Went back to evergreen sec for that stupid NE seminar today...great...this weekend couldve been so great without the seminar...today started off with a wake up call from my alarm clock at 6am sharp...woke up with a cracking pain in the side of my head...thinking bout the trip to woodlands at 6 in the morning just made my day really...mom fetched me to the bishan mrt station...which is great...coz i hate taking bus in the morning...its too cold and it was raining...YES it rained...i love the rain...esp when im in bed!!not in that stupid uniform while walking to the mrt to meet melvir...anyway,got there and met the rest of the class..and we got to evergreen..the ceremony is the longest crappiest ceremony i have ever been to...we had 3 useless and boring speakers...and they are the so called the 'guest-of-honor'...whole lot of bullshit...they have shit for brains...at LEAST make things a little more interesting for us and not fill your speech with a punch of propaganda and bullshit...QnA session..as usual our Sam went up to ask a question...and yes that idiotic moronic speaker number 2 answered her question...or did he?that shit for brains spastic dick...did not even answer her question...sam's question was something about how feasible it is to change the mindset of young minds in spore or smth like that...that guy went on to talk about the government and the country and a whole lot more which i did not bother listening...PhD holdeR?honestly where did u buy the cert?and how much?during the discussion all i wanted to do was to throw the sec3s with the answers and just type it out..that bitch was standing there eyeing us like we are some criminals in prison doing out daily work duties...one of the girl asked me if we can use other diskettes...but i said,'i dunno...that bitch over there wants us to use hers...so we better use it or else bitch will bark...'which is true...the organiser sucked...the ceremony sucked...on the feedback form i wrote,'the only benefit i got from this seminar is the PEARLS points...and the lack of slp as well as an aching butt..to summarise this with one word,SIAN'i hated today...i bet yogi yeo must be feeling guilty..heh...but come to think about he...he havent said anything about what we did for him on friday on his blog yet...grrr...at least say something man comon'...alright...gotta slack now...catch you later~

LYRICS OF THE DAY:
Gloomy Sunday
by Rezso Seress
(creepy...this song had been banned for 50 yrs because 100+ people killed themselves after hearing this song..)

Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you
Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I’m glad to go


Death is no dream,
For in death I’m caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I’ll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday

Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart
Dear

Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

Song of the Moment---(you guessed it..)Gloomy Sunday by Rezso Seress

did the song this morning...haha...not my best voice...nor was it the best performance samantha did...had a little miscommunication...i started singing and she screwed up like all the way in the beginning of the song...but oh well..i dont blame her for it anyway,but it was pretty scary...it was quite nervous for me...my hand was shaking while holding the lyrics..never sang a song to a teacher before yea...or shld i say ive never met a teacher like him...oh well...maybe i did...but i just didnt have the courage to sing in front of him/her...anyway,a little off key somewhere through the song..but all and all it was great...or so i heard...pretty good reviews everywhere...so it was great...the Jiemeis bought this huge glass bottle and filled them with goodies while the others filled another basket with lots of food as well...i personally bought him a realy expensive mooncake..hahaa...it was good...after that i went back to my secondary sch with hmm...samuel brain zaoyi daryl liang hong fabien lingo fuyi guan ming...a lot a lot...and the whole gang of us just marched up mount vernon...wow that was a good feeling..to be back home...to feel welcomed again..unlike some stupid sch called nanyang..totally boring...it feels good to have all the marists together...and talk about the old days blah blah...it was good...hahaa..met han li kwang,ragu and mr low today...still the same old same old..HLK still weird and creepy,ragu still slacking...low still crazy..i guess thats why i like mshs so much...nothing much changed bout the school...just more idiotic juniors...other than that i still feel very much the same..as if i just left the place a few days ago...met so many people today..timothy went back..dudley played bball with his gang..gregory yixiang jaron kenneth johnathin chia..(as yandao as ever..grr)kwok hao...christopher and a whole lot more...went back to my old 4D class room..my place now occupied by some idiotic sec2 dickhead...that sux...some of the marks of my existence still remains though...for eg the bent railings on the windows...me and terence used to bent it while we got nothing to do..it's still bent..haaa...anyway...went on to town to catch freaky friday at lido with samuel krishna and ben tan...haha..met evon elaine ravish chadi nigel and his gf...eric...hahaa...and brian from A1...haha...met barnabas who watched the movie with us...brian and barney were pri sch friends...shocker...hahaa...freaky friday is such a funny movie...really hilarious and at the same time heart warming...pretty good show..havent seen a good show in quite awhile..hahaa..well that's that...that stupid NE seminar crap tmr morning...forcing me to wake up early on a damn saturday morning..i swear that when i get home tmr i am going to slp my ass off and guess what?i dont care!!hahaaa...right...signing off

Special thanks:03a4a esp the Jiemeis who bought the basket and stuff...Rachel and Samantha who played excellent guitar...the marists who made the union a great fun...without u guys today wldve been a really boring and crappy day...thanx..;)

saw a lot of srjc people today...was hoping that i will catch a glimpse...but no i did not...i dont think i have the face to see her...im such a loser to let her slip pass like that...as beautiful as the stars she is...but when it comes to capturing the opportunity..all i managed to capture is the pain and suffering she left behind..im not gonna lie about this..but seeing so many of my friends attached now...kinda make me feel jealous...i couldve been in their situation really..i secretly curse under my breath sometimes but the only person i can blame....is me...

sang the song in class with samantha today..haha...was kinda cool when we attracted the attention of the whole damn LT when we first practised the lines...a little weird i guess but nonetheless we were doing that for yogi yeo...so i guess its fine...anyway,got pretty good reviews bout the song we wrote...but the problem now is probably with the vocal part..haha...both of us are not professional singers or anything,in fact im wayy worse than samantha...she has a nice voice..i guess she just dont know how to use it...and as for me...i really cant do anything..i hope someone else will play a guitar tmr as well..so it will be louder...coz samantha's 'Tiffany' is pretty small..almost too small for anyone to hold..hahaa..gotta keep my voice tonight...got a song to sing tmr yea?hmph...im so messed up with my life right now..cant think of anything other than sch really...less time for television..less time for movies...less time for friends...and most of all...im starting to forget about Rs..thinking back on those days when i cant get her off my mind,now makes myself look stupid and foolish...i admire people like samantha and jessica sometimes...they can just give up on somebody and put their full attention on others with a snap of their fingers...but i cant...why?i guess my screw is too tight..i shld see this as a good thing..not be entangled and stranded by this load of crap anymore...hey i saw the MARS last night...have it captured on my video cam yesterday night...my family except my dad went down to film MARS...i looked like a small white dot with my naked eyes but after zooming in on it wow...its pretty cool..its really red and pretty awesome...it will be a couple thousands of years before anyone can see it again with the naked eye..whoever saw it now wouldve died by then...its weird to think of it that way,but its sorta like Rs...you have to cherish that moment in time coz after that,you'll have to wait for a couple of millenium before you see it again...its incredible how i manage to catch the MARS but not Rs...let her slip pass my sight like that...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
(Kinda dirty...but i really like it..hahaa..)
Lt. Col. Frank Slade,'Ooh but I still smell her. Women. What could you say? Who made 'em? God must've been a fucking genius. Hair. They that hair's everything you know. Have you ever buried your nose in a mountain of curls and just wanted to go to sleep forever? Or lips. And when they touched yours were like that first swallow of wine after you just crossed the desert. Tits. Hoo-hah! Big ones, little ones. Nipples staring right out at ya, like secret searchlights. Mmm Legs. I don't care if they're Greek columns, or second-hand Steinways, but what's between them .... passport to heaven. I need a drink. Yes, Mr Sims, there's only two syllables in this whole wide world worth hearing. Pussy. Hah! Are you listenin' to me son? I'm givin' ya pearls here.'
---'Scent of a Woman'(1992)

Song of the Moment---Sympathy by The Goo Goo Dolls

we were seriously behind time today..not homeworks...not tests....but the song for yogi yeo...although we are going to use the tune of superman and spoof that song...but then again,its not easy to change the lyrics~!!i was like,'holy shoot...we need to finish by today...practise tmr...NO TIME!!' so during lunch me valerie and hanwei sat down and while they ate their lunch i scribbled some stuff down behind my geog tutorial..(sorry yogi)wow...by the end of the day the song is done!!!im so happy...and it looks professionally written...im so proud of myself..and of course valerie and hw la...giving precious advices...oh yeah,i just went to weiyi's blog...saw this part about our class sitting together for the first time in 03A4A history to discuss about the teachers' day thing...i feel the same way too actually..i feel like ive finally blended in with everyone and finally we are doing something as a whole...a class..made me think of 1s24...when we were sitting in the canteen in srjc singing songs like nobody's business and people from other class will join in as well and the whole canteen will turn into a mini concert hall...really nice and homely feeling...and i felt that yesterday in the canteen as well...03A4A...although not the best class ive had...but hey,not a bad class also...anyway..here are the lyrics..check them out!!;)

SuperYeo(Sing to the tune of 'Superman' by Five For Fighting)
Lyrics by:Samantha Lim, Valerie Tan, Goh Hung Wei and Chin Weilien
i cant stand to try
Puttin' up with all your needs
But i can always try
To strive for a better me

Chorus
You're more than a guide
Livin' inside our minds
You're the one in our lives, that make things right
Thanks for lettin' us see the light

I wish for you to smile
And wipe away your frowns
When we're feelin' down
You will turn our lives around

Repeat Chorus

Up,up and away
Away from here
But its alright
we can all sleep sound tonight
You're not leaving...or anything..

Youve brightened up our lives
Filled them with lovely things
We weren't meant to fly
Till You've given us our wings

We're starting to fly
Now dont you dare to cry
As we all hit the skies,we'll recognise
Youre more than a guide
Livin' inside our minds
You're the one in our lives,that make things right
That make things right....(repeat)

We're starting to fly
Now dont you dare to cry
As we hit-the skies,we will recognise
Youre more than a guide
Livin' inside our minds
You're the one o...o...o....
In our lives...
That make...
Things right....

oh hi...hahaa..yesterday nothing interesting happened...nothing to type..besides,i was really tired yesterday..well anyway,here we go...today was crazy...in the morning we were supposed to have soccer...like we always do during pe on tuesdays...however because of our poor timing after the 5 rounds..she-male(refering to audrey)asked us to run another 2 rounds...wait wait...5+2=7....7 ROUNDS!!can you believe that?ive never ran anything more than 6 rounds before..that was indeed a killer...ive never sweat that much before...even after 2 hours of straight basketball...anyway,after that it was fine...tried discussing about the song for yogi yeo today during common lunch break but we figured its kinda hard for everyone to participate since not everyone knows the tune except me and hanwei...and its pretty annoying for me and everyone to repeat and listen to me humming...(pretty bad really)so we've decided to spoof the 'superman' song originally by five for fighting...hahaa...well sad of course..i mean it'll be nice to play your own song to someone...anyone in fact...but due to the serious lack of time..i think we came to the best conclusion possible..hmm..i will think about the lyrics tonight...in the mean time i need to get my strings repaired...the high E string and the G string..(yes the G string)broke...i need to get it replaced~!!and fast!!!practising superman now...hmm..later..

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Captain John Miller,'You see, when... when you end up killing one your men, you see, you tell yourself it happened so you could save the lives of two or three or ten others. Maybe a hundred others. Do you know how many men I've lost under my command?'
Sergeant Horvath,'How many?'
Captain John Miller,'Ninety-four. But that means I've saved the lives of ten times that many, doesn't it? Maybe even 20, right? Twenty times as many? And that's how simple it is. That's how you... that's how you rationalize making the choice between the mission and the man.'
---'Saving Private Ryan'(1998)

Song of the Moment---You Sang To Me by Marc Anthony

alright...today's post will be really long...be warned...;)a lot of stuff happened today...so hold on to your belts and here we go...

The One About the Wasted Sunday
'dee dee...dee dee...dee dee...' was the sound that came from my radio clock this morning...'alright alright shut up!!'(and that came from me..)730...lovely time to wake up on a sunday morning..normally i will wait till the sun scorches my butt before i bother to move...but today i had to wake up early for this newspaper collection crap in Ang Mo Kio...its not like i dont like doing these CIP stuff...i just hate the fact that i had to wake up at 730am just to help a bunch of people i dont know and get myself sweaty and dirty...anyway,i was supposed to meet someone at bishan mrt since she has absolutely no idea how to get to the CC..(totally understoof since the CC is quite hidden from sight...)so i offered to give her a lift there..'815 outside bishan mrt ok?'i said to her..of course she agreed...so my parents drove me down to bishan mrt at 815 sharp..they drove passed the mrt station and did not see her,so i got off the car and went inside to look...not there...820...not there...825...not there...830...not there...835...not there...i called her 14 times i think..according to Rachel...and she never picked up...(whats the use of a phone?)i was there at the mrt station circling the whole damn place and i guess the people there probably found me irritating...actually...im not someone who will complain a lot when someone is late...especially when it comes to girls...coz i know how they are...but when my parents are parking on a double yellow line in front of a bus stop i dont think being late is a very nice thing for them...so i got really pissed off right there...(hey...me?pisseD?now thats rare..)i hopped into the car and drove off without her..since i was late and all...well she overslept and alarm clock didnt work..apparently she had a bad night...now that was a pretty bad reason though...ravish slept at 4am after heavy drinking...now HE'S supposed to be late...not you~?well anyway,we got there and started the newspaper collection...gosh...5 blocks..no kidding..i almost died there...lots of weird people AND animals in hdb flats...quite an unusual sight esp for me...someone who lives in a condo...anyway,fat man with disgustingly fat stomach walking around half naked.(now thats nasty),old man with 2 teeth left...houses which smell totally awful...weird dogs with eyeballs popping out..(literally)what a freaky place to be at night!!everyone was pretty friendly actually...i expected some old dickhead to jump out with a shotgun to chase us away...but nah...just boxers and bad smells...(pretty bad either way..)met this little girl from taiwan..pretty cool stuff..she came down to help..claiming that she has got nothing better to do...(what????slping is better than carrying old garbage!!)shes only in primary six i guess...and came to spore in 2001...pretty cheerful girl actually..its nice to meet someone from the same country in this part of the world...Jie An?i think that is her name..haha..hope to see around jie an..;)and damn...with a 'take care' that idiotic guy who organised this charity thing he said goodbye to us...no money?no food?no drinks?just that weird bottle of recycled wateR?damn...thanx?after that me and ravish shared a taxi...he was heading home while i was headin' for novena..supposed to have this free buffet there...yum~~vienna at united square..you guys HAVE to check that place out...a little ex but hey...eat till you burst...worth every penny!!

The One with the Buffet
lets see...2 bowls of soup,a friend crab,a scoop of icecream,spaghetti,2 steaks,4 glasses of water,7 pieces of sashimi,2 pieces of cake...yeah...that was what i ate...oh my god..im so damn full..*burp*there was this fountain beside the resturant actually..and from where i was sitting i can actually see it...and there was this girl standing at the edge of the pool...she was looking into the water when she lost her balance and almost fell into the pool...there was this big round light on the water...she thought it was stable and fixed to the floor of the pool..so she used her leg to keep herself from falling...however,it's not fixed...and SPLASH!!she fell into the pool in front of the whole resturant and people at united square...hilarious it was!!!i was laughing my head off and choking on my glass of water...it was so damn funny...even her dad was laughing like a mad dog...

The One About the Video Camera
went to Sim Lim square to buy video camera...always wanted one and yay!! got it finally..;)this idiot upstairs tried to trick us..telling us about the difference between crystal plastic and glass lense...in the end it turned out to be a punch of bullshit...there's no such thing as crystal plastic and glass lense...in fact there's only one kind of lense...crystal...that golden hair orang utan...i feel like shaving his hair off and shove those cameras up his behind..'HEY LOOK..YOUR CRYSTAL LENSE CAMERA HAS A GREAT VIEW OF YOUR ASS!!'bastard...luckily we went downstairs and found this decent guy who sells REAL cameras...and we bought a panasonic camera for 1200 bucks..pretty cool camera..takes videos and photos and super clear...plus 500x optical zoom and a whole lot more functions...oh and it can be used as a webcam..now that's something new and cool...i was so exhausted and all i wanted to do was to come back home and slp...sigh...hahaa..and now that im back...i will head for bed now...bye bye!!!

Ps:hey girl...if you are reading this...im not mad at you already actually..dont think about it ok?

Scratch scratch scratch...what a looong tiring day...still the same as yesterday,im still clueless about econs..G R E A T...now i am truely worried...thank god the test is postponed...but damn..some newspaper collection crap this sunday...my poor sunday!!i want it back!!!only 116 days left for the return of the king...ah!!i cant stand it..im renting the dvd for two towers next week...i have to watch the preview!!!yahoo!!decemeber seems so far away...and a lot of stuff willb e happening from now till then..sometimes i really wonder what am i doing in a jc...anybody else feels the same way?a friend of mine from poly actually told me that he never enjoyed school life until now that he is in poly...jealousy....sch starts late and ends early...projects...(which are way more interesting than homeworks and tests)i might be better off in a poly...grrr...at least they have more socialable people..i really like the people from guitar club...hahaa..they are really nice people..not backstabbing whatsoever...(heh heh)well..gtg...i think i better start thinking bout the song to write to yogi yeo...until then...buaiz~

Song of the Moment---It Might Be You by Stephen Bishop

acted like a child,a peeping tom,a spy all at the same time today...yes thats me...GP was boring and long,and i had a bunch of homeworks left undone...maths...econs blah blah you name it...not done any of them at all...so after econs me and melvir went to one of the T rooms after grabbing a drink from the canteen.we intended to study in T11 at first,where we were supposed to have maths later on,however,all of the classrooms in the first floor was occupied...so we went upstairs..yes...you guessed it...occupied as well..other than ONE classroom...so me and melvir went in...as you know the classrooms are linked and are divided by sliding doors...and the doors between my classroom and the next was slightly opened...i heard Mr PUi's voice..(mr kooi actually..but kooi...pui...sounds the same eh?)coming from the other side,so i peeked thru the gap to see which pathetic class is in there...she was there...yikes...what a coincidence..i sat down with melvir to do geog..trying to get myself distracted from her presence...however,when melvir left for the toilet,i pushed my chair back so that i can see her again...so childish eh?how dumb of me...and i just stared...she looked tired...kinda stressed...like how Rs used to be like during lectures...forcing weak smiles at irritating guys trying to start a conversation...anywayz,i went back to work of course...after a while she sorta faded...with the presence of ravish its hard to keep yr mind on anything...Sparks and Fire raged as ravish battled it out with han wei with sms during maths...he really got pretty pissed by the fact that han wei ignored the fact that he wanted to patch up...im not sure why they hate each other so much...but both of them seem to be in the wrong...i dunno...i try to be the middleman..the neutral party to this battle...sorta like america during world war two before pearl harbor was bombed by those bloody jap assholes...Yogi seemed stressed out...really tired...probably because of the double workload he's carrying and many many more stuff he has to attend to...i think the whole class knows how much he cares for us,but we seem to be so helpless....at least for me,i dont see what i can do to make his life easier or cheer him up...he's sorta like a friend,a buddy to me...and when a friend is stressed and troubled i am too...im not sure what they are gonna do for him during teacher's day...i guess bernice and gang will come up with something surprising and special...i just hope that whatever we do for yogi yeo he will be happy about it..;)signing out..thanx for everything big man...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Lestat,'Evil is a point of view. God kills indiscriminately and so shall we. For no creatures under God are as we are, none so like him as ourselves.'
---'Interview with the Vampire:The Vampire Chronicles'(1994)

Song of the Moment---Joey by Bon Jovi

Meaningful words bout Love

1.Friendship often ends with love,but love in friendship?-never..

2.Dont marry a person whom you can live with,marry someone whom you cant live without

3.To love is nothing,to be loved is something,to love and be loved is everything

4.Kindness in words creates confidence,kindness in thinking creates profoundness,kindness in giving creates love

5."Love"the one word that frees us of of all the weightand pain in life...

finally its working...for some reason i couldnt open blogspot yesterday...hahaa...thank god its working now...time for some memorie capturing again...two days worth of stuff..i will try my best to summarise...i'll start with today then..hahaa..well...we were suppose to go to this weird never-heard-before sec sch called evergreen sec apparently...but due to some communication problems between Yogi and the sch,yogi gave us the wrong information about the location of the sch...it was,'take to yishun interchange and take 911..'then it changed to 'take to yishun and take 811'..we,foolishly followed those instructions and actually got lost in spore...(i never thought they i will ever get lost in spore but yes..i did...first time for anything yea?)anyway,so we asked this girl from AISS where evergreen is..(thanx girl~!)and the answer was shocking...WOODLANDS!!!holy mama...we were already running late and we are supposed to get to woodlands?clever melvir just went home...great move...so we made our way to evergreen sec...(finally)and when we got into the ava room...they announced,'alright...go for your break..'i was like...what the hell?but cant blame them eh...those eyes staring at us with much anger...really pierced me...yikes...not our fault anyway..bunch of idiotic morons from some sch actually wrote,'late comers shld not be entertained' etc...wtf was that our fault?go drop dead and die?you people with puny brains...if you want to pick a fight call me and i will be there...wanna act smart go aheaD...in the end when the results come out it will only prove that you guys are the low-lifes and the disgrace to mankind...you single cellular life-form...that was today...what happened yesterday?oh i scored 2 goals during PE yesterday...nothing special actually...but the fact that me,a retard at sports,scores 2 goals...is an achievement indeed...muahahaa...im not good at sports..not at all...when it comes to sports im like a toddler trying to walk...im so damn tired..had a really long day..i think i will go and slack now..maybe do smth at night i dont know..hahaa...alright...checking out..

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Paul Edgecomb,'On the day of my judgment, when I stand before God, and He asks me why did I kill one of his true miracles, what am I gonna say? That is was my job? My job?'
John Coffey,'You tell God the Father it was a kindness you done. I know you hurtin' and worryin', I can feel it on you, but you oughta quit on it now. Because I want it over and done. I do. I'm tired, boss. Tired of bein' on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. Tired of not ever having me a buddy to be with, or tell me where we's coming from or going to, or why. Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?'
Paul Edgecomb,'Yes, John. I think I can.'
----'The Green Mile'(1999)

Song of the Moment----Qing2 Tian1 by Jay Chou

econs lecture...sigh...was going up the stairs in LT4...didnt really know where to sit really...didnt wanna sit behind with econs tutor's eyes like vultures hunting for food...always behind you studying and observing your every single...didnt really wanna sit all the way in front with the rest of the class since that laurence guy although he's a nice guy..has pretty sharp eyes...so i decided to sit with my primary school friend...and there she was..she sat down right next to me...was sorta excited and it seemed as if i travelled back in time to the tme when i was in srjc...come to think about i havent had much opportunities to sit with Rs...the only time i remember clearly was during orientation...during the campfire i sat behind her...that's about all i can remember really...i still remember i was eating my dinner on the assembly area during the campfire when her hair slapped me in the face...could almost smell her shampoo...but oh well..am i nuts or what?anyway,she just sat beside me today...what can i do anyway?talk?i dont even know her...she asked me about a blank on the notes...and thats about it...sigh~she reminds me so much of Rs really...but like i said...they are very different people..Jiaying asked me today about the person i like...hahaa...told her about Rs...didnt go into details of course...coz it might just make her shiver all over and make a fool out of myself...i will probably get comments like,'wah lau...so er xin..'oh well...yeah...i guess that was exactly the reason of rejection...being absolutely er xin...or maybe too honest?for all those who are interested...this was what i wrote to Rs on Valentine's Day this year..;)

Once,God offered to give me a Guardian Angel...however,i refused his kind offer...'Why?'he asked..and i replied,'Because i have one already...she has long hair,big eyes,fair skin,beautiful voice and a really good friend of mine.'God looked at you...and then turned back to me and said,'Alright...however,you shall be her Guardian Angel in return..' So can i be your Guardian Angel?

disgusted?hahaa...well...probably...plus the candle and heart-shaped seashell i gave that's enough to scare freddy away...thinking back...that was probably why she said no...what was i thinking?insane?what took over me?when i was really down back then a friend told me that love played a trick on me...a terrible trick...not funny at all!!!

Done done done and done...the first draft for my written report is finally done...after a couple of hours of work...phew...tiring indeed...(^^;)accomplished...pretty happy about it..i cant wait for tmr to come actually..coz i love mondays...shortest and slackest day of the week...monday blues?whats that?bernice zhuangyi wen lai and wan wei came to my house for the PW thing today...hahaa...i can see bernice was really damn tired...she typed her stuff and fell dead aslp on my bed...the rest of us took turns after that to finish the project...i think we typed crap really...i mean,how good can it geT?well...whats the use of the first draft eh?;)went out for dinner just now at this chinese resturant..gosh the food was good..but the mood was kinda weird...especially what happened yesterday night mom and dad sorta had a wall built between them...spoke less than 5 sentences just now...cold war i guess...only me and my sister talked thru the whole thing...sigh....how awkward...what a weird situation...yes ruiyi it IS one of those days...irritating..hmph~!i hate it this way...alright...got to go slack now...take care y'all...peace out~

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Maximus,'At my signal,unleash hell..'
----'Gladiator'(2001)
Song of the Moment---Drift Away by Dobie Gray

question:what's fat,smelly,drunk,sleeping at the moment and has puke all over its body..cant get the answer?try harder...Mr YeE?nah...the answer:my dad...i was feeling really down this weekend...for some unknown reasons really...i did alright for my GP...i had stuff to right...which is always something nice to know,nothing bad happened today..then why am i depresseD?i dont know...probably one of those mood swings..yes guys have mood swings too...anyway,been thinking bout ruishan mostly...she sent me a wrong msg...and i replied if she sent it to the wrong person...we replied each other for awhile..i cant believe how stupid i can get when it comes to talking to her...i spill out the most moronic questions..'did u go to ndp?'what kinda question was that?i cant believe i actually asked her that...when talking to her my mind goes blank and empty...is that what happens when u talk to the girl u like?does that happen to you people?at least me i guess...anyway,i was watching tv on my couch...relaxing and enjoying the rain splattering on the balcony when the door bell rang...my mom went to answer it and it was my dad's friend standin outside..saying that my dad's drunk and he's in the car..unable to move...not even able to be held up by 4 big men...so my mom and i had to go down and help out...i went down..expecting the worst...but it turned out much worse...he puked all over his friend's plain white shite and pants,and he himself was covered in puke as well...for a moment there i was stunned,amazed and shocked,pissed and ashamed all at the same time...my mom woke him up and the guys pulled him out of the car...he opened his eyes...all red...a friend of his asked me to help out...but i couldnt...i just stood there...why was i so useless?i wanted to help mom...i wanted to punch that asshole in the fact like i did and ask him to wake up again...but i couldnt..not in front of these guys...not in front of mom...i released my fist,and grasped my dad's arm and we dragged him onto the lift and up to my house...we threw him onto the sofa...and he fell dead asleep like a corpse...no much difference anyway...that drunken Fuck...(sorry..but i had to say that...)when the guys went out...they waved goodbye to my mom as she frantically apologised...i...still..said nothing...did nothing...they were all smiling and my mom as well..but i know deep inside my mom is screaming...my mom went in to take a towel and for a moment..i was alone in the livingroom with that lump of lart...i stared at the unconcious beast for awhile...i thought to myself,'why am i associated with someone like that?am i cursed?i am so different from my dad...i feel so ashamed sometimes that i am his son...why cant he at least think about the consequences of his action?the impact on others and not just himself?stop being so selfish for just once and wake up?'mom came back and cleaned dad up...and he,was dead....Fuck him...i dont care..he can snore his head off for all i care...as long as he leave me alone for the next 24 hrs i will be blessed...fuck him...fuck the beers...fuck tonight...fuck....

*Yawn~~~~*long day indeed...woke up at 720 and only to realise that the GP exam starts at 745...and by the time i found out it was already 740...i literally flew out of the house and to school...advantage of living near the sch...;)anyway,GP was fine...hahaa..at least i actually had stuff to write about...unlike the last CA when i was trying to squeeze milk out of a rock..i wrote bout how ugly people doesnt have a place in our society and stuff..hahaaa..rachel was hilarious...kept sneezing during the exam and the spotlight was all on her...and she was peeking at ravish's paper and using her curving her fingers around her eyes like binoculars..hahaa..she's really funny...a little bit insane sometimes but...well what can i say?the line between being funny and being insane was never clear...hahaa..heard complains bout my blog...say very literature like and boring...FINE...i will not go on typing like that...although i really like it that way...but heck...nvm~~what shall i do today...hmm..im really really hungry...so i might start off with lunch and then a good nap on my bed...do some PW i guess...Tmr bernice and gang are coming to my house to do project...better tidy up a bit...dont wanna make a fool out of myself in front of girls reallly...hahaa.my room's a mess right now...gtg get bz..;)

Poem of the Day:
A CUTE POEM FOR A CUTE GIRL

Author: Anonimous

You changed my world with a blink of an eye
That is something that I can not deny
You put my soul from worst to best
That is why I treasure you my dearest Marites

You just don't know what you have done for me
You even pushed me to the best that I can be
You really are an angel sent from above
To take care of me and shower with love

When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear
And your touch have chased away all of my fear
You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile
It is even better everytime you smile

It so magical those things you've made
To bring back my faith that almost fade
Now my life is a dream come true
It all began when I was loved by you

Now I have found what I am looking for
It's you and your love and nothing more
Co'z you have given me this feeling of contentment
In my life something I've never felt

I wish I could talk 'til the end of day
But now I'm running out of things to say
So I'll end by the line you already know
"I LOVE YOU" more than what I could show

Song of the Moment----Hard To Say Im Sorry by Az Yet

i opened my eyes...on top of me,dark unfriendly rain clouds gathered above me.the moon hide behind the clouds and stars took shelter in the darkness of the night.thunder raged and lightning flashed...drops of rain started to fell...slowly at first...then faster and faster...swam faster with all my strength...to wherE?anywhere but here...coz i know if i stay here i will drown beneath the threatening waves...i thought of an island...an island of palm trees and waterfalls,birds and animals..and in the middle of the island where i can dwell in peace...i opened my eyes,and through the storm,i seem to see a distant island far off in the horizon...as small as a dot,as far as the moon to the stars it seemed to me...with whatever strength i have left i pushed myself forward...a wave crashed down on top...i sank to the bottom...i tried to swim back up to the surface,but the current dragged me down further...i opened my mouth to gasp for air...but water rushed in...im going to die...i thought...im drowning...in the ocean of life... ...
it burns...it pierce...its the sun shining on my face...morning has come...darkness passed...i sat up...on a beach...THE beach...the island...im alive~!i must head for the centre of the island...i walked slowly at first...then quickened my pace...and vanished into the foilage of the forest......
you must be wondering what the above is...well...at first i didnt know where im heading in my life...now i see it...the story was economics...its life threatening..i dont know anything about it..and im dying from it..suddenly i know where to head...i must study hard for it...at least my path is cleared...not cleared my god but myself and my barehands..im gonna create a world of my own...to have this world within my grasp...i know where to go and what to do now..im no longer drifting..im free...alive...kicking...;)

nice poem frm dud's blog..hahaaa...sorry dud...no copyright right? ;)

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is were I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

- Lauren Hays -

lord,are you showing me the way again?are you opening the door for me again?why even bother lord?how come nowadays when i feel hopeless and miserable she shows up all so frequently?now she is everywhere i am...are you behind this again?are you giving me opportunities again?im telling you...im not going to do anything this time...you showed me last time...you lightened up the path..i followed...and i fell into the pits of hell...once again you are doing this to me..i feel as if this is all a trap very well disguised...i wont be fooled again...i will follow my sister's path instead..hide and watch...i dont want to feel miserable anymore...nor wounded any longer...i...i am tired...exhausted...faith?lost...love?gone...hope?out of the question...wait...wake up weilien...what the hell are you doing?today was a good day...why lock yourself inside this room?let yourself out~smell the fresh air....wait...its raining outside...hahahaa...right right...lets switch the mood...okok...today was damn crazy...Yogi yeo was giving us the answers to this pop quiz we had during tutorial and he cracked the table~!believe it or not...it just cracked...that thick table top just came apart under his weight...lots of people where clueless what happened at first..i was too...until he covered his face in shame...i took a look at the table and gosh~!that crack...hahahaa...i laughed my head off really...its been awhile since i laughed so hard...since?i dont remember already...its really been awhile...it feels good to laugh...i like the feeling when im laughing so hard my stomach feels as if its gonna blow...i like to laugh like nobody's business...and since i got to nyjc i never really gotten the chance to do that...so today was exceptionally good...it rained when i was walking home..trapped at the bus stop...GREAT...guess what?i saw a advertisement made of plastic stuck onto the wall beside the bus stop...guess what?i plucked it out and covered my head as i dashed home..i guess everybody at the bus stop was stunned..hahaa...what to do?i improvised..clever move..good job..hahahaa...alright alright..i wanna take a nap now..its been awhile since i did that as well...signing out...im slping now...dreamland here i come...bye bye reality...and to rain....proceed..;)

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Christian,'Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. And then, one not-so-very special day, I sat down at my typewriter and wrote our story. A story about a time, a story about a place, a story about the people. But above all these things, a story about love. A love that will live forever. The End.'
----'Moulin Rouge'(2001)

Song of the Moment----Fallin' by Alicia Keys

Continued from August 10th's post...
im still drifting...still wandering around...in the morning the sun burns my skin and i seem to melt into the ocean...at night i star up into the cloudless sky dotted with tiny points of beautiful distant stars...sometimes when the month is right i could almost make out your face...you seem to be like the star:Auriga...guiding this lost ship through the midst of the ocean...yesterday night i sent you a message...you replied...i dont get it...i wasnt at all excited when i read your msg...why?maybe time has took its toll on me....im starting to forget how i feel for you...how my heart used to beat so hard against my chest whenever you reply my msgs...after 2 months without any form of communication was that all you can say?i can barely remember your smile...yr voice...your face...your eyes....they seem to be slowly fading away along with the current of time...'dont go...' i cry out loud...not heard...nor answered...im starting to turn my gaze elsewhere...i turned my attention to someone from my school....someone who's almost the same as you....someone who gives me the same feeling like when im around you....but someone things are different...what?i asked a few months ago when i first saw her...i was so confused at that time...both of you are so alike yet different..i couldnt figure out...maybe i found the answer to the riddle...fear...i confessed to you once before...i was rejected once before...i know the feeling of having the person of your life brush pass you and walk quietly into the night...i know how painful it felt when you indirectly said no...i feared...i built myself a wall...a wall around my heart and mind...i dont feel the same about you anymore...i dont see you like i used to any longer...when i saw her...i had a sudden urge to go up and say hi...just to fill the hole in my mind when you are not around...maybe just temporary...maybe permanently...maybe forever...but i feared...i held back...i was afraid that the same thing will happen again....i might be cut...be hurt again...so i retreated into the corner again...i wandered off into the unknown once again....i still feel the jealousy burning in my mind when she talks to some other guys...i still feel the stupidity of me when im so close to her yet so far away...i cannot overcome my fear of rejection...after all who likes rejections?i saw her through a window after my cca today...she walked home with a guy....i pretended that i didnt care...i forced myself to turn away..but when they disappeared around the corner i ran towards her...hoping that i could catch a glimpse of her from afar...i did...she was there...and you were there as well...as if walking shoulder by shoulder the image of your back appeared beside hers...she caught sight of me as i passed by her...i gave a weak smile....she did too...but not you...you shldve smiled back...but you didnt...am i crazy?am i finally going nuts?am i insane now?what is happening to me?some form of sickness after you stabbed me so hard?so i walked home...under the grey and gloomy sky i made my way home...i turned back...she walked away....you vanished...softly...quietly...i continued my journey...to drift...to wander...waiting...waiting for an absolution...an answer...help...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Romeo,'Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too boisterous, and it pricks like thorn.'
Mercutio,'If love be rough with you, be rough with love. Prick love for pricking and you beat love down.'
----'Romeo + Juliet'(1996)

Song of the Moment----Somewhere, Somehow by Wet Wet Wet

You're like a centaur!


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wah kau i got brests?hahaa..but nvm...centaur is pretty cool...

stretch~~~~awww what a loong day...longest day of the week finally over...quite slack actually...i just hate tuesdays for the looong time period...-_-#all stressed up and exhausted...anyway,hahaa..i think me and jared's fine now...well he talked to me...well...that was kinda surprising as i expected myself to be the one stepping forward...however he did first...im glad that we cleared things up...maybe not...hahaa...nvm nvm..;)well this guy from my class had made a lot of enemies apparently because he skipped a lot of classes..you know who you are babe..;)ravish aint that happy with you...angeline is obviously pissed to the core...so as the rest of your PW grp...i mean...you are sick yes but nobody seems to believe you...sigh....for me?i do believe that you are sick and everything...ive accepted the fact that you dont like school and stuff...so i guess im fine with it...after all,it doesnt affect me much anyway...perhaps you can change yr attitude towards the people around you?i dont know...ravish complained that you acted really sarcastically to him a few days ago...something bout a chair...im not sure...but from what i heard i really think you did the wrong thing...complained bout the guys on your blog..i can understand...ive been pushed around and treated like a sandbag back in sec 1 before...i know the feeling of being pushed around...walked over....or even kicked and punched...maybe your situation is not as bad as mine back in those horrible days,but hey,i changed...and im sure you can too..;)damn my hi fi got prob...shit..gotta get it fixed somehow...grrr~!!!peace out...good day y'all~!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Specially for you Rs...;)
William,'It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after your gone from my site, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.'
----'A Knight's Tale'(2001)

Song of the Moment----I'm With You by Avril Lavigne

the most insane thing happened today...someone mistook the HER i typed here in this blog as rachel...oh my god...the joke of the day and probably the millenium...yes their names both start with R...their chinese names both start with Rui...but hey...if you are reading this...SHE IS NOT RACHEL...hahaa..but i dont wanna say who she is...;)i can assure you that man...i cant believe that YOU think that i like her...we are friends yes but not to that extent...hahaa..anyway,the girl i like is called R**S***...hahaa...dont assume too much man...it gets you nowhere...anyway,ahem...i love mondays..the best day of the week...i get to slack a lot...hahaa..the whole class gets to slack a lot actually...bunch of useless lessons joined together to form one big boring day....2 GP lessons...what a killer...a period to test the students bout their ability to stay awake at all times...O_ohowever...today's GP lecture was gooood~got to watch eminem vids...hahaa..since the topic was on crime and punishment the lecturer showed us some of his vids...it's cool how the lecturers tries to add colour to the lecture...it's always nice to see how they try to improve on things...pretty cool...other than that,nothing special...boring boring day...lots of work left undone...DANG!!now i really dun like tan choon yan...*pUkE~*i cant stand her voice....the way she is treating zhuangyi...what the hell...zhuangyi might be playful sometimes and stuff but u dun have to go 'MO ZHUANGYI this MO ZHUANG YI that...' i mean..its not funny anymore?so stop insulting zhuangyi or even better...shut up?in other words,keep that hole on yr face shut bitch...you are new...a newbie...dont try to act as if you know the students so well...your voice makes me want to pull my hair out...yucks...go away...get out of my life...i want ah gong back...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
'From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you'
----From This Moment On by Shania Twain

Song of the Moment---Water Runs Dry by Boys II Men

LYRICS OF THE DAY:

All About Lovin' You by Bon Jovi


Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

[Chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do

opps...its been awhile since i last posted here...since nothing fun or exciting happened lately...or anything worthy enough to be captured by my words...well yeah...yesterday was national day...couldve went out with my friends,went to watch some fireworks...maybe even with her...but like i said,nothing but a dream right now...but she did msg me last night while i was having dinner...better than nothing i guess...after 2~3 months she msged me yesterday...this national day msg supposingly sent by LKY...hahaa...pretty cute actually...i didnt choke on my food or anything,it just came as a shock to me..i really didnt expect her to send me anything...was kinda glad...a friend of mine told me that since she msged you things might be starting all over again...and she asked me to Jiayou...i dont think there's any hope left...like what i told everyone who tried to encourage me...sigh~maybe i will wait till next year...maybe no...maybe i will not wait at all...maybe i will move on...maybe i will stay in where i am...i dont have much control over things right now...not just this but everything else around me these days..i feel like as if im drifting upon the surface of a vast ocean...not knowing where my journey started...not knowing where it will end...not having control of where i am heading,just drfiting slowly and aimlessly into the unknown horizon....just the current of life carrying me thru..i wish i have a paddle...or at least a piece of wood...at least have some form of control over the might of the ocean of life...i reach out and touch nothing...so helpless and all....argh i hate this feeling...i want to swim away...but i feel strengthless..ahh....drifting drifting drifting...slowly...helplessly...endlessly...quietly..........(to be concluded)

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Frodo,' I can't do this Sam!'
Sam,'I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn't. Because they were holding on to something.'
Frodo,'What are we holding on to Sam?'
Sam,'That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo and it's worth fighting for.'
----'The Lord of the Rings:The Two Towers'(2002)

Song of the Moment---Have i Told You Lately That I Love You by Rod Stewart

hot...hot....hot....was the word that rang thru my mind on the cultural adventure today...the sun was blazing and scorching...it burnt my back and the back of my neck and i could almost feel my brain frying deep inside my cracking skull..i tried to push my swelled legs fowards with all the strength i got left and finally reached the distination:school,in time....although my grp did not win the first prize...or second...or third....but i certainly enjoyed this experience to the max...it was fun of course..but i figured if we had more teamwork we couldve squeezed into the top 40?hahaa..i dont know..i think i shld be partially blamed for our grp's failure...as the guide i really did a bad job...or at least thats what i think...did not do much really...sigh....lack of planning was the key reason why we lost...but helli dont care...it was good..i enjoyed it...i dun care if others did...hahaa..without dud the man arnd i think i wldve died on the way...hahaa..it's always nice to have a marist arnd when u are tired and stressed...someone there to talk cock to...well my grp...not really my grp actually...i was supposed to be in CIMO until the guitar club members had to become the guide...anyway..grp CIMO got the most innovative grp name or something like that...and we got a whole lot of goodies for that...i hope yogi yeo wont finish those food by wednesday...hahaaa...i love those oreos~!i will take them as my own on wednesday!!!*eviL~666*our class has a really odd relationship..in one way we are really not united at all...small little grps here and there...some people hate or dislike one another and stuff...but on the other hand,we are really a great class....i dont know why...how do u classify our class?which category?i really dont know...under '?' ?i guess so...hahaa...lateR~*WiNk uP*

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Chuck Noland,'One day logic was proven all wrong because the tide lifted, came in, and gave me a sail. And now, here I am. I'm back. In Memphis, talking to you. I have *ice* in my glass. And I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have Kelly. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I have to keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring? '
----'Cast Away'(2000)

Song of the Moment----All You Wanted by Michelle Branch

my lovely home...my cozy room...my favourite place to be...;) like i said earlier...everything i do or say these days seems to be a mistake and seems to offend someone one way or another...i dont get it...today i was accused of abandoning somebody right after chinese class...i dont get it...all i did was to study with ravish and melvir..i dont see why you see that as 'ignore'....i was really worried bout my econs as well as my maths and they wanted to study together so i might as well jump in and study together with them...and you say i ignored you?you cant expect me to be arnd you all the time right...i DO have other friends and i have things i have to do...things i need to do myself...you mean i have to do EVERYTHING with you then you will feel betteR?honestly i dont wanna stay in that social circle right now...i wanna expand and reach out to others...i dont want to be confined any longer...to be trapped in this cage...im getting out...to explore...to discover...to breath....thats that...out

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Rose,'I love you Jack.'
Jack,'Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes.'
Rose,'I'm so cold.'
Jack,'I don't know about you, but I intend on writing a strongly worded letter to the White Star Line about all of this. You're gonna go on, and make lots of babies, and watch them grow. You're gonna die an old lady, warm in her bed. Not here, not this night. Do you understand me? Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.'
Rose,'I promise.'
Jack,'Never let go.'
Rose,'I'll never let go. I'll never let go, Jack.'
---'Titanic'(1997)

im in school right now waiting for geog to start...cant stand the fact the i wont be able to play the NYJC version of the amazing race tmr but what the hell...i get to be the guide for dud's grp...hahaa...not bad not bad...at least we can bitch arnd along the way...muaha~so much homeworks so little time..econs is a killer...although i have a little more confidence in doing maths right now but the amount of work is just unbearable...im like someone trying desperately to lay down the railway track for a bullet train...if i stop for one moment the train will fly off the track or smth...or more like a man running down the slope from an avalanche...any moment now i might just suffer from a nervous breakdown...cant take it much longer...im just not the type of person who can just sit down and study for 2 hours straight...not even an hour...the 'studying' genes not within me i guess...maybe getting good grades is just not part of the master plan Big Man has for me...just like my love life..hahahaa...what a mess that was...absolutely pathetic indeed...weird that i am typing all these in sch...haaa...i dont think i did my geog tutorial yet...i hope yogi yeo wont squash me for that...better keep it down low..i will post again when i get home later...peace out..;)

Song of the Moment----Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen

ahh...today i feel wayyy better than yesterday...probably because the incident finally had come to a halt...might be temporary or it might just end like this...but i dont really care...at least i have the time to take a breath now...phew...it was really like a damn roller coaster ride which never stoppeD?its like as if i paid wayy too much money and the coller coaster wont wanna stop...i feel so alive now...well jared asked me for a favor to pass rachel something today..and i talked to them both today...well a small step it is but it is the firsT?;)i hope this means that im back on track...hahaa..ok...guitar lesson was kinda fun today...although awfully long and hard...due to the fact that we had to learn 150+ chords...hahaa...and had to bar all the way....now thats hard...but it was really fun in my opinion...today during CT period the VP had a talk with us about our mid year results....she listed out the reasons why we did not do well etc...one of the point was that it was our first major exam and stuff...i wonder why she did not list,'LOUSY LECTURERS AND TUTORS..'which is in fact the main reason why we did not do well...maths we have Mr Cough koooi...Mrs 'i love to scream into the mike' wong...Mr GuiLan adrian tan...mr loke is a funny guy la...gotta improve on that voice of yrs though..hahha...Mr 'Spontaneous Tit Disintegration' Yee...(the reason why he is called STD is because he sweats alot in his chest area...heh)i mean...with all these teachers how to do well u tell me?god cannot help me too...hhaa...anyway...im leaving...peace out..~!!!lurve my clasS!!!03a4a=unbeatable...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Greg Focker,'You can milk just about anything with nipples.'
Jack Byrnes,'I have nipples, Greg, could you milk me?'
----'Meet The Parents'(2000)

Song of the Moment----Dont Speak by No Doubt

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LYRICS OF THE DAY:

Nobody Can Hold Us Down by Christina Aguilera

So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch cos I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled

When a female fires back
Suddenly the target don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy will do
Making up a few false rumors or two

That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended by the message I'm bringing
Call me whatever cos your words don't mean a thing
Guess you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing

side note:anyone wants to F- 03a4a can try to do so...but you will die a horrible death as we will stand 2gether and kill you...try us...grrr~*

dead dead im so dead...i told myself to forget about that whole jared incident...my friendship with jared is gone...rachel hates me now....i had hope this morning to get patch up with rachel...but no?weiyi asked me what jared said bout our class...and what did he scold bout us...i said,'just scolded f loh..'and she went to announce to the world...not that i blame her or anything...i wouldve done the same i guess...but i looked at rachel after she announced...and she sorta looked at me...then turned back...i sensed the 'i hate you' thing going on in her eyes...and i wanted to shut wei yi up...until mr yeo asked weiyi why he scolded us and weiyi said,'ask weilien..'and i knew that any chance of patching up is over...i looked at her again after that...and she was still looking at me...with that same 'shut the f up' look...i dont know how weiyi found out bout this...i really dont know...im sure rachel wants to kill me now..(check out my msn nic)ive already told the world but jared's secret on my blog...and now im doing this?why?i told myself to forget...i told myself to shut up...what happened to all that?rachel hates me...probably liu yin and wan jun soon after...then maybe the whole class after that...i hate to be hated...i hate to be disliked...i hate it when i commit the same mistake again...i hate it when the one person i hope to forgive me,hates me...i hate it...i hate it....shut up...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Mrs Gump,' Life's a box of chocolates, Forrest. You never know what you're gonna get.'
----'Forrest Gump'(1994)

Song of the moment----A Little Respect by Wheatus

was getter ready to talk to HIM this morning..i couldnt slp the whole night...not because i offended him really...but that R*'s really blaming everything on herself...i guess thats the thing i am most depressed about...i dont deny that i share part of the blame but at least let me talk to you?i tried to talk to you but u rejected my call and ignored everything...and then you go on and blame the whole world about this...when the only person that should be blamed is me...all im trying to do is to tell you the truth..you didnt need to insult my class...anyway,i didnt get to talk to you...thats fine...i'll just live my life as normal like what R* is trying to do right now...like what a friend of mine said,'why should you be so depressed over such a matter?he's a jerk..'i know im in the wrong but you never bothered to tell me what i can do to make it up for it...therefore you missed your chance and im not gonna care about this incident any longer...i shall press the delete button and delete any memorie that has got to do with this...its something im willing to forget...i assure you that this will not happen any longer...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Frodo,'It's a pity Bilbo didn't kill him when he had the chance.'
Gandalf,'Pity? It was pity that stayed Bilbo's hand. Many that live deserve death. Some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them, Frodo? Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends. My heart tells me that Gollum has some part to play yet, for good or ill before this is over. The pity of Bilbo may rule the fate of many.'
----'The Lord Of The Rings:The Fellowship Of The Ring'(2001)

Song of the Moment----Here I Am by Bryan Adams

a great apology to MELANCHOLY...

if you ever get to read this dont blame it on HER and pls blame it on me...i edited everything and no one will know that its you..at least the people from now on wont know...great apology for that...

right...wokr up at 10 this morning to prepare myself for the trip to east coast...met sammo at 1130 and we took 135 to parkway parade...was supposed to meet krishna at 1230 but that guy came wandering to us at 1250...'had to shake jeremy off my back...' he said...well me and sammo had to circle round parkway parade for zillions of times...i think if we ran instead of walk at parkway parade we wouldve completed the 2.4 run...anyway..we bumped into mark tan while waiting for krishna to arrive..not that ideal person to bump into on a nice sunday afternoon indeed but what the hell...me and sammo needed someone to talk cock to and there he was standing in front of us claiming that he was waiting for andrew chia...hahaa..i wonder hows that big guy....which sch is he in now?hmm...heard he did quite welll for the Os...anyway,krishna came and we went to the beach...as he was mentally unprepared for the training later he wanted to each lunch first...so we got to mac for lunch..(yes...not the best place to have lunch but i wanted to start early and save money...seemed like a ideal place to do that...)after that we went to the shop to rent some bikes...took off right after i adjusted my sit...leaving krishna behind trying to balance himself on the bike...yes...he's 17 and he doesnt know how to ride a bike..however..he knows how to drive a car...sammo commented that its like,'a pilot without a driving license and a lorry driver who doesnt know how to walk...' i laughed my head off back then...it totally made sense to me...anyway...krishna made fast progress...within half an hour he managed to ride 30 cm...which is surprising considering his size...he crashed awhile later and got up smiling...he thought that it was really fun to fall...in my opinion i dont think 'happy' should be the right feeling you should have in that moment in time..hahaa...but anyway,he got up and took off again...unfortunately the chains came off...just one crash and his bike is already falling apart..i dont remember my bike falling apart after my first fall...hmm...anyway..after an hour or so he was able to ride smoothly already so we rode from one end of the coast to the other and back...saw this fat lady wearing bikini on the way and i almost fell off my bike...it was disgusting to see fats flowing out from under her bikini and stuff...puke puke...i really was hoping to see Rs there actually..hahaa...for some reason i really hope that she will jump into my way and say hi...or ride beside my bike and chi chat a little...not that im not happy with krishna and sammo..but i couldve been happier with her there...national day next week...back in march i was planning on bringing her to krishna's place to watch the fireworks...after that we will cross the bridge to the seafood resturant for dinner and take a stroll in the pool under krishna's place...but what's the point?as if anything will spark there...its dumb...its lame..its pointless..bah!!today was a good day...lets not remind myself bout the pathetic life i have...okok...i gtg now...peace out...later~

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Melvin Udall,'I've got a really great compliment for you, and its true.'
Carol Connelly,'I'm so afraid you're about to say something awful.'
Melvin Udall,'Don't be pessimistic, it's not your style. Anyway, here goes: I've got this, what, ailment. Now, my doctor, this shrink I used to go to all the time, says that in fifty to sixty percent of cases, a pill really helps. I HATE pills, hate them. I'm using the word "hate" about pills. Anyway, my compliment to you is the night after you came over and said that you would never . . . well, you were there, you know what you said. Anyway, the very next morning, I started taking the pills.'
Carol Connelly,'I don't quite get how that's a compliment for me.'
Melvin Udall,'You make me want to be a better man.'
----'As Good As It Gets'(1997)

Song of the Moment---Love Song for a Savior by Jars of Clay

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just came back from sungei buloh...expected it to be kinda bad but it turned out to be really cool..aside from the mosquitos though...came up close and personal with a big lizard..yikes...i was kinda worried that it might see han wei as 'FOOD'...we saw a lot of those along the way..mr YEO said that we were lucky to see so many today...normally they are really shy creatures...sigh...too bad i never see crocodiles and snakes...muahahaa...but i guess i should be thankful about it...;)i dont wanna be breakfast if you know what i mean..heh..its kinda freaky...saw this squirrel too...really cute stuff...wanted to touch it but it ran away...but i got to touch the fishes though..hahaa..they are scary man...there was this fish they caught at a fish farm...ITS HUGE~!!even han wei and MR yeo got scared by it..its at least the size of my bed and thicker than i....this guy working there fed that...MONSTER and it was like...'GRRRRRRRRRRRRR....'it sorta leaped out of the water to eat it...and the girls were screaming their head off...the guys were asking that guy to feed more..hahaa...ravish's hand almost got chewed off really...that crazy guy wanted to touch the monster's head...decided not to after that guy fed that thing..haha~and on the bus trip back me and rachel were singing jay chou songs and stuff...really cool...hahaa...she thought i sang really well..haha~*shy*anyway..was hoping that mr yeo can sing superman for us...but he was really shy bout it...sigh...that sucked..i really wanted to hear the big guy sing...i think that jia ying is a professional mosquito killer...she managed to hit a mosquito and it actually left blood on her paper...is that pro or what?;)i really dont get it sometimes...why do people hate each other in our class..i mean...life in school sux..life in nyjc sux even more...why cant we just help each other thru this mess?i used to be ignorant and ignored people's good side...all i thought was,'oh she's a bitch he's a bastard!" and i never bothered or cared to see people's good sides...i never wanted to change my mind about them only until recently...well i figured why should we hate and dislike each other?its not going to make our lives in NYJC a more enjoyable and happier one...so i thought maybe i should try to look at people from a totally different angle and i did find something good about them...like when i was back in srjc...i never really liked jane and evon...until i talked to them and thought they are not as bad really...i was really wrong to dislike someone back then..i think i couldve done something better...and i hope i can make up for it..;)alright...signing off...later..peace out..

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Jenny Curran,'Were you scared in Vietnam?'
Forrest Gump,'Yes. Well, I-I don't know. Sometimes it would stop raining long enough for the stars to come out...and then it was nice. It was just like before the sun goes to bed down on the bayou. There was always a million sparkles on the water...like that mountain lake. It was so clear, Jenny, it looked like there were two skies one on top of the other. And then in the desert, when the sun comes up, I couldn't tell where heaven stopped and the earth began. It's so beautiful. '
Jenny Curran,'I wish I could've been there with you.'
Forrest Gump,'You were.'
------'Forrest Gump' (1994)

Song of the moment----Fixing A Broken Heart by Indecent Obsession

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Yikes..my sister fell down at outram MRT yesterday...got this nasty wound on her left knee and according to her it was like a massacre on the MRT train...there was blood everywhere...well pretty freaky indeed...anyway,now her knee is swallow and red...and she cant walk...kinda piti her a little bit...now she gotta go around the house on a scooter...im not sure what you call those anyway...she kneeled down on the escalator...they have really sharp edges and she just kneeled on top of it...ouchhh...imagine the pain...*chills..*hope she's alright yea~;)

Song of the moment----Push it by Garbage

right...was supposed to go for the maris stella founder's day ceremony tonight but my buds are not going~!grr...sorry dud...krishna ends at 6 and by the time he reaches the school all that will be left will be the leftovers...samuel ends at 6 too and he wont wanna go unless krishna goes...so i will be stucked at home...damn that sucks..i really wanna see ragu and punch the living daylight out of that guy,see han li kwang and run away like i always did,use hp in front of DK!!always wanted to do all those stuff..i guess i'll have to wait till teachers' day...which is a month or so from now...anyway,just got back from afternoon PE...sigh....had to do like 100+ weight lifting and push ups blah blah...whatever those are for...tmr morning i will be in school meeting mr yeo going for a field trip to sungei something...i really cant spell the name but gosh...my saturday morning ruined by it...having to wake up at 7+ in the morning from my warm fuzzy blankets and crawl out of bed..wear that crap uniform and come to school to meet mr YEO..not that it is bad or anything but i prefer to not see him at all for the weekend...no harsh feelings yea?;)cant believe zhuangyi wants to pluck his eyebrows for yi wei or something...thats crazy!!i think instead of improving on his looks why dont he just be LESS childish...if i tell people that he's from secondary 3 i dont think anybody will doubt my words...but nonetheless he is a nice guy...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Joey,'Alright rach,the big question is,does he like you...right...because if he doesnt like you...then this is all a MOO point..'
Rachel,'oh...a...MOO point?'
Joey,'yeah...its like a cow's opinion..it doesnt matter...its MOO...'
Rachel,'have i been living with him for too long coz that just made sense..'
Monica,'Please dont listen to joey..would you look at him?he is obviously depressed,he is away from his family,he's spending thanksgiving with strangers...what he needs right now is for you to be his friend..'
Rachel,'oh you're right..im sorry thank you..ok that's what im gonna do..'
Joey,'ahhh...fine...take their advice...no one ever listens to me...when the package is THIS pretty,no one cares what's inside...'
------FRIENDS 708 the one where chandler doesnt like dogs..

Song of the Moment----Where you are by Jessica Simpson feat. Nick Lachey

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