...without strength and energy that man can fall anytime to his death...but suddenly over the edge of the cliff and man looms above him and grabs the rope and starts to pull the man up towards safety...thats the job of you...a teacher...but to pull that man halfway through and let go...thats just wrong... a couple of years ago i wouldve danced with joy when the teacher told me that he/she is leaving the school..i still recall when i was back in secondary 3 i had this chemistry teacher called Miss Rema...she was awful and most of all...butt ugly..she couldnt teach whatsoever and took over our lessons for a full 3 months or so...one day she announced to the class that she will be leaving the school...instead of weeping our class threw paper balls at her asking her to leave...after she left crying we started laughing with joy and jumped around laughing on top of our lungs...that was back then...weve never had a great teacher...never has one teacher inspire us like what my current teacher did...therefore weve never felt sorry or depressed when the teacher tells us that he is leaving...until now...in class...the girls cried...really cried...the guys however..sat there without any form of emotion on their faces..including me of course..i guess i didnt know what to feel...or say...seeing the class crying was not a pleasent sight of course...i did not shed a tear...not one...instead i was kinda stunned...so shocked i was smiling and talking to ravish and all...i dont think i was acting the right way...come to think about it...can you imagine me crying?*shivers*'Word hard for your promos...and make sure you guys switch off the lights and te air-con before you leave ok?yep...'and he left...some of the last words he said...he also said,'see you tomorrow..'however i really hope that he will say this instead:'See you next year...'i was thinking..why not leave last year?why not leave the year after next?why next year?why us?life is unfair i do agree with that fact...deep inside our hearts we know that sooner or later we will have to say goodbye...bit farewell to him...but it came too fast and too soon...like a sudden gush of wind before a thunderstorm...no warning...no sign whatsoever...the future without him is unknown...who will be the new teacher?ive got no idea...who will be the next geog lecturer?i havent got a clue...who will be the next replacement in our hearts as the best teacher ever?probably that will never change...and something which im sure about...i was still thinking about what to do for him next year for teachers' day...i guess i'll never be able to do what i will do for him...there are a couple of things...or people...that kept me and are still keeping me alive in nyjc...my friends and him...he's leaving...great...now what do i do?stand still and let the quicksand swallow my life away?as the girls in our class left for home...i was sitting on the table wondering what to do...Jiaying walked pass me with her eyes red and tears in her eyes...she had always been the tough girl in our class...at least to my eyes...never surrender whatsoever...but today...24th of September 2003...Jiaying cried...not that she was the only one who did...but everyone else was trying to laugh the tears away...somehow only her tears made my heart crack a little...making me feel guilty that nothing came out from my eyes...nothing more to say now...signing out...if he leaves someone's gonna get killed...

me melvir and ravish made a pact today...not to swear or to make fun of each other's names..hahahaha...every insult or swear word will cost that person 50 cents...and this will last till after the promos...i think by the end of it we will be able to have another bbq with money provided by ravish..hahahaa..damn tough though..but i will try my very best not to lose out to the other two!!hahaaa..

hmm..just to let everyone know that i wont be posting very often from now all the way till the promos..do i need to specify the reason for that?fine...i gotta study eh?no time to waste...so i'll probably post every 2 to 3 days..hahaa..anyway...everyone jiayou for promos~!if any of you get retained im gonna spank your ass!!what if i get retained as well??*gulp*

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Brian,'The sweet is never sweet without sour.'
---'Vanilla Sky'(2001)

Song of the Moment---An Jing by Jay Chou

*sniff sniff*i think im down with a damn flu...woke up at 730 to go for the stupid chinese exam..i didnt care much about it..since chinese is supposingly my most powerful subject i studied geog last night instead...started working on the test to find out that it was tougher than i expected...never had such a difficult paper before...or maybe its just that my brain wasnt working as well as usual...probably due to the damn air-con..its always colder on saturdays...and i felt like a frozen piece of pork while inside the LT...and as expected i think i didnt do well for that paper...it was pathetic really..nothing much happened and will happen for the past few days and the days to come till the promos..since everyone is studying and of course..under the peer pressure i will probably be doing the same...i will probably lock myself in my room and study...and that's boring...my aunt's leaving early tomorrow morning to china to visit my uncle...so i might just catch 'The Italian Job' today...ive been waiting for the movie for ages really..my mom has agreed to allow me to buy some of the models from games workshop after the promos..wow i really wanna buy them...although its a huge investment but i hope i can cough out some money to buy those...all m afraid of is the fact that i do not have any form of experience at painting models...although i do have experience at building them but painting was never really my favourite thing to do...(thats why i prefer sketching with pencil then painting..)im not good at mixing colours or controlling the strokes and i tend to mess up the whole workplace while doing the job..i still remember back in secondary school i was working on one of my art pieces in the toilet...since i didnt want to mess up my room whatsoever...i did my work on the tiled floor...and mess can be washed away easily..cleveR?not exactly...i finished my painting..all was a mess but heck it...all i cared about at that time was to finish my work and not to impress anyone..it was 10 or 11pm and i really wanted to sleep..so i began to tidy up the toilet and ready for bed when i spilled a cup of dirty water....you must be thinking..since im in the toilet whats the problem?well i spilled it on my art piece as well...great...im not sure why but when it comes to painting im a outsider...personally i must brag about this...but im pretty good at drawing...but painting..gosh...therefore im afraid that i might screw up here and there...but i will try..baby steps yea?alright i will catch some slp now before lunch...Ciao~

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
[After recieving dozens of prank phone calls..]
Moe,'I will poke out your eyeballs and stuff them down your pants so you can see me pluck your balls out~!!!'
---'The Simpsons'

SONG OF THE DAY
Numb by Linkin Park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

really great day..at least it was a great school day..i know i dont normally say that but it was..it really was...it started off with GP..and i was so bored i actually found doing maths a little more interesting than usual...i did the tutorials under his very nose and of course he noticed me but hasnt got the wit to stop me...loser...i got back econs..as expected i failed it...borderline fail..i think i shld be glad bout that yea?anyway,even maths was an interesting period..i guess its the room that we had the class in..i love that classroom..what's the best thing is that it was raining and during the 2 period break me and ravish...actually intended to study...but ended up looking at people through the window...we sorta fooled arnd..wanted to study but we ended up talking abt people walking by and daring him if he dares to jump from the 4th to the 3rd floor...we were really bored..and its easy to find fun in the midst of boredom..me and ravish think that mr yeo really looks like drew carrey...just give him one of those black framed glasses and we can have our very own 'who's line is it anyway?' i went home really tired...wanted to jump into bed but discovered that my mattresses got moved out into the corridor...found out later that mom bought new mattresses and wanted to replace the old ones...and i as a patriot of my room i didnt want to slp in other rooms..so i waited for those damn workers to come and do their job..they came at 430 which means that i had to stay awake till then...thank god the process was fast and i jumped into bed...and so i had a good nap...YEA RIGHT~!tmd my mom's housing agent came and she's a bitch..that bitch cant stop talking and cant stop talking loudly either..asks stupid qns and i cant stand her..in fact nobody can stand her..her son..when called upon..stands still and closes his eyes and pretend not to hear her...she cant walk properly..cant wear shoes..she's pushing everybody arnd her to the edge of sanity...and i couldnt slp with her yelling outside in the dining area like nobody's business..and worse...she remained in the 'i-cant-stop-talking' mode for 2 hrs straight...great...and here i am...half dead...probably will do some revision tonight..im in the mood nowadays..so i better make good use of it...haha...signing out...peace

Song of the Moment---Eat You Alive by Limp Bizkit

tuesday..longest day...got by without dozing off...actually i did but hell..considering the amount of hours i slept yesterday sleeping for merely a couple of minutes is impressive already..PE...was probably the worst period of the day..not that we had to run or do a lot of physical training..but i had to explain for my absence from PE on the friday before the holidays..and i had to lie..always dont feel good to lie...but i will feel worse if i go for the PE..final option:LIE..and then it was soccer time..being a goalkeeper aint that bad after all..you get to sit there and wait for the ball to fly towards your direction..probably the easiest job on the field...except for the enormous amout of responsibility put on you when the ball flys into the goal..of course i saved a lot of balls...let a couple row on by throw the cones...but hey...my team won..so i guess i should be glad..stupid me..i wasnt wearing a watch..and seeing the guys walking towards the toilet with their bags i thought the period ended..so i blindly followed them...until Zy told us that the period is still on and that we are actually skipping the lesson without us knowing it..ravish 'PAKI' chadi was at the mirror inspecting his new grown pimples and long hair while me melvir and Zy went off first...after deciding that waiting for him is a total waste of time..only to find out a couple of minutes later that ravish chadi got caught by Audrey herself and our names were mentioned...great..i skipped PE without myself knowing it...damn i shldve wore a watch...the rest of the day was fine..got back my maths paper and i got 34/50...it was not surprising since i recieved some generous tips from friends..therefore i tried not to announce my result to the whole world...making those who got lower than me feel bad abt themselves...esp sam...she did not do well..and upon hearing that i got 34 she got a little upset..understandable..i had the tips..she didnt..and i got higher marks compared to her..felt bad of course..so i kept silent and did not ask abt her result any longer..most of us passed the test..mrs lee was obviously happier than usual...big thing is coming...and yes i am feeling the pressure building..must buck up...must do it...must not stay in j2...my goal...go to j2..not thinking bout the As at the moment..who is anyway?

Song of the Moment---Your Heart Will Lead You Home by Kenny Loggins

first day...never was it an enjoyable one..same as today...got back my GP essay from YEE and yay...i failed..although i passed my overall but a damn 21 for my essay is definitely not an encouraging sight..thank god i love mondays..shortest day..slackiest day of the week...managed to catch a breath..im not sure if my aunt is enjoying her stay...actually i dont think so...since singapore is just a temporary stopover for her before she visits my uncle in china..she sits at home and watch tv like all the time..i really wonder what i can do to make her stay a little more interesting..what can i do then?its beyond my powers really...school everyday...really dont have much time for her..hahaa..everyone went to sch today...so that was great..hahaa..not so much of changes going on..other then the fact that valerie shaved...or cut short her hair yesterday...i guess im the only person who thinks that its weird..probably because of one,im not used to the hair cut...yet...two,because it reminds me of wong lai yong..and thats freaky...me and ravish were just tabulating the number of seconds we have left before the promos..i kinda forgot the figures but its pretty short..75 hours for each subject if you are not gonna study for chinese and GP..and yes i dont intend to do that...pointless and stupid..alright..now consider this:if you get yourself a new blog and then your bf objects to it and forces you to close it down what will you feel...apparently thats what happened to a friend of mine...and her name i will keep it disclosed..spent the afternoon editing her blog...since she's not a very bright person when it comes to computers...i gotta help out...and that i dont mind..awhile later she msged me and said that her bf is not happy that she is 'advertising' herself..*rolleyes*'RIDICULOUS!!' i told her...overly obsessive that's what he is to my eyes..so what you have the power to control over where your gf wants to express her feelings now?instead of telling her problems and feelings to her friends she chose to tell it in a form of text...whats the matter with that?if you want her to stop 'advertising' for herself you might as well stop her from making friends..and of course we are not going to sit here and let you create a barrier between us and her...he told her that he didnt want her to skip nap time for something like blogging...oh yea as if nap time is much more constructive...when a guy gives two reasons why he wants a girl to do this or not do that...he will give a true and a fake reason..in which case the reason bout her being 'advertised' is probably the real reason...its so damn dumb to do something like that in my opinion...i feel as if she is stranded and trapped...and worse,brainwashed...heard that he's a nice guy...but he's first impression from me...i give him a D...and thats kind..

Song of the Moment---The song from the 'Kill Bill' movie trailer..not sure bout the name..haha

sunday...never liked sundays..why?last day of the weekend..and also,no more late nights...but today's sunday is a little different..it's worse~!!!its a sunday..the last day of a damn holiday..great...going back to school to do the stuff i dont like and see people that i want to see..even worse,there is no one im looking forward to see in school!!sad...works are gonna pile up again...come rushing to you like a train...PW once more..crashing down from above and Promos..coming speeding down the freeway..today was great actually...for some reason i woke up at 12nn...and was surprised to see the afternoon sunlight piercing my ass through the window..woke up to find my family including my aunt enjoying steamboat...so i jumped into action and started eating...i love steamboats..for some unknown reasons..went out to get the two towers dvd and yes~!its avaliable for renting~finally im able to watch the preview of ROTK and the EE...amazing i must say...jaw dropping and simply stunning..cant wait...imagine the stuff im suppose to experience from now till then...promos and Alevel chinese plus more PW..great...within this 90+ days im gonna get crushed to death by crap like those..gonna wake up at 640am...again...gotta wear that brown thing...again...gotta see that god forsaken place...again...(there's more cheer in a graveyard)i hate the last day of holidays...where all the fun ends and work begins...gotta go now...running out of stuff to type to be honest...see you arnd then...tataz..peace out

POEM OF THE DAY:
A Dream in the Night by Mc~Katia
A Dream In The Night

Author: Mc~Katia

Lost in confusion and total self bliss
I've found the relation between dream and wish
A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep
But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep.
A dream can bring true the wish never thought
As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought.
But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking
A grasping of things while still in the making.
Now my understanding of wish and of dreams
Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem
But still I'm confused and nothing is clear
Because you are a wish, yet a dream so dear.
With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight
Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night
You've become such a fantasy with realistic tones
I long for your love and time spent alone
Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion
For all their purpose are meager illusion
And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight
I fear the darkness and my continuing fight.
For now its a war - a battle within
A dreadful nightmare which rationality must win
What should I do? Where shall I begin?
Should I ask for your love or remain a dear friend?
In my dreams youre my lover and my world is complete
But in life your a martyr to hope so elite
I've grown to know you and care with a passion
But fear lies within mutual attraction.
If I am to approach you with some indication
Would I strengthen our friendship or cause detonation?
This is the confusion, the struggle, the fight,
Until I am sure, youll remain a dream in the night.

i guess my advice to those who wants to have a nicer set of teeth and wants to put on braces...my advice to you is to forget abt that idea..firstly singapore dentists..in fact dentists all over the world has a common disease...they do not care how you feel...they just dig and pick...they dont care if they poke a hole in yr gum,or pierced your lips with one of their hooks..if they are having a bad day no one has a good day as well...and me?i made a mistake back when i was in sec3..not that im not satisfied with the results...perfectkly arranged teeth..as compared to the ones i had back then..im really happy bout this...why all the complain then?i have to put on retainers..not just me..its a process every patient desperate for better appearance has to go through...and im telling you it can become the one and only reason not to put on braces..lots of tongue and saliva involved...i cant eat..i cant even talk...or sing whatsoever..im talking like duffy duck right now..and that sucks..*spit spit spit*and i am supposed to wear this plastic thing in my mouth for another year or so...i cant take it anymore..i tell you what..im not gonna wear it 24/7 like what she asked me to..heck that rule..i wont be bound by it..BITE ME!!the discomfort?fine i dont mind...the drooling...i dont care...but the fact that i cant talk is just irritating...maybe i will just shut up and listen more for the next few months..its like my tongue got cut off by something and now i cant even speak properly...damn i hate this...i guess this is the only encouraging thought:you can take it off when you are not happy with it!!now thats comforting really..thank god its not fixed...alright...going to heartland mall to study with my boys..hahaa(my buds actually)i see you guys later..peace out..

Song of the Moment---If A Picture Paints A Thousand Words by David Gates

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oh..and one more thing...lets all observe a moment of silence who perished during the 911 two years ago..screw those who did it...rest in peace for those who passed away...god blessed their relatives...F**k Osama...

hmm...gosh this holiday had been really boring..ever since the bbq on monday i have been trying to make time pass faster...my aunt came to visit from taiwan on tuesday..haha..its been awhile since i saw her...so it was a surprise and pretty glad that she's here..hahaa..although she nags and talks a little too much and little too often..but i dont really care...went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean:The Curse of the Black Pearl today...pretty awesome movie like i thought...only complain:my bladder...im not sure why but my bladder had been crying to release its load since the beginning of the film...as i didnt want to waste the regular coke i bought before the movie i drank the coke as i watched...which only made matters worse...i read on the internet that the film will continue even after the credits...something about the fate of one of the characters...but i have no idea who..i knew about it..and wanted to stay behind...but sadly due to my bladder i had to rush to the toilet...and yes the doors to the cinema were locked after i came out...great...now i wont know what happened to whoever that person is...sigh...anyway..i came home to watch Artificial Intelligence...wow great film...ive watched the film a couple of times...despite the movie clocking at an eye-opening 2 1/2 hrs i dont really mind..coz that movie was shot so beautifully and carefully..i guess i am different from the others when it comes to movies...hahaa..i bet most people dont see that...its about a robot boy and his constant search for the blue fairy aka the fairy from pinnochio...to change him into a real boy like she did to pinnochio so that her mother will love him like she did to martin her real son...i wonder if blue fairy really exists...and if i find her like what david did will she turn me into a real boy...so that i can be loved more than i am now?lately i talked to a girl online named Rui Ying..she had a problem with her friends..and needed someone to listen to her woes..she was on #teens on Mirc and she needed someone..anyone to help...so i clicked on her nic and we chatted...she seemed like a really nice person trying desperately to adapt..(just transfered from river valley to ang mo kio sec)and she is having problems..and of course i helped and she was really grateful and stuff..glad that i could help really..for some reason i really wanna talk to her again...but why?i ask myself...because her name has a Rui in it as well?because she's very beautiful and attractive?(she sent me her pic)because i am desperately in need of someone to fill the hole in my mind?because i need someone to replace Rs?i dont know...this couple of days i keep going onto Irc to look for her nic...she promised not to change nic just before she logged off..am i just stupid..falling for another stranger..another Rui...what am i doing?

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Mr Gibbs,'It's bad luck to wake a man when he's sleeping!'
Jack Sparrow,'Fortunately, I know how to counter it; the man who does the waking buys a drink for the man who was sleeping, then the man who was sleeping drinks the drink while listening to a proposition from a man who did the waking.'
Mr. Gibbs,' Aye, that'll about do it!'
[Will throws more water on Mr. Gibbs]
Mr. Gibbs,' Blast I'm already awake!'
Will Turner,' That was for the smell.'

Song of the Moment---I Can't Play The Song by David Gates

haha...two big news!!yesterday was too tired to type anything..so this entry will be two day's worth..anyway..i will start with yesterday's stuff

8th of September, Monday
got up early at 845 to prepare for the bbq..all was still in a mess...must of the needed items and food were not bought yet..and still in a very big mess ready to be cleared up...met up with jiaying weiyi and bernice at 930 to get the food into the fridge..as usual weiyi threatened to kidnap my nemo..lurking around my tank and everything..i think i shld paste a sign on the sides of my tank saying:Stay off Weiyi!anyway..met rachel awhile later to get her chicken wings..she was pretty pissed over the fact that a idiotic lady made her wait at kovan mrt for over an hour and then told her that she forgot to bring the score rachel needed..i know it can be frustrating...crazy bitch..its like forgetting to use a toothbrush when brushing your teeth..totally senseless and dumb..anyway,went to bangla..i mean...melvir's house after geog with ravish to fool around..haha..he's house has this pull-up bar across the corridor..pretty cool really..sadly he's still so thin and muscle-less..pretty simple house but he's dad sorta shocked me for awhile..when he came out of his room half naked to say hi...*gulp*met shariffah afterwards to get the otahs..too bad she and wan wei wont be attending the bbq later on in the evening..how sad...the party started soon after at arund 5 and it was a whole lot of fun really..i messed around with my video camera..took photos and videos of people...the funniest part mustve been when bernice and gang...even mr yep attacked zhuangyi and pulled him across the fence while ravish took off his shorts revealing his boxers..bright blue it was...and the best thing of all i taped it...it's well kept and locked up in my safe and nobody will get their hands on it...classic shot...by me by the way..then sam wan jun and i did this short clip...it was pretty lame..actually very very very lame..but what the hell..we are out to have harm..no harm being lame once in a while..we had a A4A version of american idol..sam was the lousy singer trying to take a shot at hollywood while hanwei was randy jackson...wan jun was paula abdul and i am my favourite judge of the show,simon...muahahaa...i love it...i love my line as well..' Pathetic..absolutely horrible..' i guess i was a little to high at that time and did not show people my drama talents..hahaa...*cough*rachel joined us pretty late after that...after mr yeo and the jiemeis left..with a mess as well..all piled up and not cleaned up as well..great...it was really dark at the place where i met rachel so i had to go there and fetch her..(also because of the poor sense of direction Rachel Dory Low has..)got my guitar down and we had fun under the cloudy but moonlit sky...haha..sitting on the slide on the playground she played the school song while others sang along..(btw..after rewinding it at home hanwei did not record the whole song..)while i cleaned up the mess..they came to help after that..thanx guys..hahaa..one by one they left leaving me and rachel up in my room at 11pm...haha..apparently rachel's sis freaked out when she found out about her in a room at 11pm with a member oft he opposite side..but hey...no surprises..but im not one of those perverted idiots who will suddenly throw myself on her or anything..it rained like crazy at 1130pm...since rachel was meeting her mom at the bus stop..being the final guest of the evening i walked her to the bus stop..i stayed at the bus stop till her mom came..just to keep the womanisers away...(a girl sitting in the bus stop at 1130pm is not a very good idea yea?)her mom was awfully late..so we had a good chat about life..haha...pretty weird topic to talk about on such a wonderful night..(the rain of course)but hell..i thought the last part of the day was the best..hahaa..got really tired..went home and bath...and slept..

9th of September, Tuesday(Today)
too much coke..too much fun...too much of everything..caused a incredible headache when i woke up at 725 in the morning..wanted to go to school..but i thought i will just sleep for anoter 5 to 10 minutes..opps...guess i lost track of time..woke up to find that its already 11+...school ended long ago..damn...i missed econs..pretty worried..wan jun and liuyin wanted to study at my place..but i guess that'll have to be postponed..went to doctor chua this afternoon for some monthly check up..hahaa..i have my braces removed now..like a bird being set free from a cage im feeling both happy and weird now..the feeling of metal scratching against the wall of my mouth is gone..the food trapped in the braces after every meal which is enough to feed a whole village in africa is gone as well...leaving behind traces of dried glue...hahaa..pretty happy...two years ago my teeth was in a mess..as if it was being hammered time and time again by a hammer..crooked it was..two years later its back...looking better i guess..haha..gotta try to get use of the rest of my life without those metal things now..hahaa..jiayou from now on..i still cant get over the exhaustion..too tired i guess..i will go catch a nap now..i will see you guys around..take care~

Song of the Moment---Ji Mo De Ji Jie by David Tao

bloggers screwed itself up yesterday..couldnt blog..grrr..that sucked~!yesterday i did my PW project with all except wan wei who went off to malaysia for some quality holiday while we were stuck in my small little room trying to squeeze milk out of a rock..a little unfair but...i wouldve done the same if i have a wedding to attend..:p anything is more important than PW really..anything fun..anyway..ZY and bernice..as usual fought it out in my room and converted my room into a wrestling match with a blink of an eye..zy sat on top of bernice and in a moment they switched positions...gosh this sound like some scene from a porn video but no..more like a wrestling video trust me..anyway..was just thinking abt the days ahead..Rs's birthday is coming in 46 days..what am i to do..what is the significance of that day?i dont know what to do...what else can i do other than giving gifts?it will probably be rejected again anyway..why bother?i figured maybe i shld really start to forget...ive tasted enough pain..enough of the times without you...i shld start getting used to it..after 23rd october i will start to forget and move on..i will celebrate your birthday for you the first and the last time..i know what to do now...but will my plan go down the toilet bowl like my plan for national day?i dont know...Jared..if you are reading this..(dont think so anyway..)you gave me a really great idea on what i shld give to Rs..thanks my man..;)will i be able to let go after that?will things finally come to an end?questions after questions...answers pls!im very obsessed with david tao nowadays..i love his songs..;)
Songs recommended:Zhao Zhi Ji,Pu Tong Peng You,Bu Ming Bai, Ai Hen Jian Dan(my fav), Ji Mo De Ji Jie...

Song of the Moment---Ai Hen Jian Dan by David Tao

hey blog..my cool clean blog..im here to rant once more..anyway..today was fine..divided my job between melvir and rachel..i was supposed to get the drinks and the chicken wings...but melvir offered to buy some of the drinks and rachel offered to by the chicken wings..haha..pretty cool stuff...so all i need to get now is 2 trash bags,skewers,charcoal,drinks..yea i think thats it..maybe the icecream...im just afraid that my freezer might not be able to fit..gulp..oh and im not sure how to get the ice for the drinks..perhaps someone can help?i actually pon-ed PE today just to come home..i figured if i go for PE i will be too exhausted to go for the concert..so i got home,changed and met with the people from guitar club later at 6..haha..met alvin tan there..njc's uniform is pretty horrible looking indeed..im not sure why but the people from guitar club is so much different from the people from my class..they are more like my sort of...'ideal' class..today we went to this solo guitar concert by Flavio Cucchi...wow he is a superb guitarist..fingers at lighting speed...pretty amazing..i guess the only complains are the songs were too similar and he couldve played something to wake part of the audience up..i was awake all the time..i did not slp at all..since i know just by staying awake is a form of respect for that guy..another complain is that bloody asshole who left his hp on...stupid dickhead..never been to a concert b4?it rang while Flavio was playing a piece..he actually stopped and said,'that tune wasnt played by me..' humorous guy he is..an italian..always so funny...hahaa..the concert ended after 3 encores and half the guitar club members in dreamland..i was the one fooling arnd trying to keep them awake during the concert..hahaa..it was a great night for outing..although the conert ended at 10+ but what the hell...i wanted to go out and have fun..but due to the chem test most of them have tmr morning..they passed on that idea..so i walked back again..towards raffles place mrt..over the bridge again...fool around with ahmad on the bridge..i was so high and excited that i almost forgot the place that my heart shattered and cracked..i was turning the corner to the entrance to the mrt station when i saw that seat beside the singapore river...'eh..im not going leh..' this phrase popped up in my mind again..(for those who are interested it is the longer seat on the second row at the extreme right side of boat quay..)i couldve took to bishan and asked my mom to fetch me...but i took a longer route..to NEL back home..walked down the same old slope i used to stroll on during the first 3 months..as if transported thru a time machine i was back on 15th april...walking down the pavement with the rain clouds gathering above..thinking abt what siti told me awhile ago and repeated it in my mind...she wanted to give me back the seashell...but why?but why?on the bus ride home that day it rained really heavily..i could barely see the pedestrians desperately trying to cross the road without being blown away..the bus stopped at the red light just outside of the interchange..and i recieved a msg..it was from Rs..i read it...it was a rejection...i closed the msg..and stared out into the rain..i didnt know how to feel..i felt like breaking down and cry...who cares if the bus driver freaks out or not..i just wanna run through the rain back to sch and ask Rs for the real ans...but no..the bus was occupied by a couple of passengers..i figured it was not the best time to do something as stupid as that..green light came on and the bus drove..i alighted at my bus stop outside springbloom..it was still raining..despite the umbrella in my back..i ran thru the rain..hoping that the raindrops will wash away what just happened..all i go was tears mixed with rain..nothing more..i paused at the lifts..took a deep breath..gathered myself.and walked in...time travel back in time to today..im back here again...i opened the door...home sweet home..i changed and collasped onto the bed...tired...weak...broken...

*Dee Dee Dee Dee...**Bang...'shut up...'*my alarm clock..an invention both beneficial and harmful to human..damn...a love/hate situation there...anyway...i woke up as usual this morning preparing for school...for some reason my mom cooked some soup with some vege in it...tasted like insecticide..i dont think it was wasted properly...and almost immediately my stomach felt like it was sucking itself in...that feeling was horrible...almost unbearable..in fact it WAS unbearable..i was stamping my feet on the toilet floor as i try not to wake my sister up by screaming..by the time i finished with my business i was too weak to even move..so i stayed at home for the rest of the day..went to slp but woke up at 9 to rush to the toilet...mom gave me a few pills and it calmed things down for awhile...phew...if this is how a woman feels like when giving birth or worse,i'll advice all women not to have sex...gosh it hurts!!!anyway,problem:bernice has training on tuesday night and zhuangyi has tuition as well...WHAT TO DO??oh my god...i want the whole class to be therE?its ok...i called up the office and guess what..hahaa..that person who booked the poolside pit cancelled yesterday...oh my god..how lucky can i get...i really didnt wanna go to the other bbq pit..it is ants infested and really creepy after dark..and cars driving by and everything..i think before we start bbq-ing the food they will be carried away by those damn ants..but luckily its shifted to monday!!poolside!!yahoo!!now everybody including yogi yeo can come and maybe we can throw ppl into the pool...shiok la~hahaa..cant wait for monday to come..come come COME!!!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
'Love is like a net that capture hearts like fishes...'
---Mohammad Ali

Song of the Moment---Ai Qing Duo Nao He by Panda Xiong

You are a Pegasus! Swift and serene, you have no
limits! You are your own master, and there is
no limit on earth or sky to hinder you.


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next tuesday it is!!finally my class is doing something together again..seeing those bloody kids have their own bbq downstairs at the bbq pit really makes me jealous..i mean...how come my class never had such a thing going on?not even my first 3 months class or my mshs class...i guess this class is finally coming together...it took a while i guess...but things takes time i guess..esp with those never ending rumors and hatred between people and classes its really hard to just settle down and focus on relationships...hahaa..anyway,next tuesday,the whoel bbq pit will be ours from morning till night..i cant believe what 20 bucks can buy for myself as well as the whole class..(actually its free..i get a 20 dollar refund..)wonder who will come and who will not...wonder what we will do that night..i hope yogi yeo can turn up...maybe bring TSO as well..i dont really mind...and pls bernice and zhuangyi...if u are reading this pls avoid fighting at my housE!!!!=p u can throw zhuangyi into the pool as well...hahaa..i booked the bbq pit beside the pool yea?so whoever wants to take a dive in the pool at midnight go ahead and do so...hoho...and there's a playground beside it...quite big la..hopefully everyone can come...hahaha..drinks i will provide yea?today we took the class photo..haha..it came as a shock really...wasnt expecting it until yogi yeo told this morning..hahaa..anyway...that darn wind..kept blowing my hair everywhere..and taking photo under the blinding sun wasnt much fun...was doing this: -_- most of the time coz the sun was too bright...i wonder how i will be like in the photo...*gulp*and for the informal photo i proposed to carry Zhuangyi and we did..hahaha..not as easy as sianghong la..Zy's much heavier..=D the maths test was alright actually..hahaa..and during the test i finally saw the girl eric told me bout...the so called,'chio-est girl in nyjc..'joanne or joanna..i forgot which but anyway...she sat in front of me and her striking pink coloured bag just caught my eye...'wait..isnt that joanne?'hahaa...she's alright looking to me...FINE she is good looking..but not my type i guess..i wont go drooling behind her like most guys do in nyjc...probably just admire..hahaa..weird word to use there..made her sound like some artifact...i still think Rs is the perfect person...maybe she IS the artifact...maybe she is the gift from god to the world..hahaha..i dont know..meant for some lucky guy in the future but definitely not me..whoever you are...u lucky bastard..haha...oh well...i was being selfish i guess..trying to claim her as my own..i guess i was being too proud as well...i thought that my master plan will definitely work...in the end it didnt..sorta like a knight who got killed by his own sword..how malu...(^^;) to me Rs is still the one...better than anybody i have ever met...i was just thinking bout what if we really are together and stuff after maths test..i guess i thought too much and too far..foolish me...wake up...

Song of the Day----Huo Cai Tian Tang by Panda Xiong

You are Inu Yasha from Inu Yasha! You are a half-
demon and all you wanted was your girl and to
be a fully fledged demon, and what you got was
her decendant and a whole lotta problems. But
you can handle it cause you've got one kick-ass
sword...


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Poem of the Day:
Why do I Have to Cry?
by Zanzi

When in Spring the flowers bloom,
And everything is born anew,
Why do I have to cry?
I could be sharing this beauty with you...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

When the sun in the Summer noon,
Shines so brightly upon the land,
Why do I have to cry?
I could be holding you by the hand...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

Winds blow tenderly in Autumn,
And the leaves so gently fall,
Why do I have to cry?
I know we could have had it all...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

Cold outside in Winter evenings,
Colder here within my heart,
Why do I have to cry?
I never wanted us to be appart...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?